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pour one out for kevin day, queen of exy, for fumbling both jeremy knox AND jean moreau. personally i would never recover

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I really want Jean to have a moment where he truly gets over his complicated feelings for Kevin. To accept that things were fucked because there was no other option. That Kevin still cares deeply for him even if he doesn't see Jean that way.

I also want Jean to text Kevin "Had sex with your crush. Die mad about it" and not elaborate.

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i promise i will pretend to be shocked when jeremy's stepgrandfather being some decrepit dirty corrupt congressman links into the mafia plot

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Neil including Jean in his deal with Ichirou. Neil being Jean’s “misplaced forever partner, an unfulfilled promise Jean stopped believing in years ago.” Jean watching out for Neil at Evermore. Neil repaying his debt to Jean by beating Riko. Neil touching his foot to Jean’s to ground him on more than one occasion. Him immediately ordering a hit on Grayson after receiving just a hint of what he’d done to Jean. Neil reminding Jean that Elodie too was a Moreau and that Jean is worth saving. I just can’t do it.

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Yeah, sure I’ll keep drawing Gerry and I’ll be so normal about it

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everyday i pray into the universe that nora will decide to actually make two more books for the sunshine court because 1) i’m not ready to move on from them after the next book 2) i have no idea how she’ll manage to fit the entire year into one book compared to three like aftg & 3) i am delusional and love these silly gay people

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my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

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Absolutely obsessed with Jean specifically requesting to have to sign a contract saying he has to be nice in order to get himself to do it

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thinking about neil telling jean, “it’s impressive, isn’t it? how easily these monsters die in the end.”

and just… AHHHHHHHH.

the fact that both of their abusers are dead but how much they’ve had to suffer to get to this point! and it wasn’t easy in any way and they’re both going to be healing for a long time.

but also riko and nathan were just men who were killed by a gun.

something about the outsized weight of their emotional trauma vs how their abusers actually went down with a single gunshot and the unfairness of it all

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The comparison between Zane (Jean's temporary partner) not protecting Jean from Grayson when it was needed the most versus Neil (Jean’s “misplaced forever partner”) immediately getting rid of Grayson the second he finds out he hurt Jean.

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i love riz gukgak because hes a little cunt but is also kind and gentle at heart and i love gorgug thistlespring because he is kind and gentle at heart but is also a little cunt

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there were DEFINITELY 10 cats the last time we checked in with aelwyn she is accumulating cats at an alarming rate and i love that for her

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my apologies siobhan thompson i was not familiar with your sapphic swag

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no but if sandralynn dated bobby dawn her taste in men is hysterical cause so far her known dating history is -cleric of sol -literal devil -werewolf with a wild past turned kindly school counselor -gilear

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this was a threat

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y'all not to doxx myself too hard but irl i have spent some time in my life in mental health recovery, and i am here to tell anyone who needs to hear it that people with multiples & schizophrenia & psychosis & BPD are fun and interesting and lovable people and my friends

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realizing now that the ratgrinders probably DIDN'T kill lucy frostblade at all. likely, they were all killed by the same entity (jace or some other proxy of the rage goddess) at the same time and lucy was just the only one with the integrity to stay dead, instead of becoming a puppet. that's why ruben was so sad when he said she "stuck to her guns." because he wishes he had been able to be that brave instead of living with a constant anger inside him that overshadows every other part of his life! their grief is, on some level, probably genuine

but now they've passed the moral event horizon and killed buddy almost as a sort of "initiation" ritual. a messed-up version of hazing. "you can't be one of us until you die and come back wrong too"