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NEVER LET YOURSELF BE STOPPED BY WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE IF YOU STARTED EARLIER!!!!! THE ONLY TIME WE HAVE IS NOW

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Beautiful images and music will save me I know it I just know it

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Gonna chill out the rest of May and then change my entire life in June. Possibly July if that doesn't work out. Certainly no later than September or October.

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my collection

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BEOMGYU ✶ PANIC (2025)

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BEOMGYU: PANIC.

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fuck i can’t believe i wasted my entire life being moved by art and beauty and the indomitable human spirit ugh i should’ve been making money through internet scams

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doesn’t everyone constantly feel like they’re acting. All the time

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the thing with conclave 2024 is you watch it and you're engaged and interested and it's a good movie while you're watching. and then three months later it's still in your brain. you've used every word in the world to describe it from cunty to astronomical.

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Me, seeing the colour red: wow, this is just like conclave (2024)

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i should rly be writing in my diary

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actually you all (me included) have to get out of this hole of self deprecation and self-perceived loneliness. no one is going to understand you 100%. we are all unique individuals with unique upbringings and unique experiences. no one hates you. everyone is figuring out how to forge their own path in this world and is trying their best. they have their own self to worry about. i really do believe if you treat the people around you with kindness and an open heart, you will receive the same. why would you not spend your life being optimistic about the people around you and your relationship with them? why would you want to waste your life away and let it pass in front of you because you believe that no one gets you? what good does that do?

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how do you cope with change? i’ve done it time after time and it does not get easier. college is especially hard because i see these people all the time casually and then what? i’m supposed to not see them in person ever again?? how is that fair? life goes by too fast. i want everyone to know how much i love them and cherish them.

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i mean fuck i like pills i like drugs i like gettin money i like strippers i like to fuck i like day drinkin and day parties n hollywood i like doing hollywood shit snort it probably would

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fawk……..

sorry I always felt undesirable my entire life and it gave me kinks of wanting someone to desire me so extremely it's uncontrollable for them as if that's my fault