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                                        established 2015 / previously fracturedson / written by kylo

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‘ i feel anger deeper than my bones. i feel anger in my very soul. ’

&* GROWLING SENTENCE STARTERS   /   &* @pelagaios

           anger. it exists a word fueled by blinding heat and destructive matches, ready to burst aflame at the slightest flick. it’s reminiscent of smoking, singed wool, blood and dirt splashed across worn faces   ;   an architecture of whispered   ‘   god speed   ‘s   and   ‘   32557038   ‘s.he remembers anger as a clenched fist, pulling against iron restraints, a scream tearing at throat as he all but snarls !   /   ICARUS, O’ ICARUS, RAGE AGAINST YOUR INJUSTICE !the feeling is fleeting, barely there   ;   a subtle breeze of sea salt wafting through a dark apartment, feet heavy after the trek upstairs. it never lasts, docile nature returning back in the face of his owners           a dog taught to SIT and STAY !

                                   ‘   good. ‘   soft, the campfire they sit around suddenly drawing him back, focusing him on the present.   ‘   use it. one day it might just save your life, pal.   ‘   /    ONE DAY IT MAY VERY WELL GRANT YOU THE STRENGTH TO OVERCOME THE VERY SKY WEIGHING ATLAS DOWN !

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IM HERE TO EAT ASS & TAKE NAMES WHO WANNA WRITE YEE HAW

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I cannot apologize while I still have cuts bleeding. No one has apologized for all I have lost,

or all that I have become // L.H.Z (via lhzthepoet)

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he killed my mom

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Self Destruct. 

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as a side note uh bucky looked so Good in tws but in cw he’s fucking demolished. he even got greasy lookin hair bc he’s been on the run and hiding, trying to live his life. not to say cw was ... good in that sense bc god do i Hate whoever edited the colours but hey Small Details save my life and uhhhhh bucky ??? self care ???? bucky vc false.

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x

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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do i still taste of war? can you still feel the battles on my skin stitched across my back am i still rebuilding bone by fragile bone?

what does forgiveness taste like? (r.n.)

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also shoutout to my army sister who came home from AIT recently bc she keeps shooting my mother down every time she tries to bait me !!! and she started calling me he !!! 

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im here finally

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@withoutwar is the worst. the absolute worst.

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what do u guys think of the New Psd(tm)

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im so disappointed. 

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tag drop yeet

&* what says you o’ icarus? do you lament the loss of your wings or the loss of your soul?  ——  self.

&* can you feel it, icarus? the sun melting your wings? the chill seeping through your bones, winter now your claim.  ——  character study.

&* different in name yet similar in past. he says   ‘   i am freedom !   ‘   he says   ‘   i am war !   ‘  ——  steve rogers.

&* sanctified in righteous bloodshed yet left broken   /   reforged. do you believe yourself to be a hero?  ——  sam wilson.

&* crimson stained upon lips as pomegranate dies.   ‘   how many?   ‘   he screams.   ‘   too many to count.   ‘   you answer.  ——  natasha.

&* you are nothing but an oracle of invention. doomed are you to witness the fall of man.   /   it will be your fault.  ——  tony.

&* they call you criminal   /   soldier   /   weapon  —  you have no name left to be said.  ——  self promo.

&* patroclus weeps & achilles rages. there is no peace for love. not in war. not in death.  ——  stucky.

&* he is not that man any longer ! speak o’ icarus ! cry to the heavens of your injustice !  ——  ask meme.

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holds his hand. ♡

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               A SIMPLE GRASP ! delicate yet not frail   ;   petals still blooming, curled inwards as if scared to blossom. his fingers            HIS ! a symbol of freedom, war, and peace, tangle loosely, granting an option to DISENGAGE            //   when had he ever been such a choice before? it’s left unsaid, the undeniable yet foreign notion that he   (   my name is bucky !    )   can decide for himself. steve always makes sure his say is his own.                                                 //   ‘   YOU CAN ALWAYS SAY NO, BUCK.   ‘

tired, worn, wary. his hand            flesh and blood and nothing akin to the inhuman monstrosity, the atrocious weapon reminiscent of nails through palms          grasps back tenderly   ;   a willow bending heed to the will of growth. (   RISE YOU TATTERED ROSE ! IGNORE THE THORNS DRAWING CRIMSON ACROSS YOUR LIPS !   )   

he fits palm to palm, touch warm and jarring to a man so used to cold, cold, cold, cold                      !!                               they sit, quiet. his lips don’t move.  //   ‘    THANKS, STEVIE.   ‘   //   they don’t have to.