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Happy New Year! I'm kinda okay now. :) I guess it's true that you deserve what you tolerate so I'm learning to set my boundaries. Hopefully this year, I can recognize my worth. I'm talking about my SO btw teehee 🤭 we're still together but this time, I'll be wiser. No more chances. How about you? How was your holidays? :)

Hello! It's been a long time! I'm proud of you for setting boundaries! <3 Loving yourself is the best gift you can give to yourself you know? I'm still surviving, work, law school and personal relationships and my holiday was just spending time with family. How about you? :D

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This hits so close to home. I cried the first time reading this. I've only been going to Law School for a year but the pain and hardships were something else.

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Burning bridges is a way God saves you!

A little update on my law school life and context on what happened.

For context: I am part of the working block in Law School. I am part of a tiny friend group, there are four of us. Let's just number them: F1, F2, and F3. So F1 just suddenly started ignoring me, F2 and F3 out of nowhere. We had no idea why. We didn't bother reaching out since maybe she needs space because it's the Finals, she would need time alone to study. However, after Finals was done she still didn't talk to us, we didn't reach out since she deliberately goes out of her way to avoid us.

In our group, we do have digest pools for cases. Most of the time she's the one fixing and compiling. She has the most time among us for some reason but we do our best to keep up and contribute. So I am unsure if she got mad due to it. Everyone in the group works in different industries and it's a given work can be very hectic for some of us in the group.

Today, I learned that she said to someone that she doesn't cut people off just because, she cuts them off due to academics.

I am just relieved she showed her true colors early. That she only wanted friends who would be able to contribute Sample Exams or Notes to her academic life. F2, F3 and I had that speculation, but confirming the reason is such a relief. Most of the time, we don't really rely on Sample Exams but we do contribute notes. We didn't know that it wasn't enough for her. The speculation was further solidified when we saw she was always hanging out with the upper classmen since they would surely have past exams from the previous year and don't bother with other people in our class.

I'm just relieved that my prayer for a peaceful law school life and environment is true and that the Lord truly listened to my prayer and is protecting me. I was sad at first on the outcome of the friendship but now I know it was for a good reason.

The relief I felt was overwhelming, knowing that I didn't loose any significant connection and the Lord was protecting me. I am happy that she decided to remove herself because I'm very loyal to my friends. I don't think I can stomach being friends with someone who only looks at your based on what you can bring to the table.

'If transactional ang friendship, wag na lang'

Thank you so much for hearing my prayer Lord and protecting me from people that can cause me harm. 🪬

Toxic people weeding themselves out of my life isn't in my 2024 Bingo Book but thank you Lord it's a much welcome blessing and thank you for protecting my peace. 🫶

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Hi! Thank you so much for taking the time to read all my messages. I'm glad I didn't creep you out by dumping my life lil drama just like that. I'm not really doing well rn but yeah still striving. I cried a lot these last few months, like A LOT. I even found myself crying in a public transpo!!! Would you believe that? I'll save that story for later, it's sad and I don't wanna pass my negative energy on you but next time, I'll tell you. Anyway, how's life? how are you doin'?

It's all good! Hey, I'm here on tumblr and dumping my life drama as well! If you feel better by telling me about life, feel free. I'm happy I could be of help in relieving even a little bit of the sadness you're feeling. Feel free to tell me next time :( I hope you're doing better now.

Life's still hectic juggling school and work. I'm still managing for now. I hope you can tell me something that made you happy this year? :)

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And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too.

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Hello guys, musta na kayo rito? Kumusta na mga pangarap niyo? Kumusta na yung mga problemado dati sa pag-ibig na may mga asawa na? Sana okay lang kayo lahat. Sana you made it this far. Proud ako sa ating lahat. Masaya ako sa narating ng karamihan sa atin. Dala-dala natin ang memorya ng bawat isa. Andito lang ako palagi nakamasid sa lahat ng achievements niyo.

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Being too hard on myself is counterproductive

Shoutout to my psychiatrist from MindNation Debbie! You helped me a lot in processing my emotions!! :>

Typically, I am a person who knows how to do a self-assessment on my own emotions and I can process it well. That's why my stress tolerance is high as can be. However, I can break.

I've been so busy lately juggling everything. I work from home at 8AM, go to school starting at 6PM, go home at 10PM, study until 2AM. But if I'm too tired, I go to sleep right away and just wake up at 3AM or 4AM to study until I have to work at 8AM. This schedule includes life stuff - cooking, eating, cleaning, bathing, prepping myself for school. This has been my schedule from Mondays to Fridays for my first year, second semester in law school.

I still have Saturday classes which start at 1PM. However, I get up at 6AM, eat breakfast, prep myself and clean up, go to school at 8AM and stay there to study until my class at 1PM. Then go to class from 1PM to 4PM, go to formation law from 4PM to 6PM then study from 6PM to 8PM with dinner in between then go to my last class for the week which is from 8PM to 10PM.

At Sundays, my day is reserved for resting or I go out when my boyfriend comes so I do have a rest day. But still I do also chores which is grocery shopping since I do live alone. After that at 4PM or 6PM, I study for my Monday classes and the cycle repeats.

Sounds overwhelming? Yes it does. What's surprising is that when I go to school, yes I do feel sleepy, I do feel tired but still I am there, I still read and do my school related tasks. It's because I do love going to Law School. However, if my performance drops I take up extra time in my studies and I also overcompensate and just forsake resting in general.

Well, this affected me so much as a person. Debbie told me to take conscious breaks and don't be too hard on myself. Learn to take breaks, learn to celebrate the little things you do and take care of yourself more.

Resting does not mean you're being a procrastinator. It means you value yourself and your overall health more. Now, I value the time that I am resting and keeping at my pace this semestral break so I can comeback stronger than ever!

Rest is as important as grinding for your future :>

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Moving on to 2L!

I have to say manifestations does work! 2ND Semester of Law School has been an absolute beast. I barely passed my exams and I survive by doing fairly well on recitations but even so, a win is a win and I passed!

Normally, it would get me worried that I don't pass written exams but considering I still passed at the end and had a CGPA above average I can still say it's a win instead of looking at the negative side of things.

I had consulted with my psychiatrist twice this year. She helped me process my emotions specially since she made me realize that I am being too hard on myself. There are small wins and big wins and all of those should be celebrated.

Going into law school, I had high expectations for myself but LS really humbled me A LOT. I also learned A LOT. In dealing with studies, work, life and relationships.

I endured a lot in my second semester but still, I am happy with the outcome and am now finally moving up!

Now, I am resting as hard as I can to be all charged up for the start of 2nd Year's first Semester.

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Also, I'm happy you passed the first sem and congratulations on your job promotion. I know you can pass the second sem too. :) Sorry for dumping my life drama on you, I know you have too much on your plate already -- juggling life, school and work. Let me know if it's not okay with you. Thank you again! (4/4)

Hello! I've read all of your messages and I'm glad I'm able to ease your worries just by responding! I'm also happy you feel the same way as me in tumblr, it's the same reason why I try to update it with the ups and downs happening in my life because it helps me feel 'me' again.

I am happy to see little messages from you here and there when I open tumblr though so don't hesitate to leave something :) I am happy with the interactions. If you need someone to talk to my page is open :)

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Hi, it's been a while. I've been so busy these past couple of months. How are you? I just thought I'd check in on you and see how you're doing.

Hello!

Life's been decent lately. I passed my first semester in law school and got promoted at my job. I also moved into a new place which helped me immensely on my mental health.

Recently, the second semester in law school just started and I've been worried if I can keep up. I've only been taking 4 subjects. 3 out of 4 of those are monsters :< I've been struggling to memorize since it's not my strong suit.

How about you? How's life? :)

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Mahalin mo siya kahit sa mga araw na mahirap siyang intindihin. Lalo sa mga araw na mahirap siya mahalin.

Rewind

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2023 EOY

My first semester in Law School is finally done and it's a good thing I made a dump account where I can post my pictures without prying eyes.

While looking at the elevator selfies I took, I can't help but look back and be grateful that I finally passed my first sem. I consider it as a win.

Law school is definitely hard, thrice as hard for me as a working student. Despite my mediocre effort I passed.

I feel like crying seeing all the photos because I still can't believe that fact that I am finally starting on my long awaited dream one semester at a time. It's definitely an answered prayer and the highlight of my year 2023.

My heart is full.

Hopefully I'll be Atty. Q on 2028 💙

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Hi! it's me again. I think you already knew what you deserve, maybe you're just scared with change and unfamiliarity. But that's okay, take your time. Anyway, I hope you learn to love yourself sooner. Also, I'm glad that you're doing well in law school :)

Hi! Thank you very much for the comforting words :) I hope I do learn it sooner :) and thank you for wishing me well in law school, it means a lot :)

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