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people that don’t morally agree with me thinkin they can talk shit without my friends filling me in must be dumber than a bag of fuckin bricks, like bitch, who are you again? 

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love livin that hoe life but if anyone tries to catch feels ima slap em down like a fly, smack smack mofo.

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ignore posts below this!

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whenever matt leaves me those little messages it makes me dizzy with love, he’s just so sweet and its so amazing that someone could feel like that about me... i love him so endlessly, i really can’t wait to spend forever with him 

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Learn how to speak. But…how to speak the truth? How to knock at wisdom’s door? How to cushion the words we utter, with hope? There are other languages than our hate speech. We must. Learn how to speak softly. We must. Give rise to the language of humanity. We must. Love, love, love in a million ways, to learn how to speak again.

language; hate speech; words matter // @hinasyeda (via hinasyeda)

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Give me emotion! They beseech with a screech– What they mean is give them Something to sink their teeth Into, an emotional leech– As if you can emote on cue Whether you feel it or not. All they care about is what They can get out of you: A rising reaction, tears, Or a lost temper will make Them feel like a big winner. They grin when you bare Your heart; they eye spilled Guts with a gleeful gleam… And they dare call you a sucker! Well, they can suck on this… A cold shoulder is all They’ll be getting from me.

So long, sucker! (via dolores-hazy)

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call me sharon needles because i be burning these hoes out whatever whatever whatever, you know? everything danny says is whatever 

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i say it a lot and i’m still sure of it’s validity; matt is all i really need

but sometimes i forget how nice it can be to see a friend- sure it was a trip but that was nice in it’s own way. i neglect the fact that friendship can feel like more than a chore sometimes, i guess, and i should really start giving my friends more of my time and attention despite the whole constantly exhausted and not actually needing them thing. like, just because you dont need something to survive doesn’t mean you should restrict yourself from it’s pleasures, i gotta remember that. 

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the only thing i’m sure of is how much I want to make you smile

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my heart does a happy lil jump just thinking of you

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the stars are real pretty but they can’t outshine the gleam in your eyes when you smile at me

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i want it to be like this. 

feel like this.

forever

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the sooner you look past the little things the easier it is to ignore and desensitise yourself to them

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i’d like to start off by saying i never thought i’d fall in love. 

i had always liked the idea (who doesnt), always idealised it and sang about it and wrote about it and daydreamed about it, but i never, ever. everrrr though it was something i could achieve for myself. 

serious relationships between myself and other people rarely happen, because i dont feel that easily or openly. when they do happen they usually don’t last long because all it ever is is a feeling of elation for a week or two that just dies down. 

but this?  this is so much different, i couldn’t ever picture myself in the future without matt now. i’ve always believed in soulmates i just didn’t think one was made for me, but looking at him now i can’t help but laugh at myself. i love him and- we really are meant to be together. dont ask how i just know. 

and to think its only been 5 months, 5 months and he’s already the entire world to me. its just shocking. 

i sort of understand love a lot better now. sometimes love has to be hard, sometimes its bad and you fight but when you come back its even better. i either didn’t realise before, i or didn’t think it was worth the effort of fixing. i’ve always preferred to do things the easy way, maybe i’m lazy, i dont know, but when things get hard its easier to get angry and push it all away then sit down and figure things out. that couldn’t be further from the truth when it comes back to matt. 

i dunno what it is about him. probably everything. he’s so special to me, and i mean it when i say i’ve never felt this way about anyone. 

the other day when he mentioned how soft i was around him and how willing i was to budge rather than taking my usual stubborn approach was a little shocking, i played it cool but i hadn’t even realised that i do that for him. i dont even budge on shit for my own mom, like... this boy is something else entirely, the feelings i have for him are something else entirely and i cant wait to keep feeling this way for the rest of my life. with him. 

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my soulmate will spontaneously belt out grease songs with me all summer long

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i was thinking today, feeling, that sort of thing

i’m known for being negative, pessimistic, whatever but like... i act like a brat a lot but my life actually isn’t- hasn’t ever really been that bad. 

i’ve got the best family i could ever ask for, i’ve got a mother who loves me endlessly and will literally always support me no matter what, my cousin is my best friend and my manager and we’ve only ever had good times together and helped each other through the bad, my brothers are literally the best brothers i could ever ask for and fuck, i have my literal soulmate moving in with me in my favourite city in the whole world. i’m so fucking lucky, and so fucking grateful that my life has come to this point and i honestly wouldn’t trade any part of it for the world, matt made it all come full circle and i don’t know where i’d be or what id’ do without him but i know thats not something i’ve got to worry about anymore. 

i’m just so, fucking lucky. i wish i was able to communicate that more, act a little more positive, say it a little more, because i’m really, really happy with where i am, who i’m with and what i’ve achieved.