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Yay to that. I cannot wait.  Again…we really need to catch up.

Well we shall be doing that soon. I will see ya little one.

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Of course victor can come! I would love that! Well I mean I am free for a week so if you want to do something let me know. You both can stay over it’s a big enough apartment. Scarlett is over at the moment.

That is a great idea. I haven’t seen Scarlett in ages. And I just had a deja vu- it seems I keep saying that.  We can do Victor & girls sleepover. 

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He’s named after Remus Lupin from the Harry Potter series. Well then I will have to remember to show you all the photos I have with me. It may look like I have a bunch of children cause my dog things it’s a baby. 

I’ll let you know what happened i’m sure one day. It’s not like I don’t see you at work sometimes ha. However thanks I try to do the whole positive thinking thing.

Yeah, I figured. Probably my favorite character in the series. And I share my Hogwarts house with him-don’t know what came first...ha. I can remind you ...to show me. I don’t think that’s an exception-most dogs may think like they’re babies.

Don’t worry about it or telling me about it. People go through stuff everyday-maybe you’d have to deal with it first and then, start telling other people. I’m no expert, though. I’m just randomly advising you. I hope some of that helps.

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“We can’t use those words around the padawans they are too tiny for that. They shall learn those words later like when we are old and gray.” Charlie grinned wide at not only Amy but Victor. Trying her best not to burst into giggles due to how weird she was finally able to be. It had been so long since she was able to be this way, just happy.

Placing her empty coffee cup on the side of the table she looked down at Victor. However her full attention was on what Amy was saying. All she wanted was to hold this tiny little boy and soon her arms began to reach out. Quickly her arms went to the sides “I hope you figure out soon what you are. I truly have no idea what creature I am. I just know they are all so cute.” Learning forward she shook her head “I think he would be open to learning about it well I hope he would be. However we have yet to even go on a date or anything so we have some time here.” Looking back at Victor she then pouted “Amy can I hold him?”.

The question was so simple but holding kids was nerve racking. Due to her past she truly felt that all that was her fault. Unable to hold her baby at all and now to see this toddler. He was smiley and with the most squishy cheeks you could imagine. Times like this when she looked at other children she wondered what hers would’ve been like. The idea was torturing but Charlie did that best to herself.

Amy raised her eyebrows for a moment and then, started laughing. “I need to revise Star Wars so much”, she giggled and rubbed her temple lightly. Still it felt too weird that she was looking at Charlie. It was too surreal. It took her off guard once  the other girl asked that and her face lit up even more than before. “Of course”, she nodded and instantly leaned closer to the stroller to get Victor out of it carefully. Even if he groaned a little until he ended up in Amy’s lap at first, Victor extended his arms to go to Charlie. “That’s impressive”, Amy giggled and tilted her head to kiss his cheeks. “There you go”, she said and moved herself closer so that she’d place Victor in Charlie’s lap.

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Charlie crossed her legs as she nodded finishing her first drink already. It was hard to be in such a big crowd plus all of them wanted knew her. There was literally no where to hide just this tiny escape. “Well there I wasn’t drinking.” A smirk grew on the girls lips before she waved the bar tender over. After he nodded she got closer to Zac mostly due to the music being so loud. “Yes I am from Lima, Ohio and it’s very boring there. That is why I think I was a party girl but I haven’t partied in years.”

“Another?” The bar tender asked and she nodded with a big grin. 

“Amy and I knew each other in Lima she was the girl that kept me on the straight road.” Charlie placed her hand out for the drink as if was routine. “Thanks Jim!” The man nodded and gave Zac an odd look. It was probably due to him never seeing her with a guy. “Sorry Jim knows me and I think he just wants to make sure you won’t kidnap me.” The girl took a sip of her new drink before placing her finger up. “Oh right Amy! Anyways we grew up together and she was always there for me. Even when no one else was cause they didn’t know how to approach me after…” Her words just were flowing until she realized what she was doing. “After some stuff went down.” Rolling her eyes at that horrible save she took another sip of her drink. “Where did you umm grow up?” She was trying so hard to change things and make sure he didn’t catch any of that. The last thing he would want to know is about the past.

Zac tried to listen to everything she said. “I would guess that”, he chuckled, and looked down for a moment. “So, Lima...might be boring but had great parties there. If you went there”, he said and turned to look at the bartender. He half raised his hands in defense not realizing why the bartender was reacting like that. “Oh”, he let out a gasp and smiled awkwardly at Jim, before, looking back at Charlie. “You know, you’re really lucky you have that someone that has your back whenever”, he smiled at her, realizing that he had made it awkward between them, without really knowing how.  “You don’t have to tell anything. But...it’s good that those stuff have passed, haven’t they?”, he asked and  raised his eyes from Charlie to Rose and contemplated whether he should tell Charlie about her business’ gossip that considered him. Would he make a bad impression? His eyes moved back to Charlie and sighed. Rose was glaring at him and he couldn’t just ignore that.

“New Yorker....born and raised”, he let out a scoff. “Nothing interesting in that”, he bit his lower lip hard. “I’m a very...ambivert kind of guy. I like going out...New York has full of things to do and hanging out with people, but at the same time, I like staying home...me and laptop. Sometimes, what I’d like to stop is not working while I’m at home, but...to the point”, he giggled as he realized he wasn’t getting to the point. “I haven’t travelled out of the area much...not that I don’t want to”, he swallowed. “But, I’ve got to say...I’m kinda jealous of you that you went around the world”, he smiled at her. 

Company cocktails| Zaclie

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A cough caused Maisie to quickly turn her head towards the sound. The smile the grew on her face was so wide that the tubes almost fell out. “No you’re fine I just got some coffee i’m waiting for it to cool down but i’m super impatient.” A small giggle left her lips as she placed the coffee between cold hands. “I was going to order for you but didn’t want to get you the wrong thing.” 

There was a sense of relief that washed over her when Scarlett arrived. It always seemed like life was pretty normal and swift with the girl. All of that causing Maisie to wonder what these feelings truly meant. How was it that after all this time a girl with beautiful brown hair would change it all. Yes it was obvious that no feelings would ever be mentioned. This was a friendship that was new and exciting something that needed time. “How have you been battling this amazing weather?” A smirk on her face now.

Scarlett exhaled in relief, like she was holding it for so long. She didn’t want to make a bad impression, since it was the first time she was meeting that girl. Her hand stayed on her hair, meddling her fingers nervously down the edges. It took her a moment to realize the tone of sarcasm in what Maisie asked her and chuckled. “I’m getting used to it. It’s not bad...”, she started saying. “It’s always a good opportunity to not get out of the house. And just stay in, watch movies with hot cocoa and a blanket”, she made a pause. “Or just  find opportnities to hang out with friends in such cosy coffee shops, like this one”, she smiled at her.  “I’m sorry, if I seem a little out of place. I’m getting used to this”, she rubbed her hands together. “They tell me I’m a little shy at first, but once I get used to you, I can’t stop talking”, she said, still feeling her voice shaking, either from the cold or nervousness. “Anyway, tell me about you”, she leaned in, biting her lower lip.

Would You Be So Kind. |Maylett

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You have so much to learn young padawan!

Is that a Star Wars reference? You watch too much of it. 

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I learned a lot when being away about how people can really mean it if they are true to you. Sometimes you have to realize that you gave it your all and that is well it. That’s it you gave it what you had and didn’t get it back and that isn’t your fault. Once you give someone your all there isn’t much left, if they can’t handle that then it’s their fault. Everyone want’s to blame themselves but really it’s not always that way. See now you have me ranting! I am so glad to be back I can’t wait to catch up with. 

Oh I can’t wait to meet your new friends we should have like a wine night with netflix! We do have a lover in common but yeah don’t worry I had to go through a lot after that one. Not with you but with how everything went down. I mean I really had to take some time for myself after all that due to how invested i let myself get with it all. 

Well it can be a great possible christmas present my fingers are crossed! Oh i’d love to send you my writing!

What if they don’t understand it, though? What if I gave myself and I keep giving and all she does is waiting for ME to apologize? It’s a never-ending circle. Do you know how many times I’ve fought with William about it? I mean...not exactly fought...but I keep thinking about what the hell I did wrong. Ranting is good. Do go on.

That is a great idea. Honestly, I still love him. Not like...that way, but he’s the only one who treated me better than the rest (not counting William, of course). I mean, like Chad and Jesse. And sometimes, I feel bad that I was so selfish and stubborn on that decision. But, you know, even if it didn’t last long, you and him were doing really well. By the way...are you still married...?

Something like a Christmas present, yeah. 

Hello again friend| Skylle

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Well maybe you should try it out! Actually wait don’t do that it’s freezing outside. Umm oh wow i’m free tomorrow would you like to get some then? You look a bit familiar do you ever visit the Blue Bird? 

Probably during the summer. When you can’t handle the heat, I’ll just throw ice on me and donate to charity. Sure, I’d love to. Oh yes. That’s where I usually go in the mornings and when I get to have a break. Why are you asking?

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The feeling in the room became stuffy thanks to that question. Charlie almost hit herself for not realizing that it was the wrong question. However Scarlett then reminded her of what she needed to do. “Alright so this is why I left and Scarlett I need you to know” she paused and sighed “i didn’t want you to know cause it was hard. It wasn’t cause you needed to be spared the details. Apart of me felt that once you knew you may think less of me.” 

Charlie felt her heart just racing as she tried to find the right words. “I was in a relationship that was going on for a couple of years. Both me and him really found peace each other but not in a normal way. It was kinda how we just handled each others pains. Then I got pregnant and we were happy at first. Until I was put on a high risk pregnancy and things spiraled out of control.” Looking down at her fingers that she began to pick at she sighed. Her thumb was now bleeding thanks to her horrible habits. Biting her lip she sighed “I one day lost the baby and him. The baby died before I gave birth and he just left me there in that room by myself.” 

The last sentence was the hardest due to normally blaming herself. This time she refused to let that happen since it was in now way her fault. Her gaze fell making it hard to look in anyones eyes. Fight or flight felt like it was about to kick in but there she was frozen. 

Scarlett sat up, as Charlie made that introduction, feeling more confused than ever as her sister talked. A bunch of scenarios danced around her head and she frowned, still not knowing why Charlie would think Scarlett would react that way if she knew. She’d never think less of Charlie-never ever. She sighed heavily and nodded so that Charlie would go on. She glanced at her mom that was looking down and back to Charlie.

Scarlett bit her lower lip, holding herself not to say his name-she barely remembered him now-but it was surely something she wanted to blurt out. Scarlett started blinking fast, thinking of all that. She couldn’t help but extent her hand and hold Charlie’s. She wasn’t sure if she’d understand what happened then and Charlie would be a mess. “It’s Bruce, isn’t it? It’s that guy?”, she tried to look in her eyes. “Didn’t you ask for the reason? The reason he left you. That’s obscene, Charlie”, she shook her head and stood up abruptly, pulling her hand away from her sister’s. Her mother shook her head, feeling sadder than she thought about the situation that she partly knew. “Those kind of people should be ashamed they still walk around free and think that they can’t apologize to anyone. If he apologized I would be okay”, she ranted and then, widened her eyes as she saw that she was talking rather quick and fast. “Did he apologize?”.

Home where no heart is.| Winstead family

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A feel that if you told a professional they would say you may be afraid of Christmas. Well honestly I don’t know what a professional would say cause i’m not one. A shame to hear about the manuscripts, do you have any back up at all? 

Or maybe that I haven’t made enough copies of the manuscripts, or I think that’s the case. You know, I am keeping too many copies of everything, but in that nightmarish situation, no...I...supposedly didn’t have any more copies. It’s my crazy anxiety.

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Not really sure if that’s a little symbolic, but the Grinch appeared in my sleep and started tearing apart all of the manuscripts. 

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Oh of course cause then I donated and made others donate. Once you did the ice bucket challenge you donated well some people did. Oh of course I am up for an afternoon coffee! I’m Daisy it’s nice to meet you.

Oh I do know that. Just never tried it out.  You are? Good. Whenever are you free? Nice to meet you, too, Daisy!

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I think we need movie night very badly.

Do you think Victor will like it? Can I bring Victor with me? Whenever that happens.

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Well I mean it’s hard to forget someone you tried really hard to get to stay your friend. Friend or lover it doesn’t matter when all you try and do is be nice and get that persons attention and they don’t give it ,well it hurts. I can get why it still bothers you just a little. I am glad not as much as before. Wait you have a call back for Beauty and the Beast oh my gosh that’s amazing! That role is perfect for you.

Yeah my family moved there and I just went with them. Yeah i’ve been coming up with ideas for certain books. I may do a series but I have to figure that out. It’s going to be mostly Young Adult fiction or something of that matter. I wrote a few books and they did great in Norway so they sent me to the big apple. To see if I could get my book published here or another one.

And it’s really hard to show that you care, when the other person is looking at themselves and only themselves.  I’m trying to keep them in the past and sometimes, I think that making amends will work-but then, I realize that maybe I overthink that, too. Maybe, they’re still the same person that...keeps a long face to minor things. And waits for me to only give, when I never get anything in return. Nobody’s perfect but...I was just I don’t know...I’m rambling again. I’m just glad you’re okay. And back to tumblr. Anyway, you really need to meet my friends: Alissa, Alexa and Caitlin. They’re in my shipping list.

 Ah...same lovers. We have a past with that, don’t we? Still sorry about it. 

Yeah, I do. I’ll probably learn around Christmas, if they’ll get me. A lot of people keep telling me that.

OH MY GOD-that is amazing. If you’re able to send me anything of yours so that I can read it, please-please-please do. We are on the same city again.

Hello again friend| Skylle

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“Then it’s the whole story you will get then.” This caused a horrible knot form inside the stomach of the girl. There were so many aspects to this story that were hard to explain. Even if it was easy to explain it made her nervous as to how it would be perceived. This was the little girl that used to put face paint on Charlie’s sleeping mug. It was something that was once woken up to with slight anger it was now missed so much. Looking at this girl that was now her little Scar was so interesting to see. “God i’m turning into mom.” She began to think as she placed the duffle down. 

Walking through the house it was so odd how familiar this place would always be. Forever imprinted in the mind of a young rebellious teenager who should’ve stayed. Who should’ve listened to someone about how life is short but that was behind her now. This was the present and it needed to be faced, tonight was the night and that was what would happen. After running her fingers along the wooden chairs she sat down and smiled. “Alright so first can I just know, did anything possibly rebellious at all when I was gone? Just like one almost detention slip possibly?” Her face was now smug as ever still this sorta felt like a dream.

Once her mother sat down, she widened her eyes and looked at Scarlett that instantly rolled her eyes. “Don’t get me started”, the woman said turning to look at Charlie. “Yeah, you don’t have to. I’ve already told Charlie what happened”, Scarlett pouted.  “God, Scarlett-what you did was extemely bad. And not talking to me was also bad”, their mother said and Scarlett couldn’t help but frown. “At least tell me what wrong”, she said and Scarlett turned to Charlie. “You have a story to tell”, she whispered.

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I used to do it people in the past all the time to freak them out. It was literally hated by someone so much it made me win fights. I honestly think it’s just cause I was way too bored one day. 

You need to show me how you do it. Like you really SHOULD!