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i dont have to get validation from anyone to makes me happy.but then again. ITS HARD

i have to make my dear daughter focused on her development to not get so drowned and just giving up her soul easily to anyone. cause that sick.

I just want to puke myself everytime I have this issue with a very strange and irrational and completely i will get insane in this shrieking shack of my mother in law. 

her house is such a pity. such a garbage.

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im so fucked up

the moment you married someone you did to love not to mention how hard I worked this relationship to keep it going loooong enough to get myself pretty insane and kinda forgot the horror of terror mother in law. 

I am so lost right now.

and I dont need help.

I just keep myself drowning .. and keep digging the whole hole of my unsolved problematic problem with all the parents in the whole world.

she is just simply hates me the way I am. while most of the time it should be her problem not mine but here I am drowning in the other side deep down stabbed one by one day by day until it kinda reach through my soul and it is kills me bad in the inside.

omg Idk it will be bad stories or not, but all the gut said it wont be last forever whether she will ruins myself stressed out until it will developed as a cancer or anything or i simply running out for this life and simply go..

i wouldnt tell me anything either. they are all so denial above the sky and it kills me everytime they pushed me away and i keep digging validate from them that blatantly want to kill me insanely in any way.

I have to survive with my daughter I dont want to get inside the generational loop again and bringing back the inner child memories that will never end . i have to stop it now.

but if tell it to my husband all the dirty talks his mother to me that she always has her gut to tell and sees me as a disease in her eyes that makes me suffer from anxiety, schizo and panic attack and bipolar omg i really need a therapist and money.

i cant chose my own battle right now. maybe im just sinking and drowning and keep develop this cancer all over me because his evil mother.

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Pipi sm bibirnya udah biru, tp tiap kali disuruh pulang, say no aje. 😂 alaaaa selena... macam oke je kau ni lepak2 kat pool. 😂😂😂😂😂 mommy so worry la. K k k k k k #Selena21mo🧚‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B0Zx1NrHUTX/?igshid=1enrye9lt06cg

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selena yg hampir tiap hari, berenang , atau hampir tiap pagi berenang. Bs ampe sejam stgh sndiri. Hahahhaa https://www.instagram.com/p/B0ZmSQcH-hK/?igshid=1qjc891yqu3hs

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#Selena21mo🧚‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/B0KZyS1HvMi/?igshid=19k91enb7uhhr

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#Selena21mo🧚‍♀️ #babydaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B0EQC_8HLT5/?igshid=yzl2inbzw5nl

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Sii anak mommyyyhhhhhhh https://www.instagram.com/p/B0EPns8HW15/?igshid=bb613utndpgl

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My baby doll. https://www.instagram.com/p/B0EPVAzH78t/?igshid=1lhjfppr9nhrj

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Can't get you off my mind🧚‍♀️ I can't seem to get you off my mind🧚‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz_EMUyHa55/?igshid=1xfo4kh0703n9

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Do you got plans tonight? I was hoping I could get lost in your paradise The only thing I'm thinking 'bout is you and I (di KL Gateway Mall) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz_C1NgHt4v/?igshid=1fy32i09vrn4o

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Punya selena rasa punya anak cowo. 😂😂😂. Batre nya 10. Wkwkwkwk. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz5z1qYnT9D/?igshid=yixlq0uyfmou

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Ini ter ga bisa diungkapkan kata2... hahahaha aku chayangk cekayihhh uwuuuu 😘😘😍😍😍🤗🤗 #jaliters #exjal ini btw pada kinclong2 amaddh yaakk kuh mauk dongsss 😍😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩 (di Keiai Building, Sudirman) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzWA78EHhuI/?igshid=1kczukx09iqjl

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Bawa2 anak batita emng ngeri2 sedaapsss tp yha mo gemane dia masi enen ,,, hahahaa ga berasa nnti dia ud besar ajaa,, uwu... ga bisya nichh hrs aku tenteng teyuss kek nyah ni kamu nakk wkwkwk #selenaerstelicht🧚‍♀️ #selena20mo🧚‍♀️ ketemu sm temen tuh kaya ngumpulin nyawa buat hari2 nyahahaha balik nnti ke KL g serame lg dah klo disini Hehehehe 😘😘😍😍🐈🐈🐱🐱 (di Tenjin) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzV__KfHv8E/?igshid=bm5tdlf8mwye

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Always in love with both of uuuuu uwuuuuu kakak saraahh n dedek celenaaa 6😍😍🐈🐈🐱🐱 #lifepath6 #lifepath7 #lifepath4 xoxoo #selenaerstelicht (di Jakarta) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzV-957nwdA/?igshid=1rkwsvrx52mie

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Ini kamu vampir ya, ko deket kamu aku ngerasa balik masa2 enjuku yaaa 😘😘😍😍😂😂🤣🤣 see u soon ! Si eonnieeeee yg makin2 kece yaa roobb ini org yaakkk ampuunn pusing w liat dia makin2 tmbh cantiqqqq (di Hair Lounge Ryoji Sakate) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzV-Ce3HYfd/?igshid=1ejs93623a8ql