zygo-matix

[zygo-matix]

by Raph Comic and Extra Fabulous Comics

[zygo-matix]

I didn’t know cheetahs meow I’ve always thought they roar my whole life has been a lie

[zygo-matix]

things abuse survivors think/say

maybe my trauma wasn’t bad enough

maybe what happened was just my fault??

but what if I can’t hold that person accountable? what if they meant well

what if I don’t have the right to be angry?

but what if they didn’t know they were hurting me? maybe its my fault for not saying it

it’s my fault, i’ve always been hiding how badly things hurt me

i’m just weak and pathetic and everything hurts me it’s not their fault i’m like this

hey this this thing actually happen or did i make that up

if i ask abuser they’ll tell me i made it up that must be true they do say i’m delusional

maybe if I’ve done something differently this wouldn’t have happened

guilt guilt guilt guilt

what if abuser is right tho? what if they’re telling the truth and it’s okay to tell it in insults then?

i’m garbage, i knew it

yeah everyone deserves compassion and comfort but me? no.

I am the sole person who is just bad enough to deserve everything that has happened to me

no this person didn’t mean to hurt my feelings i’m just too sensitive!!!

maybe someone else wouldn’t be hurt by this, this means its my fault

i hate myself

how long until everyone realizes i’m just a fake and there’s nothing valuable inside of me

yeah they like me now but i’m going to fuck it up and they’ll hate me like everyone else

was that abuse? no it can’t be. its my fault. if I wasn’t the way I am it wouldn’t have happened

everything people do to me is just what I deserved

what this person is doing bothers me so I have to try harder not to be bothered by it

this person is wrong but everyone believes them so it must be okay

yeah they hate me but i don’t want them to leave me maybe i can get them to hate me less

yeah this person is hurting me but i still need them in my life maybe if i change myself

it doesn’t matter if they hurt me, i’m used to it

what if everyone abandons me and I die alone

this person scares me but I can’t let that affect me

I shouldn’t be feeling this way, I need to get over my feelings

I can’t let anyone notice how I feel or they will hate me

how does everyone just stay calm? why can’t I do that

I’m a burden on everyone, I bet they’d all be happier if I wasn’t there

if I disappeared right now wouldn’t everything be better?

*these are not truths, this is after-effect of long term abuse

[zygo-matix]

we think Greeks were a very rational people and all until we learn about the Buphonia, an Athenian ritual where a laboring ox had to be sacrificed but at the same time, this was considered a terrible crime. so when the priest killed it with an axe, he had to throw it aside and get the fuck out of there running for his life. then the rest of the people discovered the crime scene and blamed the axe, the only one present. the axe was immediately carried before the court of the Prytaneum which charged the axe with having caused the death of the ox. sometimes it was absolved, others, it was thrown into the sea,

[zygo-matix]

Kedi. Dir. Ceyda Torun. 2016.

[zygo-matix]

Some Asshole: You can’t be! Truly yourself! If you’re on medication! It’s changing the Real You™!

Me: if the real me is going to lie on the floor for 3 weeks and try to drown herself in the river I don’t want to know her, Barbara

[zygo-matix]

[zygo-matix]

someone: my mom/dad supported me through some traumas that happened

me: parents do that?

[zygo-matix]

Report: 95% Of Grandfathers Got Job By Walking Right Up And Just Asking

[zygo-matix]

 Makpal Abdrazakova, the only female eagle hunter in Kazakhstan.

[zygo-matix]

Controllers, abusers and manipulative people don’t question themselves. They don’t ask themselves if the problem is them. They always say the problem is someone else.

Darlene Ouimet (via yourplasticheart)

[zygo-matix]

“If you claim to be defending racists because of free speech but only speak up when it’s racist speech that is threatened then what you’re defending isn’t speech, it’s racism.”

@cambrian_era

[zygo-matix]

I hate sports and I usually don’t care who wins or loses, but as an autistic person, France winning the World Cup genuinely bothers me. 

France is one of the most nationalist countries in the world. They even refuse to learn other languages because they think they’re so great. And now they have yet another excuse to jerk off and celebrate their blind nationalism.

Meanwhile, French autistic children are being forcefully removed from their parents and shoved into freezers. Some of them has died in these freezers. The ones who survived has been forced to live in shitty psych wards for the rest of their lives. French autistic children are not allowed in public school and the vast majority of autistic adults are unemployed because of job discrimination.

This shit is happening because France is too blinded by nationalism to question their own government. And now France is being celebrated more than ever before. Their nationalism is growing even stronger.

This… worries me.

[zygo-matix]

[zygo-matix]

Danai Gurira ©Ben Watts // Women’s Health  

[zygo-matix]

hey everybody, check out these lesbian witch cats at my local rescue