yourmodeensicarus

[yourmodeensicarus]

Don’t get to close to him they say

He will burn you if you stay

He’s moody

He’s insane

He refuses to ever take the blame

And just like the sun he will disappear as it rains

Oh but how beautiful he is

Oh how kind he is

He can make the whole room glow with that smile of his

He comforts those with the warmth Of his heart

He listens when no one else will

Oh and you’ve not seen him when he’s happiest

But again neither have I

For he will not leave the sky

But as I get to know him up and up I fly

Oh how long i wish to stay in your embrace

Burn me as much as you need

For from you I will not flee

We can fight through the rain as long as you stay

I will calm your moods any time of the day

Oh but my dear please don’t push me away

He lights up every room with that smile of his

He learned to take the blame

He comforts me with the warmness of his heart

Oh how much I fear the day we will part

He lets me in but only for a bit

Until it’s my wings that now have been lit

From the sky

From the heavens I fall

With a smile

I laugh

With no regrets of getting to know him

No regrets at all

[yourmodeensicarus]

You..you exist

I know we are paired

In ways most do not care

I know you exist

I know you

But it’s foggy, a mist

This uncontrollable urge to meet your calm gaze

If only your eyes weren’t just haze

I yearn for your touch; for your words

I know you exist

I know our paths will cross

I know you exist..

Do you know i do?

[yourmodeensicarus]

Oh how a species can remain apathetic;

Such injustice, hate, famine, genocide, despair;

Oh how one species can make life so unfair;

Your silence speaks volumes and shows humanity’s true colours;

my oh my are they pathetic.

[yourmodeensicarus]

Quick love is not something I want

To have you leave the second I start to trust

To have you look at me with only lust

To only talk to me because I can fill a spot after a breakup

To only engage when you want something but ignore the moment I do

To tell me that I’m the one you miss

But gods forbid, ever the one you kiss

I don’t want quick love

But that’s the only thing I know

The one thing I wish would go

I want real love

I want to talk for hours

Or sit in silence

I want to hold your hand

And make you feel excited

I want to make you laugh

To make you giggle

To make you smile

With all sorts of stupid jokes and riddles

I want to do all the mundane things in life with just us two

I want your gaze to light up when I tell everything to you

I want to be bragged about

Talked about

Shown off

I want to be more than just a secret

I want you to tell others how you feel and mean it

I want to fall asleep in your arms

I want us both to feel safe

Far from any harm

I want your attention

Not all the time but when you can give it

I wanna jokingly make you mad, or make you livid

I don’t want a perfect love

We can bicker and we can fight

And gods know that we definitely might

I want to have arguments and us disagree

I however want us to be stable enough to know that neither of us will leave

I want you to respect me the way that I will you

I don’t ever want us to go to bed upset with each other

I want you to believe that every argument and every fight

It can be fixed

I don’t want to be ignored or treated like i don’t exist

I want us to talk through everything with each other

Come to an agreement that benefits one another

I want to watch the stars with you

I want to hear you ramble on about your day

I want to hear every single word you say

I want to hear if you hum or sing

I want to hear you because of the joy you bring

I don’t want a quick love

I don’t want a perfect one

I just want you to look at me like I mean more to you than what my body can do

Or as if we are in a world with just us two

I just want you to love me the way I love you

-a hopeless romantics wishes

[yourmodeensicarus]

Sometimes emotions can be draining

But oh how I’d rather feel drained

Than go back to feeling numb

Feeling nothing at all

-random thoughts, random feelings, RANDOM.

[yourmodeensicarus]

You know those times

When you know nothing quite rhymes

But you still look at those same patterns and lines

The ones where your bod yearns for touch

It yearns for the soft ones

The careful ones

The sexual ones

The loving and passionate ones

The ones where you look into his eyes as he holds you in his arms

The moment you see him smile and feel safe from any harm

The ones when it’s just the two of you curious as what lies underneath

The ones where you look at eachother and smile because you found the one and you’re in awe and disbelief

The ones where they are quick and sneaky

So your parents don’t know everything you do together isn’t clean and squeaky

The ones that are romantic

Leaving you feeling dizzy from love instead of panic

The ones he means and the ones he doesn’t

The ones i love because it wasn’t

Planned as much things about love are not

Oh how with that one person I’d love to get caught

Not caught doing something naughty

Not caught doing something wrong

But getting caught in his gaze

Where everything else becomes a haze

And we sit and talk and we laugh about our days

Because you love me

And you don’t hate that I care

You don’t hate when I talk so much I run out of air

You love being around me because I can make you smile

Sometimes in ways you haven’t done in a while

And oh boy do I love you

For your the only person in which anything for you I’d do

You make me laugh harder than ever, harder to catch my breath

You make me not focus or care about the others who left

You make me so giddy that butterflies fill my tummy

And honestly so much more makes you my favourite dummy

I yearn for your touches and for your company

I yearn for your laughter; I wish to hear that symphony

I look forward to when our paths cross

And we can enjoy EACHOTHERS touches

The ones where our body’s beg for touch

for the soft ones

The careful ones

The sexual ones

The loving and passionate ones

The hopeful and hopeless ones

The sad ones

The first ones

The last ones

For you are the first person I want to hug like there’s no one else

and the last person who manages to ever make my heart melt.