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Why isn't "too scary" a good enough reason to never drive a car

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self reflection

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canadian on canadian violence

i.e. etho in his prime lol

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WE'RE SO BACK WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (doodles while watching!!)

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i have no idea if this makes sense, I just had to capture my vision. Dialogue from Joel's first episode of past life

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Very quick doodle but I’m so excited for their dynamic this season

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emo pearl thank you for existing

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VILLIES DESIGNS!!!!!! AAAAAA AAAAA A AA hello.

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Cleaned up version of the artwork that I started on stream!

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The most villainous team out there!

I can’t believe how fast other fan artists started posting stuff. Sorry it took me a few business days.

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If you see beauty in something don’t wait for others to agree

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100YQ Rant/Criticism

SPOILERS FOR FT 100YQ INCLUDED

I have been following FT 100YQ and have seen a lot of moments that just made me go ‘hmm okay, doesn’t make sense but alright’, and there have been a lot of moments of just the plot/narrative being broken for convenience sake. It has gotten under my skin many times, but as a Jellal fan, one of the biggest offenses and one that makes me scratch my head a lot is from chapter 144.  Don't read ahead if you don't want to be spoiled about a big reveal on his character or on 100YQ.

144 : Beyond Sins.

Now initially when this chapter came out, I really loved it since it was the first time we had a backstory in ages and it being Jellal’s, I ate it all up.

But there was something in this chapter that made absolutely no sense narrative wise when I looked back with fresh eyes and wasn’t riding the high of getting Jellal’s backstory/anything Jellal related.

That being.

This panel.

We’re told not even a page into the chapter, Jellal’s real name is ‘Siegrain’, a name which we know from the previous narrative and was hinted throughout arcs to be like an alter persona for Jellal. 

This chapter goes on to basically confirm that Jellal canonically has DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), a trauma response that must have manifested given all the stress and changes that happened in his life from losing his father young, watching his mother die by the slavers and then being taken into slavery, having his whole trajectory he planned for his life ruined etc. 

This is an understandable trauma response, and I would love to have seen it properly explored with understanding in regards to Jellal/Sieg’s character. It would have been so interesting to see how Jellal’s trauma at the tower manifested in a split personality and how he coped with the situation as he was cited to be notably different to all those around him 

‘A Leader’

‘One who doesn’t cry’

‘The strong boy’. 

This chapter basically confirms that this character he created was a way to mask his own insecurities and cope in the unknown environment.

However, that’s not where my gripe is.

Because as much as I was interested in the idea of Jellal’s trauma manifesting as DID, it’s the way that the narrative has gone about it which butchers everything else and makes no sense in a narration sense.

The man who we are told his name has always been ‘Jellal’ is now revealed to us by this flashback chapter to have actually had the name ‘Siegrain’ as his birth name. 

This on it’s own is boggling but wouldn’t have caused such breaks in the narrative, but the fact that this very chapter contradicts a chapter in a previous arc with Jellal in the Gears fight, this is where it just stops making sense.

In order to beat Gears in chapter 57, Jellal takes out ‘Siegrain’, the man whom he claims is the carrier of his sins, which in accordance to other arcs of Fairy Tail makes sense since we see the Siegrain persona being the most active in regards to infiltrating the magic council, getting the etherion fired etc.

But now we have in not even 100 chapters after this, it’s revealed to us that Jellal’s name isn’t Jellal at all, but ‘Siegrain’. How can Siegrain be the one carrying Jellal’s sins, when Siegrain is the main identity/person  that Jellal was created from? 

It just doesn’t add up.

And if that isn’t narrative breaking enough, Jellal’s name actually being ‘Siegrain’ causes a whole other narrative hole too.

This guy.

Mystogan.

Mystogan’s real name is Jellal, just like if not all Edolan counterparts share the same first name of their earthland counterparts (e.g. Natsu Dragion, Lucy Ashely, Erza Knightwalker, Gray Surge etc). But being told now all of a sudden that Jellal changed his birth name doesn't work for Mystogan, as are we meant to believe that Mystogan conveniently changed his name to be ‘Jellal’ to match his earthland counterpart who was going through a mental crisis?

Mystogan, the one who’s whole thing was to keep his identity hidden and it’s Faust, the one who calls him out the name as Jellal. The one who is meant to be his father/father figure? Mystogan, who somehow has the name Jellal, a name Erza wasn’t even allowed to mention out of the Tower, which makes sense for him to have it if his counterpart had that birth name, but apparently that’s not the case?

I know I am probably just beating a dead horse now and I should get over it, but I just needed to write something since my head was struggling to make sense of the reveal for a long time. I don’t know what exactly is added to the story by Jellal’s birth name being ‘Siegrain’ other than shock value. Like what does this plot twist actually do? Nothing.

Other than it just makes the whole narrative so messy now and I don’t like it. If the aspect of DID was to be introduced for Jellal’s character, then what was wrong with Jellal being the host? And Siegrain being the alter that manifested as a trauma response?

It could have been something intriguing and insightful to explore, bring awareness about different trauma responses and also add a new layer to his character beyond just extremes of misguidance and the need for redemption.

But no.

God this just makes no sense.

I’m sorry for ranting, after seeing the Gears fight animated, it reminded me of THAT reveal and I just saw glaring plot holes which I completely blindsided the first time I read the chapter.  And what makes me even more annoyed is the DID aspect is probably just another plot convenience that is most likely never going to be brought up again ever.

And I’ve already said how I don’t like something serious such as trauma being used as a plot device.

Which it clearly is in this case.

The only way I can make sense of both events existing, is that it shows that Siegrain is so disassociated from his sense of self, that he has decided to adopt the identity of Jellal completely, killing his born self for the sake of the present and going as far to believe that Siegrain is the made one and not 'Jellal'.

However then that opens up a whole new discussion...One I might cover another day, but i'm afraid this is getting long enough as it is.

But yeah, thank you for listening to my ramblings if you’ve stayed this long.

I wonder if anyone else felt the same about the reveal as someone who likes Jellal's character? Or just has been following the story? I'd love to hear your thoughts.

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"𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭, 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐣𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝.."

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i read this post about someone simply accepting their depression is not going to go away & instead of resenting themselves for never getting rid of it or trying to find so much energy to banish the sadness away or to be fully "healed" from it, they just focus on adding more happy things in their plate.

and that is something i can resonate with.

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Just a few more hours

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some screenshot redraws from the outreach!

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such a great question!! as requested by @shanomaly are my hc for my fave 4 ( natsu, lucy, erza, jellal ), from less to most tolerant to alcohol !!

Lucy is definitely the most sensitive member to alcohol. They've been " trying " to build up her tolerance over the many occasions where they party, but it seems like she's doomed to be a lightweight forever. She will absolutely be singing drunk karaoke after two cocktails- also, she's super picky with her drinks. She will have the fruitiest, most extravagant cocktails from the menu, and especially enjoy anything that has actual pieces of fruit in them. She is a big fan of sangria which gets her drunk VERY fast. She is a flirty drunk and never gets sick the day after somehow. She can always rely on Natsu to ensure her safety and therefore never really worries about being unsafe or having to worry about how much she's having. You will absolutely find her on the dancefloor at like 9 PM when it's completely empty and having Mamma Mia karaoke. She's a partygoer and you will always have a good time with her !

Jellal starts off with lower tolerance as he has never experienced parties before, which means that he has obviously never drank before. He totally underestimates the effect and starts drinking like Erza and Natsu do- which is a terrible idea. He despises beer but enjoys wine, even if it's Mirajane's terrible house wine ( nobody knows what she puts in there. ) At his first Fairy Tail guild party, he gets pretty wasted after getting offered hot pepper shots by Erza, who says it's " tradition for new members ". At the end of the party he is COVERED in sweat, left in his slighhhtly slutty sleeveless top and pants. Erza makes sure to get him home, in his one person bedroom in a pilgrim-domain of Fiore, and he begs her to stay over. He gets kicked out the day after, considering how offensive it is seen to bring a woman over in such a place. Jellal avoids getting drunker than tipsy, as it leads him to having terrible nightmares and sweats, but he enjoys getting a couple of drinks just to " loosen up " and socialize more with Erza's friends.

Natsu has a way better tolerance than Lucy and he can go for a couple of pints without feeling too tipped off. He enjoys partying in private committees, like with the guild or with his friends, but won't go out in place where he'll be all pushed around in crowds of strangers. He likes having drinking contests with Gray ( of course !! ) and always makes sure never to drink TOO much in order to keep an eye on Lucy. He makes it his personal duty to get her home safe. He even prepares a BIG glass of fresh water that she can gulp overnight that Gray has enchanted to keep fresh, as well as some aspirin for an eventual headache. He makes sure that her windows are open to keep her cool and so he can perhaps check on her in the morning. Natsu has darts contests with Erza and he always wins, which drives her absolutely crazy ( Erza is a VERY sore loser ).

Erza is the final boss of alcohol. As expected, she has a very high alcohol tolerance and is seldom drunk. Her weakness is spirits; and she will always remember the bottle of homemade genever that she and the team drank at Christmas. Beer and wine have no effect on her. She enjoys a nice glass of wine and finds genuine interest in the process of wine-making and grape harvesting. She's also into niche rhums and bitter, sour aperitives. You can always catch her with a digestive after a nice meal, which she enjoys simply for its fine taste. At parties, she sheds her armor to dance with Lucy and play pool with Jellal. He's TERRIBLE at it and she teaches him gradually how to angle his shots and accomplish successful tricks. She teases him on his blush as soon as she angles his body and arms to increase his accuracy. Erza often hosts Jellal after their drunken evenings; she rubs his back through his childhood nightmares and listens to his spiraling anxieties.The day after, they can be spotted in the main hall chatting as if nothing happened, planning their next mission or having a comforting hangover breakfast.