zelka23

[zelka23]

“ You were red, and you liked me because i was blue. But you touched me and suddenly i was a lilac sky, and you decided purple just wasn't for you. “

[zelka23]

Too many guys think I’m a concept,

or I complete them,

or I’m gonna make them alive.

But I’m just a fucked-up girl

who is lookin’

for my own piece of mind.

Don’t assign me yours.

[zelka23]

It's hard to live with a body that wants to survive, 

with a mind that wants to die, 

and a heart that is already dead.

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[zelka23]

“ Jestem bólem w twoim sercu, Promilami w twoich żyłach Chcesz czegoś więcej, nie wystarcza ci już przyjaźń, Nie kochaj mnie, bo to w złą stronę idzie Bo dostarczam ci to wszystko, dożylnie “

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[zelka23]

I’m sick of crying

Tired of trying

Inside I’m dying

But yet I’m smiling.

[zelka23]

Monsters don't hide under your bed. They scream inside your head.  

[zelka23]

I just wanna cry. My head hurts, I'm dead tired, but I just wanna cry.

At least I'm alone in my room, but sometimes it gets me when I'm outside. I have to walk down the street with tears in my eyes, and act like I'm doing fine when I just need to scream. But I never did and I guess I'll never do. It's horrible. The feeling of loneliness, rejection, all at the same time. It's like you're invisible, nobody cares. Sometimes I think bout taking my own life, and the way it wouldn't affect the world. I'm useless, completely useless. If I disappear no one will notice. We're all in the same boat. Look at us, here, all crying, all suffering. Isn't it beautiful in the end? It doesn't matter, let's pretend we're doing good just like we all are used to do here.  

[zelka23]

I feel so numb. I feel like a dissapointment. I feel sad. I feel useless. I feel stupid. I know im exhausted. I need help. I need friends that love me. I need a family who i can tell my darkest secrets too. And i have nothing. I just barely have my body now.

But im hanging on...

 i guess...

[zelka23]

“ I’m sorry that I’m here again

I promise I’ll get help 

 It wasn’t my intention 

 I’m sorry to myself...”

[zelka23]

She's angry, dark, doesn't feel safe and doesn't know what to do about it. She wishes, she could control her demons instead of having her demons control her... She's lost.

[zelka23]

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”

[zelka23]

its funny how we are all listening to the same song but thinking about different people