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it took me so long to type your url 😭😭 anyways, heyyy

hiii :3 I’m about to spend hours playing the sims 3

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when it comes to asexuality and aromanticism you have to be okay with contradiction. one ace person will say asexuality is about not experiencing attraction, another will say it’s about not caring to act on attraction, another will say it’s not experiencing arousal. one aromantic will consider themself queer, one won’t. two people with seemingly identical experiences will use two different labels. aro people will be in romantic relationships, ace people will have sex. you get it.

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i haven’t been able to stop having nightmares I’m ripping my hair out I can’t do this (continues to do this) i need to play the sims to just make myself too tired and cold to actually dream

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Here's to questioning systems!

Whether you've been wondering about your plurality for a few hours or decades, you're a valid part of the plural community! Today's for you!

Shoutout to:

People who aren't sure if they're plural or not

Systems who know they're plural, but don't know anything else

Those figuring out whether they're traumagenic, endogenic, mixed origins, or something else entirely

Quoi/crypto/congenic individuals, or those with similar labels

People who aren't sure if they "count" as plural, such as someone with psychosis or imagimates

Those who are plural, but find themselves doubting their system often

And anyone else I missed

It's perfectly normal to not be 100% sure about things! I'm sure you'll figure it out eventually, but, even if you don't, you're still incredibly valid, and we support you! You deserve to take some time for yourself and think about things, but please don't feel rushed to find a label!

We wish you the best of luck on your self discovery journey!

🖤💜💙💚💛

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most of the time when (and after) I’m watching or reading something I can’t tell if I like or dislike it? Like sure there are moments that I might like, like a joke or clever reference, but stuff rarely makes me feel anything emotionally. I’m just sort of latching onto whatever people say and comparing it to what I personally feel after digging really really deep to find even a single flicker of emotion, and choosing whatever seems more right to me. It’s super alienating because even after I know I enjoy something, the feeling fades within the month and I can not get excited about it ever again. I feel like I’m masquerading among actual fans and people who understand the media, and that my opinions and feelings are never truly my own despite knowing that’s not always true. idk it just feels really depressing and makes me feel like a hollow shell even more than I normally do

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Varied carpet beetle, Anthrenus verbasci, Dermestidae

Found throughout the world, the varied carpet beetle is commonly found in homes. Larvae feed primarily on animal fibers like wool, feathers, fur, leather, hair, hide, dead bugs, silk, and dry pet food. While not harmful, they can be destructive. Adults feed on flower nectar and only incidentally enter homes, especially in spring, often to find a food source to lay eggs near.

Photo 1 by gustavopt, 2 by suejaggar, 3-5 by tshahan, 6 (for scale) by miskatoniq, 7 (larva) by the_knower, and 8 (larva w/dime for scale) by jbower

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how it feels liking and reblogging posts

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I am developing a gay hookup app with roguelike and deckbuilding elements

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silly

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"Evening In Blue"

Mark Grantham, Canadian

acrylic on canvas

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(guy whos about to act on a bad idea accent) I have a great idea ☝🏾

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"you read a lot, right?"

"yes!"

"what are some books you've read recently?"

"uhh i don't remember"

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If I ask nicely who will rb this telling me what is the last song u listened to 🥺