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heal. your mom may never apologize to you, because she has conditioned herself to believe that she did right by you. she hasn't healed. heal anyway. your father may never apologize to you, because he can only see what he's done right. he hasn't healed. your family members may never apologize to you, because toxicity is what they were raised on. they haven't healed. heal anyway. that "friend" may never apologize to you, because he/she isn't sorry. he/she hasn't healed. if/when they reach their healing, they may seek your forgiveness. be so healed that it won't even matter. heal for you. you owe yourself that much.

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Falling back in love with myself, we gon get it right this time 🤍

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Update, the date is June 5, 2024. I did not get a scholarship to study Agricultural Engineering in Costa Rica. My mom was all smiles on her birthday in 2023, now we are almost at her birthday in 2024. I got a scholarship to study teaching in Jamaica, very close to home by the way. I am now finished with year 1. I quit my call center job and God still provide(d)s . God is good, His plan was better.

The date is July 18th 2023, my mom's birthday. I just surprised her that I got a full scholarship to study in Costa Rica, and that I'll be leaving her soon. I promise her that I will make her proud, she is all ears, all smiles. I am looking back on March 4, 2023, how tired I am of taking call. The date is July 18. I am finally getting the chance to go to college. God is good.

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God showed out! Jesus answered my prayers and I finished Year 1. I got a full scholarship (sans boarding but He also came through for that) and I’m so happy. I ended the year with a GPA of 4.14 (4.2 in Semester 1). I glorify Jesus, it wasn’t me, it was him all along. I’m one step closer to becoming a teacher!!! Thanks God.

Crazy how I need $370 USD to start school, and I don't have it. But God will provide.

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I can’t fathom that I forgot about Tumblr. 😭😫 But I’m backkkkk.

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And He did!!

Crazy how I need $370 USD to start school, and I don't have it. But God will provide.

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i'm seeing a lot of new ppl join tumblr who aren't making any spontaneous semi pathetic, oversharing personal textposts whatsoever and i just want to say you're doing it all wrong... this is not like instagram like meant to be some shiny highlight reel used to make u look good its supposed to be an incriminatingly revealing dark intimate look into your life & inner psyche while simultaneously no one knows who u are or gives a fuck... anyway hope this helps some of u get on the right track

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God will work!

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Devin Kelly, All that wanting, right?

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i will get that dream job. the husband. the wedding. the children. a marriage founded on God. he’s not done with me yet. he’s rewriting my story. i’m on God timing.🤍

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Crazy how I need $370 USD to start school, and I don't have it. But God will provide.

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Earn me. My trust does not come easily. Maybe I have had more reasons not to believe in anyone or anything than you think. Just because I smile and sigh light, does not mean that I have never met the dark when in fact the intensity of this shine directly correlates to how much darkness I have faced. Don’t think I am easy when I am anything, but that. Don’t think that my innocence means I am gullible. I am nobody’s fool, mind you that. You would never know what these eyes of mine have seen, what this soul has walked through. My book is light even if the gravity of the story is heavy. This softness that I keep is not my weakness, but my strength by choice as I know that bitterness and hardness only kills what is left of living. I live by my own rules. I set the pace of the algorithm with my unpredictability. I will never be quite what you expect because there are parts of me that refuse to be tamed, always simmering right below the surface despite the honeyed sweetness. You said your hands could handle wildflower curves, prove it. The greater the effort the sweeter the reward. Learn me. Be the one to unlock my hidden fire.

-J.Wool, Hidden Fire, Breaths of the Soul

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I am so blessed living in the Caribbean!

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As long as there's breath in our lungs, there is hope in our hearts. ~ Zaurlunai