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grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

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i wanna be able to cry in someone’s arms and they just hold me. imagine that

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i hate that healing is not linear

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She tended to my soil so I could grow tall, then left before the fruits of her labour had formed. Now my fruits fall at the base of my trunk, being eaten by all but her.

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i need you to miss me

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Schitts Creek 6x8 | NHIE 4x10

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And because you are a dream , I sleep a lot

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“I loved you in a way I wished someone would love me.”

— Mahmdou Darwish

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hearing “I’m so proud of you” from the right people is so comforting and motivating

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“And even if we never talk again, please remember that I’m forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me.”

— Chasing Amy

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I want to get married

I have never been so sure

And it hurts

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Ten, 2002

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It's 1:13am and sure enough all my thoughts are filled with Shahara again.

I need to do my work.

It's too late for me to sleep now, I'm better off just doing the work honestly.