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thoughts and prayers for gramyok singlehandedly dealing with seanwhite being disgustingly in love during a life-or-death mission

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In which GMMTV writers and actors moonlight as comedians THE ECLIPSE, Ep. 2 // ENCHANTÉ, Ep. 1 // NOT ME, Ep. 2

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Angel on his evil arc 😫 This one in particular was fun as hell to do!

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We have no need for the past. All we need are the present and the future

Kuroshitsuji | Book of Murder

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Hubble Peers into a Dusty Stellar Nursery by NASA Hubble

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I'm dating a Superhero?!

Okay, this is gonna be a long ass story but bear with me.

It all started when my friends set me up on a dating site called 'Tinder' and paired me up with an unknown man. They then force me to 'meet up' with him in a coffee shop to see if things will work out. My friends did not even do a proper background check on this man (for Pete's sake) and truthfully, I hesitated if I should go or not because I don't know if this man is either a psychopath, a freaking murderer or even a serial killer. But, let's just say that my friends had me agreed to it "voluntarily" or else they would burn down and delete all the files I have accumulated to complete my dissertation for my doctoral's degree.

One thing to know about me is that I am a very introverted type of person with a few friends who is unfortunately, either have extroverts and ambivert personality, and another thing about me is that I am a stereotypical ASIAN PhD student who thinks that grade is the measure of a person's talent and I have no social life (except for a few friends and colleagues here and there).

Long story short, we met, we get to know each other (thanks god he's not a psychopath or a murderer I thought him to be), and we somehow click so we decided to date each other and see if things will work out.

We set out dates to get to know each other more and enjoy each others company but most of the times, it's either we would end up in a coffeeshop near my school and he would help me out with my studies or we would have a 'date' in a library and he would also help me out on finding some materials related to my dissertation, but there would also be times when we would do things that a normal couple would do on a date like enjoying amusement parks, eating out on our favorite restaurants and my favorite thing we ever did was to go out on a 3 day roadtrip visiting places we have never been before. Eventhough most of our dates would revolve around me studying, coffeeshops, libraries and my dissertation, he would always make it memorable and romantic at the same time. We would hold hands while I'm studying and reading my materials, sometimes when he sees that I'm having a breakdown due to stress, he would comfort me and make me laugh with his silly jokes that never fails to put a smile on my face, other times, he would just randomly give me gifts or other items that he says 'reminds him of me' etc.

Though it may seem like most of our dates are centered around me and my needs, I also did not forget to show my appreciation towards him. I sometimes either bake or cook his favorite foods for him, (I may look like a super nerdy geek but I do know my way around food and the kitchen) and I also try my best to cheer him up when I sense or see that he feels a bit down or in a bad mood (I'm also quite sensitive towards other people's feelings). You see, my stand about relationships, especially romantic ones, is that each party should respect each other (my first and foremost rule), should be able to trust each other (not completely at first but will soon afterwards) and in terms of giving and receiving, it should be fair.

So, long story short (again), one day, while me and my friends where walking downtown capital, this super huge LED screen suddenly displayed a breaking news, alerting us that there's a monster attack nearby and that people is advise to take shelter.

Another fact for you, the world we were living in houses humans and also monsters (either a human or a non-human specie). Due to that, superheroes emerge, I'm talking about humans with a frightening abilities like telekenesis, super strength and those superpowers you can see on the movies (although they numbered quite a few, they are real in my world and my professor in human genetics thinks it's due to the evolution and mutation of the human DNA that causes this mysterious 'power') .

~~part 2 will ba posted next if I can find some time~~

⃛ヾ(๑❛ ▿ ◠๑ )

-ei_procrastinating_writer

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Undertaker

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2021-03-21

FUJIFILM X100V

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2021-03-04

Wondong Plum Farm

1421, Wondong-ro, Wondong-myeon, Yangsan-si, Gyeongsangnam-do, Republic of Korea

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Boi O Boi

Why Jane is a demon

Back to Mey & Ran’s investigation we go: since I have some time, I want to do a recap post on why I think Jane is a demon and is also possibly John Brown, Victoria’s aide. 

This sums up different posts that I previously wrote on Jane and on John being supernatural [x][x] and also possibly the main attacker behind the massacre at the Phantomhive manor, 4 years ago. 

Premise

First of all, to replace the context: Heathfield was “looking to replace his wife” who died in a carriage accident along with their daughter. 

Whether or not we think this was just a big lie, so that he could appeal to young women with a lower social standing in order to have intercourse with them (while UT maybe promised to eventually revive his wife or something), it’s clear that Abby and at least another servant used to be a part of the Aurora Society and were the ones driving this whole blood collect operation.

Meanwhile Jane was hired as a security guard…

 …which means that she’s unrelated to the Aurora society. 

Notion of a job contract between Heathfield’s household and Jane

That’s the simplest clue: many readers noticed the way Jane talked whenever she referred to her job in the manor:

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At some point, she also said that she would never do more on a job than what was directly asked of her (it was mistranslated in English so I won’t add the panel) and this all sounds very typical of demons speaking about their contract.

In other words, Jane stuck to her contract like glue, up until the operation was dismantled by Ciel’s allies. We’ll get back later to why a demon would give up when she could have easily defeated at least Mey. 

Jane’s behavior towards Baron Heathfield

Also something many readers noticed, as in, Jane lacked a lot of deference towards “her master”. 

This could be explained by the fact that she, as a demon, has no respect for him as a human (remember, Seb sees humans as grasshoppers & their soul as food). Besides, it’s very hard to be the master of a demon: our!Ciel does a rather good job, considering the wild and mocking beast that is Seb. 

So it’s not hard to think that Heathfield didn’t have it in him to correct & control Jane’s behavior towards him (if he even cared to do so in the first place).  

Parallels to S1 of the anime

As much as I kinda dislike admitting it (since I’m no fan of the anime), this arc was rather reminiscent of the one with Angela Blanc and Henry Barrymore. As we know, Angela eventually turned out to be a fallen angel and also Ash Landers, the Queen’s aide. 

So, while I’m really not sure angels are meant to appear in the manga, Jane being supernatural and having a “male counterpart” (named John) that we already met would be in tune as a parallel. Which leads me to the second part of the post.

Jane = John? 

As I linked to above, it is my belief that John Brown was hinted to be supernatural and even possibly a demon (instead of, like, a Shinigami or Angel). 

So, if John is indeed a demon, then it is likely to think that his master and holder of the contract is Queen Victoria and, in that case, one can wonder what was the point of “Jane” entering a contract with Baron Heathfield. 

Too many demons can spoil the soup

Unlike Shinigamis who are introduced in almost every arc (we get it, Yana), I’m personally against the possibility that Jane could be a third demon (assuming John is indeed one), because that’d mean introducing a pretty powerful character with literally no agency after Mey & Ran’s investigation, when we are far into the story and the plot is complex enough as it is. 

Yeah, storytelling-wise, it doesn’t sound like a good idea.

Besides, if Jane is a demon who only was in a contract with Heathfield, then…

…one can wonder what he even paid to have her summoned. That’s why this explanation makes not much sense, I find, considering the household seemed to have no idea at all about Jane being possibly supernatural.

Whereas if we’re considering that Jane already was in a contract with someone else, then it gives her a lot of agency + it means that meeting Heathfield and entering a very secondary contract with him would not have needed fare for the crossing (making the process even more simple). 

Why the presence of a demon at Heathfield’s manor

If we’re considering that John = Jane, then Jane would have been gathering intel on the blue sect’s operations for her real master: Queen Victoria. 

After all, remember that discussion between Victoria and Brown at the end of the Weston arc? 

Victoria clearly was interested in UT’s bizarre dolls (because she wants Albert back? Because they’re great war weapons?), so if she’s slightly aware of what’s been going on since ch140 and the real!Ciel’s return, then it’d make sense that she’d send her precious aide to gather info for her. 

And what Jane discovered is that the Bizarre Dolls need blood (amongst edited records and episodes) to function properly and long enough. 

As for that possible secondary contract that she made with Heathfield: we don’t know what it was about (maybe getting to eat the dead maids’ soul?), but it doesn’t nullify the contract with Victoria, seeing as Seb confirmed multiple contracts are possible.

Why Jane didn’t try to fight for long against Mey and Ran

If she’s a demon, then she theoretically had the strength to escape Mey’s gun and win, but there is a main explanation as to why she gave up: she didn’t want to be found out as a supernatural being. 

After all she was facing Ran & Mey and:

Ran showed that she was indeed strong as hell, which makes it interesting to ponder if she’s also a supernatural being or a strength-enhanced human (like Finny)

Mey is Ciel’s staff (and if Jane = John, it’s possible Jane would have known about that fact), so Jane proving to Mey that she was more than human would mean Ciel & Seb would get to hear about it and I’m pretty sure Jane/John wouldn’t want that. 

Another additional possibility is that Jane had gathered enough info, as her original mission requested, and she had no reason to stay longer (except maybe to eat some more souls, as per her contract with Heathfield, who knows). 

Ending word: what about the other investigations?

There is a lot at stake here and, as we know, UT definitely needs stopping. 

So it’s interesting to think that we possibly saw the Queen’s side gathering info on the situation through Jane, while Ronald (definitely representing the Shinigamis’ Organization) just made his appearance during Bard & Lau’s investigation. 

While Ronald’s arrival is definitely bad news (because it means people are going to die and for all we know Bard might be one of them), it makes one wonder who we’ll meet next if we get to read about Finny & Snake and Ciel & Seb: finally one of the remaining star lords? another government’s spy (France? Since UT went there some time ago)?

We’ll see!

Anyway, sorry for the long post, I hope it managed to convey my thoughts a little more clearly than my old posts. Don’t hesitate if you guys have any question! 

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Not trying to be dramatic, but Athanasia and Abel deserves the whole world!!!

Please don't make these precious babies cry uwu

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you can’t move forward without the pain.

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That's some freaking good analysis. Love it

Do real ciel actually love his brother or he's just want to hurt him for living those past 3 yeara without him i'm really cunfused about the real relashionship between the two and for undertaker he's just make things worst

What real Ciel feels for his brother now seems to be an obsession rather than love.

I think when it comes to that it’s important to remember that real Ciel isn’t the same person anymore that he used to be. He might be Undertaker’s best result yet he’s still a soulless Bizarre Doll. UT’s earlier results that appeared more human (like Agares) were running on these so-called ‘episodes’ which were the person’s yearnings for their future when they died. While the way by which real Ciel was created probably differs a bit since he’s more evolved and requires blood to function I still think it’s likely that the part about the episodes might still be similar. 

From what we’ve seen of the twins’ childhood real Ciel appeared to be quite close to his brother. He always seem to have imagined their future together and threw a tantrum when our Ciel told him about his plans to become independent. He could only be consoled by the idea that he - as Earl - could protect and support his little brother. 

I think real Ciel was clinging to that thought. It might have even taken on some possessive traits. I suppose it’s not that weird considering their childhood. They are twins and were always together. Our Ciel’s sickness made him the weaker twin and as the older twin real Ciel was always supposed to take over as Earl. They grew up in these roles and especially real Ciel always held on to that strongly. His protectiveness over his little brother only grew during their time with the cult.

And that was the state he was in when he died. In that moment his yearnings for the future were surely thoughts about a life in freedom as Earl with our Ciel by his side. And this is probably what’s driving him now as a Bizarre Doll.

If he had lived on a normal life real Ciel surely would have grown out of his focus on our Ciel. But he died and his mindset was stuck in that state of a ten-year-old. Becoming a Bizarre Doll like this probably only intensified this obsession with our Ciel. While real Ciel may physically change I don’t think he can grow so much emotionally. As a Bizarre Doll without a soul I suppose he’s stuck with his old memories and his wish to be with his brother forever. Adding to that I think Bizarre Dolls have a very limited amount of emotions they can really feel. I suppose they are lacking true compassion and sympathy which is noticeable by how real Ciel uses others to support his goals. 

Real Ciel now doesn’t seem to mind causing our Ciel any pain. He isolates him from his allies and even seems to enjoy our Ciel’s distress. Yet he appears to be proud of his little brother’s success and ideas.

To me real Ciel makes the impression that he still feels like the superior one of the two. He wants to be the one our Ciel comes to in his time of need, he wants our Ciel to be dependent on him. That’s why he’s framing him for murder and why he’s isolating him from his allies. It’s like he wants to keep our Ciel by his side as if he were a pet and real Ciel his proud owner. Real Ciel might think that’s because he loves and wants to protect his brother but that’s not love, that’s obsession and possessive behavior. But I guess as a Bizarre Doll whose focus is set on our Ciel real Ciel can’t really help it. 

Why Undertaker seems to support this I can’t really say for sure. His own obsession with the Phantomhives isn’t quite healthy either, I guess. But even he must see that real Ciel’s plan can’t be good for our Ciel in the long run. However, I think UT knows what he’s doing and all this is just part of some bigger plan. He might even use real Ciel as a Bizarre Doll now to get our Ciel to face his feelings of guilt so that he’ll eventually heal and be ready to be saved from Sebastian. Because our Ciel is the only Phantomhive left (aside from the Midford line) who has a chance of being saved and survive. And that’s what I think Undertaker is trying to do.

I hope this makes sense. :) Have a nice day, take care! ^^

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A last bunch of autumn photos from the last 10 days from different walks and places around. Now the most leaves are gone …

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Little moments when it all seemed okay.