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One day i'm going to be a bird and fly far far far away from this place. It feels like I am walking on tiptoe in this house.

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If I could cross the afterlife, I'd cross it to be with you

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That's no respect if it's earned by cruelty

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I think I am obsessed with the idea of melancholy, raw happiness in a short period of time, nostalgia, and yearning. I'll never get over that.

If I change, I feel like I am not myself. If I heal, this is not me. I am betrothed to be longing my whole life for happiness when it is right in front of me.

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Friendship breakup is real especially for girls because they start having hidden animosity against you when they're jealous

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I love being praised by the things I love jud! I want to be defined by the things I am more in control of. I like the "i like your vocabulary" or "you're good at reading" or " i like your art" or " i like your style" more than "you're pretty" because if you really think about it beauty is subjective and what we have naturally, we don't have control with it. All this superficial beauty, we have no one to thank or credit but God himself. However, if you really want to flatter me(or someone) it would be better if it's the things that would remind you of them.

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I am a homely girl who loves reading, painting, and music.

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I am glad Pinterest exists because I love pictures taken by strangers

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I will literally jump off a bridge just to have this dream life: A house with a huge backyard and front yard maybe a place in a hill. It has a balcony and a European interior and exterior. I share this house with a couple of closest friends. (Obviously this is in a European country)

My job is a florist and I travel every day from the flower fields to ride in a pick-up on the way to the town to deliver the flowers and work there. I have lots of digital cameras I use and take pictures of everything I find absolutely beautiful.

At 5 PM, the store closes so I go home and play some songs from Frank Sinatra on a radio or a vinyl player. The sun is setting while I put on some make-up In front of my huge mirror near my balcony, the wind is pushing my white curtains to fly too. After that when the sun is completely gone, I put on some black stockings, black heels, a Chloe Paddington bag to go to the nearest pub in town with some friends.

At the pub, I'll drink some whiskey or tequila with them, talk about life, maybe kiss someone, then admire my art-like beautiful friends. After that, I'll go home with my friends by walking with the cold air of a European country, laugh a bit, take pictures and just enjoy the moment.

When we get home, I'll bother my friend's cat while we each get turns in going to the bathroom. I'll eat some soup while waiting for my turn and playing some Lana del Rey music. After a hot shower, I'll lay comfy in my cozy bed, open my phone to check how my family and friends are probably doing here in the Philippines. Then after, I'll read a book and fall asleep after.

I WON'T GIVE UP. I'LL GIVE ELLYZA FAYE THIS LIFE. I SWEAR ON MY LIFE.

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I don't feel myself if I don't feel everything to the core. Sometimes I am in conflict with my mind wanting to not feel everything so deeply, but if I don't, that would not be the usual me anymore.

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I am living in a childlike mirage where I make myself believe that you can survive a world being so innocent. Bullshit.

Even in friendship, there's betrayal. There's this one where they destroy you to the core with their mischievous words slipping from their lips to your life. The other, betrays you by outcasting you as a friend without any reason.

You want to play this game? I'll give you the best damn player.

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I wished to be perceived like the beauty of Mother Mary, the intrinsic mystery of the renaissance era, the love and passion of a romantic poem in the 1920s, and a vessel of the greek gods. I wish to be the personification and embodiment of all these wonders.

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So, you're telling me that one of my favorite writers is queer and had been in an open relationship while having an affair with another female writer(Vita Sackville-West) during the 1920s-1941 and also mentally unstable(had two suicide attempts and died due to drowning herself)? DIVA.

Tears excruciatingly fell from my eyes when I found out Vita was one of the first people that found out about Virginia's suicide and described it as "a loss which can never diminish".

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I call it living when it is 2 AM in the morning and I am on the couch, after an hour of scrolling on Pinterest, I finally decided to take off my earphones because i'm getting overstimulated and then afterwards, I noticed that the music was still playing and I could hear it from far away. The music is Mr. lonely by Victor Wood.

The world is silent and all the sound I could dwell on is from that tiny music coming out from my earphones. What a wonderful feeling.

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These are the things i love lately that are highly commendable:

1. Fountain pens!

- Just bought it. Still trying to get used to it. It's really cool but i'm required to write in cursive. ✒️

2. Books

- it's not "lately" because i love them since like.... Forever!

3. Old men's pretty songs

-Back to them because I miss my lolo a little more lately 😕

4. Chloe Paddington bags

-I love them but I can't have them 😓.... Yet. I will have my hands on them soon.

5. My dear sister's pink dress

-She looks really pretty with that one.

6. My pink flower hair clam 🌺

- i love the idea that i bought it in a cheap store here in the Philippines because that means i really see beauty in places people don't even consider looking at. Art will foster Art.

7. Writing lettes ✍️💌

- I love writing in my diary but i would really love more to have some penpals 😓

8. Beach hair

-it makes my hair really curly even though i have wavy hair 🫰

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I'm a weird bookworm gay girl trapped in a hot body.

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I have so many words to say but the words are crumbled in a spiral in my brain.