yunjingirl

[yunjingirl]

strapwarming with dani and the casual dominance of it all... sitting on her lap while she pins your hands behind your back with one hand, the other lazily scrolling through her phone like nothing’s happening. barely looking at you, acting all unbothered until she shifts her hips just right, forcing you to take it deeper😵‍💫 she'll ignore you for what feels like hours except for when she leans in to press the softest kisses to your shoulder, your collarbone, your jaw, reminding you that you're the center of her world even if she's testing how much you can handle without her giving you her all....... somebody sedate me

[yunjingirl]

yunjin drabble <3

you're not sure when it happened. when casual touches turned into something more. when soft, innocent gazes became something deeper. something longing. but as you sit here on the practice room floor, watching yunjin move through new choreography, you wonder: how could it not? how could you not have fallen in love with her? even now, red in the face and drenched in sweat from hours of practice, she's beautiful. as you watch a drop fall from her temple and trail down to her neck, you're reminded of all the times your lips had followed that same path.

"gonna join in anytime soon or are you just gonna keep staring at me?" yunjin teases, meeting your eyes through the mirror with a playful smile.

you feel a pang of guilt, like you've been caught doing something you shouldn't. but you can't help it. you break eye contact and glance around the room, the familiar itch crawling under your skin. the fear that someone else had seen the way you were looking at her.

she steps closer, arms crossed, expression unreadable as she looks down at you. she raises an eyebrow, eyes glinting with familiar playfulness.

"maybe watching you practice helps me memorize the choreo quicker. ever think of that?" you scoff, trying to play it off. but you both know you're lying through your teeth. deflecting never really worked with yunjin. she's always seen right through you.

"oh, really?" she challenges.

"really." you shoot back, matching her tone. that makes her crack, a smile tugging at her lips. she extends her hand, and you take it without hesitation.

getting back into position, you try to shake off every yunjin-shaped thought flooding your mind. it's useless. you're hopeless.

"come on, silly." she mumbles, pulling you up with ease. her hand drops from yours, only to settle at your waist, guiding you to the center of the room. you sigh, easily giving in.

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later that night, you're curled up on the living room couch, fresh from the shower. your damp hair clings to the back of your neck, and every muscle aches from hours of rehearsal. the comeback is nearing. your stomach twists in anxiety. the pressure, the expectations, it’s all starting to settle in. but before your thoughts can spiral too far, a voice cuts through the quiet.

you don't need to look up to know who it is. yunjin peeks around the corner, eyes locking onto yours. she holds out a hand, her expression leaving no room to argue. you nod and take it, your fingers intertwining like it's second nature. she leads you into her room and quietly shuts the door behind you.

"hey, y/n, can you come here for a sec?"

"what's up?" you ask, stepping inside. instead of answering, she untangles your fingers and guides yours to the back of her neck. you fidget with the hair there. her arms slip around your waist, pulling you in like she has a hundred times before.

"nothing." she murmurs. "i just missed you today." she tugs you even closer, erasing the last bit of space between you.

"jen..." you whisper, a silent warning laced in your voice, one you both choose to ignore. your eyes flick to her lips before meeting her gaze again.

maybe she moves first. maybe you do. maybe it doesn't even matter. your lips find hers in a tentative kiss. it's soft, fleeting, like you're both waiting for the world to crash down around you. you feel her hands tighten around you as you melt into her. she fists your t-shirt, afraid that you'll disappear if she lets go.

you part for a second, and then you're kissing her again. rougher this time, more desperate. like you're both holding on to something doomed from the start, trying to avoid the inevitable end of this thing between you. you're the one that pulls away first. you rest your forehead against hers, eyes still shut. you exhale shakily before you break the silence.

"i missed you too, you know. a lot." you open your eyes to look at her, your fingers tracing her jaw delicately as you take her in. "i didn't mean to ignore you." you whisper. "but every time i so much as look at you, i feel like... like everyone's just staring at me."

"oh, baby..." she murmurs, her voice thick with understanding. she knows what it's like to be constantly watched. to feel like no matter what you do, there are always unrelenting eyes scrutinizing and picking you apart. and it's exhausting. so so exhausting.

"it's okay. i get it." she continues, and you melt against her as she does. your head drops to her shoulder, half to hide the blush from yunjin calling you 'baby', half just wanting to breathe her in. she pulls you in by the waist, fingers playing with the hem of your shirt, dipping underneath to feel your skin.

no words are exchanged for a while. you stand there, arms around each other and soaking in the quiet. after a day of endless schedule, dance practice, of pretending this doesn't matter, like it doesn't even exist... this is exactly what you needed.

it's yunjin who breaks the silence this time.

"let's not think about it now, okay?" she sighs, pulling back to look at you. her hands cup your face, and she kisses the corner of your mouth. "we still have a couple hours to ourselves. let's just... enjoy them. right?"

you nod into her hands, mumbling a small agreement. you turn your head to kiss her palm and step back from her. you intertwine your hands and drag her to her bed. she pushes you down gently. you giggle, breathless, half protesting as she collapses on top of you.

when you fall asleep beside her, you can finally breathe again. because at the end of the day, no matter what anyone else thinks, you'll always have yunjin. and when you wake up, with that familiar pool of anxiety swirling in your stomach, the world feels just a little easier to handle with her by your side.

[yunjingirl]

hii i'm about to post a little yunjin drabble i wrote. its the first time i write something like this and also the first time im posting on tumblr in general so i'm not sure if anyone's going to read it but if you did, id love to hear what you thought :) i love constructive criticism