zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

Hey, everyone. Hope you all are having a good Wednesday. As for me, I'm doing alright, for the most part. Still recovering from a minor surgery I had done a few weeks ago, and because I am recovering, trying to figure out what to do about any upcoming expenses I have. All while maintaining my composure so I don't make any further damage to my healing back.

Now before you ask, yes, I am fine. Without going into the gory details, I had an abscess on my back that was becoming too much of a nuisance to ignore. I met with a general surgeon back in June and we agreed to have it removed. We scheduled it for June 27th and bing bang boom, the abscess was removed and I went home. With a small hiccup after the surgery involving a stupid wound vac (so glad I don't have that anymore), I've been doing my best to rest and heal up.

But while I've been doing all that and making sure the scars heal, it does mean that my finances have dried up and any job hunting I was doing has been put on hold. I left wondering how I am going to afford the basic necessities, let alone rent. Without knowing how much longer I am going to be laid up at home, I'm beginning to fear that I'm going to lose everything I have just to survive.

That is where, against my pride and moral values, I ask you for assistance. I hate to ask this of people, but being so worried about the uncertain future, I could use some help. If you could help, or you think you might know someone who could help me, message me and we can work out the details.

Please, I hate begging for help, but I'm left with barely any options.

Thank you for hearing me out. Have a good day!

[zionchubby14]

Hey, all. It's that time again. This time, I have a legit reason to be asking. Because of the surgery I had done on my back, I've been laid up at home while recovering. Which means no job searching, no trying to scrounge around for enough to cover the simplest expenses. I hate to keep asking anyone, especially those whom I love and care about, for help. But with all this, I don't know what else to do. If you can help me out with getting through this, I would really appreciate it.

[zionchubby14]

Back Home

Hey, all. My partner @collideintome mentioned that I was in the hospital getting some extra care for a surgery I had. Well, to spoil the story, I'm back home safe and sound.

Let me fill you in on the whole deal. A month and a half back, I had noticed a wound on my back that starting to seeping fluid. I resisted going in to get it checked out, but it began seeping worse and worse over time. So, near the beginning of this month, I went to get it checked, initially in the ER, but got a referral to see the wound care team. That referral led to another referral, but this time with a general surgeon to see what my options were. He saw it and said that with that size of a abscess, it would need to come out. So we planned for surgery for this past Friday to get it removed.

Surgery day came, abscess was removed and I was sent home with bandaging and a wound vac, to draw away any possible fluid. The wound vac was useless, as no matter how I moved safely at home, the alarm signifying that there was a leak would go off, but when we checked for any leak, there was none. So sleep that night was pointless and it drove myself and my husband (who came into town to care for me, such a sweetheart <3) crazy having it beeping nonstop. It got to the point where we went to the ER the following morning. Mind you, it hadn't been 24 hours since I had the surgery, so we were just wanting something to be wrong (which was the case, but for different reasons).

Saturday morning, we arrive at the ER for the first time, and were told that there was a leak, and the triage team quickly patched it up. They gave us some instructions and sent us on our way. When we arrived home, we noticed that there was a bit of blood leaking outside of the foam padding they packed over the wound. Now we were pissed and panicking, calling for an ambulance and taking me back to the ER. After the shock that I was back so soon, they were worried and did some scans to make sure the area was doing alright. After alot of unnecessary run-around, one attending doctor had the smart idea of admitting me to monitor the situation and to have the surgeon take a look at it on Monday.

So I was admitted in Saturday evening and was poked and prodded while monitoring the wound. Keep in mind that the wound vac was still beeping as I was being cared for. It wasn't until Sunday afternoon that the end of the wound vac that was supposed to be connected to my back, fell out. Like a limp dick after climaxing inside of an anal cavity, it just fell out. So now, there's a bigger problem.

Luckily, the nurses and doctors on duty were able to rebandage it, and as they were doing so, said that there wasn't any leaks necessary for a wound vac. And because most surgeons use a wound vac for areas where a patient can monitor the area (like a leg or an arm), they didn't think that it needed to be put back in my back. They still monitored my bandage to keep an eye for any leaks, but the stitches and staples held nicely and there was no integral damage to the scars.

Once we got the okay from the doctors today, we made the collective decision to bring me home. And now, after resting and getting my bearings back home, I can safely say that I am back and recovering nicely.

I know I stayed quiet with this all weekend long, but it's been a stressful and worrisome time for myself and my husband and we didn't want to share anything before we knew what was going on medically. But now we know and we can concentrate on my recovery.

Thank you for allowing me to tell you this.

[zionchubby14]

And it's doomsday! Not only have I been without food for the last few days, but now my rent is due and I am broke. So if you have money saved up that you weren't planning on buying the Switch 2 with, please strongly consider sending it my way. The hunger is getting bad and I don't want to be homeless on top of it.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

Hey, I’m trying to understand something. For the past few years, you’ve regularly asked followers here to send money to your PayPal for help during tough times — and now, even after getting married recently, you’re still posting about financial struggles. Is your husband not working either, or what’s the situation? Also, have you considered offering something in return? It might make people more willing to support if they felt like it was a mutual exchange.

You bring up a lot of good and interesting points in your question. I'm going to do my best to answer them all and shed some light on this for you.

First, my husband is not working, due to his mental health. I won't go into too much detail, but his anxiety and depression make it so that he cannot work.

And I know it wasn't brought up, but our current living situation is that him and I don't currently live together, but we are planning to in the near future. There's a lot of hurdles and paperwork to fill out and with some housing, there's a long waitlist. So it's a process we have to endure.

Second, offering something in return. I have offered things before, be it pics or short little videos, but either the distributor wasn't selling much of my stuff or of other means (not going to name names because I'm not a catty bitch), or the site didn't approve of what I was putting out so I had my account suspended. Mind you, I don't post racy content. It's mostly belly and gainer-related stuff. But the conservative eyes deemed it too much for their "virgin" viewers. So I stopped doing that.

Since then, I have tried to find work in my city, with very meager results. I hate asking people for money, but when I'm left with no choice due to the circumstances before me, I had to swallow my pride and ask. I hated to do that, because I was, in my mind, taking advantage of the goodwill and faith of the people who have followed me for years. I'm sure if you ask certain people, their view of me is less than what it was ten years ago. I don't want the reputation of being a mooch in the community. No one does.

I'm hoping to make a change in this soon, but my health and living situation are higher priorities right now.

I'm sorry, I feel like I was rambling a bit there towards the end. Anyway, hope this answered your question!

[zionchubby14]

Please, I now have nothing left in my cabinets and I don't know how long I will last. I don't know what else to do.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

So yeah...it's that time of the month again. I was able to get by last month due to the kindness of strangers, but this month is harder to get through. I only have $15 to my name and I still have a week and a half to get through before food stamps come in (that's not including cat food, bus fare, laundry money, and other non-grocery items that I need, and that's not taking into account rent and an overdue internet bill that I can't avoid this month. So in total, I need roughly $400 to safely get by until next month, and hopefully, by then, I will be back on my feet again.

So the TL:DR of it all, can anyone help me with this hole that I keep finding myself in? Any and all help is appreciated.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

So...make that $0 to my name. Was forced to get some essentials. Now I am broke until next Saturday. If you can help me out with groceries, that would be tremendously helpful and much appreciated.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

So yeah...it's that time of the month again. I was able to get by last month due to the kindness of strangers, but this month is harder to get through. I only have $15 to my name and I still have a week and a half to get through before food stamps come in (that's not including cat food, bus fare, laundry money, and other non-grocery items that I need, and that's not taking into account rent and an overdue internet bill that I can't avoid this month. So in total, I need roughly $400 to safely get by until next month, and hopefully, by then, I will be back on my feet again.

So the TL:DR of it all, can anyone help me with this hole that I keep finding myself in? Any and all help is appreciated.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

Reposting in case some of you didn't get to see. Please help.

So yeah...it's that time of the month again. I was able to get by last month due to the kindness of strangers, but this month is harder to get through. I only have $15 to my name and I still have a week and a half to get through before food stamps come in (that's not including cat food, bus fare, laundry money, and other non-grocery items that I need, and that's not taking into account rent and an overdue internet bill that I can't avoid this month. So in total, I need roughly $400 to safely get by until next month, and hopefully, by then, I will be back on my feet again.

So the TL:DR of it all, can anyone help me with this hole that I keep finding myself in? Any and all help is appreciated.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

So yeah...it's that time of the month again. I was able to get by last month due to the kindness of strangers, but this month is harder to get through. I only have $15 to my name and I still have a week and a half to get through before food stamps come in (that's not including cat food, bus fare, laundry money, and other non-grocery items that I need, and that's not taking into account rent and an overdue internet bill that I can't avoid this month. So in total, I need roughly $400 to safely get by until next month, and hopefully, by then, I will be back on my feet again.

So the TL:DR of it all, can anyone help me with this hole that I keep finding myself in? Any and all help is appreciated.

http://paypal.me/zionchubby14

[zionchubby14]

I can't believe it has been one month already since marrying the man of my dreams. He's filled my life with so much love and kindness since we've met that I feel hollow being without it for longer than second. I love you, Bear. Now and forever ❤️💕❤️💕❤️

[zionchubby14]

Okay, it's "Getting Intimate with zion_chubby14" time!

First, I'm sorry for my silence over the last few weeks or so. Between the wedding ceremony, the staycation honeymoon, the chest cold we both had during said honeymoon, and everything else, I've been very busy. So I offer my apologies.

Second, I will post pictures of the honeymoon in a future post, so you will enjoy it all, I promise.

Third, and the main reason I am making this post: something that I learned from the honeymoon. With my husbear, I am the main caregiver of the two of us. I want to make sure that we both are taken care of, physically, emotionally, mentally. It's what I'm used to after so many years of caring for Mom. In that sense, my soft dom side comes out, with the encouraging words and comforting pats/rubs to reinforce our sexual fantasies and desires. We both feed off it well, so it's good to have in our relationship.

But when my husbear has his dom side shine through, my dom side disappears and I become a pure sub bottom. He has me begging for any sort of stimulation and it drives me crazy when he allows me to feel that. I never thought that I would be behaving in such a way with someone I feel secure with. It's surreal in a way to think that when I met him, he was feeling more asexual and shy about sex, and now, I've awoken this sexual monster within him and I love it!

Gosh, this is a long one (insert a "That's what she said" gif here). Let's wrap it up, shall we?

There was a reason for me to make this post. It was a way to reflect back on the honeymoon and to give you a glimpse behind the zion_chubby14 curtain. Hope you enjoy!

[zionchubby14]

Yesterday was the happiest day ever, because my Bear and I got married yesterday. I never thought that I would feel such joy and love, but he came into my world and gave me just that and plenty more. I'm so glad to have him in my life and to be his for the rest of our days

[zionchubby14]

Correction: I turn 40 today.

I turn 40 tomorrow. There are 3 thoughts that go through my head when I make that statement

How the fuck did that happen?

I want to be a fat birthday piggy tomorrow, who wants to help me make that wish come true? (http://paypal.me/zionchubby14)

I can't wait for the greatest birthday gift to be given to me.

[zionchubby14]

I turn 40 tomorrow. There are 3 thoughts that go through my head when I make that statement

How the fuck did that happen?

I want to be a fat birthday piggy tomorrow, who wants to help me make that wish come true? (http://paypal.me/zionchubby14)

I can't wait for the greatest birthday gift to be given to me.

[zionchubby14]

This took forever, but because the nurses at the emergency room Saturday had to shave a bit of my belly hair to stick on leads, I made the conscious decision to shave my chest and belly.

Tl;Dr I am Smooth Bear for Tummy Tuesday

[zionchubby14]

So this morning, I had to go to the emergency room. Nothing serious, but my heart felt like it was racing and my breath felt like it wasn't getting enough air in. Sent me home an hour later, telling me that it was essentially a panic attack. So great, I have that in my history now...

[zionchubby14]

Please, can anyone spare $60 for rent and cat food for me? I'm panicking that I am going to be kicked out if I don't come up with it by the end of the day. I know I'm desperate and begging, but I've run out of options.