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I’m sorry for posting just about my sister I’m at her house for the weekend so there’s not much to post about

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Sometimes siblings just don’t have good weeks and right now I am that sibling I’m so pissed man, I’m her guessed here and she doesn’t even want to hang out. She literally said leave me alone for 1 hour she’s not even mad or upset she’s just fine so I’m upset now.

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Why do I feel this way....why do I feel jealous she’s just texting someone but we’re supposed to be hanging out and having fun....

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Part 1

I made a pancake and coffee for my sister this morning since it’s her birthday she got mad at me for trying to give it to her....

Part 2

At the end of the day it wasn’t so bad we had a good time for her birthday:)

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I just wanted to do something nice.....why is it that when I do something nice I always get yelled at or told to go away....

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My sisters birthday is tomorrow...I hope she doesn’t do anything to make me upset I just want her to have a good day , we have a really good relationship she just really not good with giving back emotions. She’s turning 18 ❤️

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I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER SO MUCH MAN I JUST WANT TO TELL HER OFF SO BAD BUT SHED JUST SAY MORE SHIT IT PISSES ME OFF FUCK HER SO MUCH I HATE IT FUCKKKKKK I JUST SAID I LOVE YOU AND SHE JUST MOVES AWAY FROM ME WTF IM YOUR FUCKING SIBLING WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR YOU TO TALK TO ME IT HURTS ME WHNE YOU DO THAT SHIT FUCK YOU

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When I look at my sisters sometimes my body and face is calm but on the inside I’m filled with rage and then I tell her that o hate her, and Tyne laugh it off like it was nothing and then I feel nothing after.

Sometimes I look at my sister and think random things like I hope you never get a boyfriend and you eat ugly I’ve even told her things like this , but she has also said mean things to me to me we always say it in a joking way but I feel serious sometimes and I just want to say mean things for some reason

When we were younger she used to make fun of me and bully me a lot with her cousins so I’m not sure if that has to do with anything but yeah, she’s my step sister to but we are really close now I love her to death I will Amit I am a little to attach sometimes but I can’t help it and I often get jelly of the fact that she has other friends and she likes people it’s selfish of me I know but idk why I’m like this.

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Today kinda sucked a man came and killed the bugs around the house but my aunt and uncle didn’t tell me that and my room wasn’t ready I was so embarrassed and I cried so much I hated it I was so frustrated with everything.

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Next Tuesday I see my new Therapist I’m super nervous but also excited I hope i get the help I need ❤️

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I’m so tired of people telling me that what I’m doing is wrong and that I’m not doing things right I’m fucking trying my best man. I hate everyone who says shit about me because I didn’t do something I’m just trying not to brake down and cry I’m just trying to get through life man. 🖕