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[zemira07]

“And now we are strangers again. But this time with memories.”

—

[zemira07]

Moving on is not about forgetting about the person instantly. It doesn't have to be constantly not thinking about him anymore. Moving on is inconsistent. Sometimes you still want him back. Sometimes you want to forget everything. Sometimes you want to start something new. But most of the time, the pain it causes you will constantly drain your energy. Moving on is a very long process, and it will feel like—you're going crazy. It's spiral. And moving on is like a detachment. You have to detach from that adhesion, and that adhesion is what you feel towards the other person—it's love.

— Fynsie

[zemira07]

Again, this time. It's enough.

How to rebuild trust once its broken?

I'm in this situation right now and it's never easy. There are days when I feel empty. There are days that I feel all the pain rushing back to me like the crashing waves in the sea just with just a single reminder of the betrayal. Until now, there are doubts and it's not going away. It haunts me in my sleep even there's hardly any. It's like a monster in my bed waiting to jump right at me anytime. It's tiring and its wrecking my brain, damaging all the good parts of it.

I was never like this. I was never doubtful. I was never an angry type of person nor I was the one who says bad words out of the blue. I was not this lonely. I am not this woman when he met me. I changed, I know and I hate it.

The hardest part is when they ask for forgiveness and they want you back in their life like things never happened. They want you back like your old happy self that you lost when they've hurt you.

Yes, they make efforts to get you back. And you recognize it. You see it and it felt like they really want you this time. But then, it happened again not long after. And the effort you've spent rebuilding what was broken was back to zero. Then they will tell you that their efforts was never enough. Why? because trust is lost and the betrayal is far greater than the things they do for you now. It overshadowed all the best memories.

It was like the best memories are made to compensate for the bad ones. But its not. It will never be the same.

I wish I can see the the future before it happens. So I can prepare myself. But I guess, you will never be prepared if the betrayal comes from the people you love so much.

I wish he sees how much I value him. How much I want to see him grow and be the best version of himself. How I want to see him thrive and have all the good things in life. That sometimes, I forget what I want to do with mine as long as he is happy. I hope he sees all of it and appreciate it. I hope he sees what I need to sacrifice for him to see how much I love him.

I guess love is not enough to sustain a relationship right?

Sometimes people just wants something that you can never give even if you empty your cup. It's just wasn't enough.

[zemira07]

Ang Wakas (Arthur Miguel ft. Trisha Macapagl)

Mahirap bang ipilit ang lumaban 'pag hindi na kaya?

Saan na kukuha ng lakas?

Ibuhos man lahat-lahat, wala pa rin itong pag-asa

Kung mag-isa kang lalaban

Sa pagtakbo ng oras, unti-unting kumupas

Ang dating wagas ay magwawakas

Masisisi mo ba kung ayaw na talaga?

Kung ang pag-ibig mo, tuluyang maglaho

Oh, ba't nagbago bigla? Mga titig ay nag-iba

Ika'y lumalayo, tadhana ba ito?

Kapag damdamin na'ng nagsalita

Wala ka nang magagawa kundi sundin ito kahit ayaw

Wala na ngang natitira, lahat-lahat, naglaho na

Konting pilit pa'y masusugatan, bumitaw ka na

Sa pagtakbo ng ang oras, unti-unting kumupas

Ang dating wagas ay magwawakas

Masisisi mo ba kung ayaw na talaga?

Kung ang pag-ibig mo, tuluyang maglaho

Oh, ba't nagbago bigla? Mga titig ay nag-iba

Ika'y lumalayo, tadhana ba ito?

Tayo'y nagkamali, tayo ay nasugatan

Maling galaw, lahat ay sasabit

Ito na ba'ng huli, tayo'y magpapaalam na

Sa ating nakaraan at bibitawan?

Masisisi mo ba kung ayaw na talaga?

Kung ang pag-ibig mo, tuluyang maglaho

Masisisi mo ba kung ayaw na talaga?

Kung ang pag-ibig mo (pag-ibig mo), tuluyang maglaho

Oh, ba't nagbago bigla? Mga titig ay nag-iba

Ika'y papalayo, tadhana ba ito?

Ito na talaga ang dulo natin.

-Zem

[zemira07]

May 2024

Is so damn challenging...

Exhausted me physically, broke my heart twice and damaged me mentally. I want to collapse and never come back.

Mayday! Mayday!

May is not in our favor this year.

[zemira07]

I wish to be somewhere else. Not here.

I'm so done with life right now. I'm so tired. I want to rest and never wake up.

[zemira07]

I feel empty, I just want to cry my eyes out

[zemira07]

How to rebuild trust once its broken?

I'm in this situation right now and it's never easy. There are days when I feel empty. There are days that I feel all the pain rushing back to me like the crashing waves in the sea just with just a single reminder of the betrayal. Until now, there are doubts and it's not going away. It haunts me in my sleep even there's hardly any. It's like a monster in my bed waiting to jump right at me anytime. It's tiring and its wrecking my brain, damaging all the good parts of it.

I was never like this. I was never doubtful. I was never an angry type of person nor I was the one who says bad words out of the blue. I was not this lonely. I am not this woman when he met me. I changed, I know and I hate it.

The hardest part is when they ask for forgiveness and they want you back in their life like things never happened. They want you back like your old happy self that you lost when they've hurt you.

Yes, they make efforts to get you back. And you recognize it. You see it and it felt like they really want you this time. But then, it happened again not long after. And the effort you've spent rebuilding what was broken was back to zero. Then they will tell you that their efforts was never enough. Why? because trust is lost and the betrayal is far greater than the things they do for you now. It overshadowed all the best memories.

It was like the best memories are made to compensate for the bad ones. But its not. It will never be the same.

I wish I can see the the future before it happens. So I can prepare myself. But I guess, you will never be prepared if the betrayal comes from the people you love so much.

I wish he sees how much I value him. How much I want to see him grow and be the best version of himself. How I want to see him thrive and have all the good things in life. That sometimes, I forget what I want to do with mine as long as he is happy. I hope he sees all of it and appreciate it. I hope he sees what I need to sacrifice for him to see how much I love him.

I guess love is not enough to sustain a relationship right?

Sometimes people just wants something that you can never give even if you empty your cup. It's just wasn't enough.

[zemira07]

I've been hurting myself.

Tearing. Bleeding. Non-stop.

I want it. I did it. I liked it.

More drops. More red. More pain.

It makes me feel alive.

No more pain in the end.

[zemira07]

Please make it go away. The pain is echoing from my heart to my mind.

Moving on is not about forgetting about the person instantly. It doesn't have to be constantly not thinking about him anymore. Moving on is inconsistent. Sometimes you still want him back. Sometimes you want to forget everything. Sometimes you want to start something new. But most of the time, the pain it causes you will constantly drain your energy. Moving on is a very long process, and it will feel like—you're going crazy. It's spiral. And moving on is like a detachment. You have to detach from that adhesion, and that adhesion is what you feel towards the other person—it's love.

— Fynsie

[zemira07]

“And now we are strangers again. But this time with memories.”

—

[zemira07]

“The ache inside me is for the fact that I never fully got to love you in the way you should have been loved, and the way I fully felt for you. But also there is an ache in me for the thought that I had that much love to give you and you never loved me even one half the amount I did you.”

I’m bitter because I’m still in pain // What I want to say {m.a}

[zemira07]

Exactly

Many times. That's why it's hard to trust words.

[zemira07]

Waiting for the bit of sunshine in my life. And it came fast..

-RB

[zemira07]

They'll never know of what you did.

You're Perfect

I'm holding in your lies Just for you To protect your image Even after all that you did I'll make sure you stay innocent I'll keep you an angel I'll make sure I'm the one with a broken image Even though I know you couldn't care less I exposed you to your face And you still lied Eventually you admitted to your wrong doings And you cried But those tears dried up quickly Now you can live as if you're healing Healing from what you did to me Telling people what I did to you I'm not an angel But I'll keep you as one though For your family and your friends As I hold onto your sins You'll always be known as faithful Your parents will hate me You'll always be the victim They'll never know of Felipe

[zemira07]

I wish I was enough to make you stay.

[zemira07]

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