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Something about caves and cave noises and reverb and echo and idk and etc, I like this stuff, especially the icy hollow noises, and the rumbling

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I come back to this track from time to time, it’s really relaxing

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I bought a pack of cigs

Please don’t judge me

I just wanna feel good ok

Don’t do as I do

But I don’t judge you

I understand

I just wanna feel good

I’m not a bad person

It’s ok

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I hope it’s ok that I’m a messy person. I only focus on making things, having fun, and making people smile. I don’t really wanna do anything else if that’s ok. I do kinda have a plan for my 30s and 40s. I wanted to be expansive in my 20s. I wanna streamline and focus in my 30s. And then I wanna share in my 40s. After that idk I’m not rigid. I don’t really know what 50 and 60 bring. I don’t think I’ll change too much. My biggest focus moving forward has to become mental and emotional health. I still have some childhood issues that I’ve never talked to anyone about. I have to address those with a professional because it messes me up at random moments in my life.

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I’m feeling better

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Nobody represents me but me and I don’t talk to anybody so don’t listen to anyone but me about me. I used to be honest here but I’m waiting for the weirdness to pass, I think things will get more normal after November. I really don’t know. I don’t really know what to do anymore. I’m just doing what I always do. Unless we talk directly, do not trust what people say about me. I think I’m being kept in the dark about some shit on purpose and I still don’t know what happened on September.

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I think of this video sometimes

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I really like the affinity 2 update, I’m excited to work on some new ideas, I might end up buying the entire suite once my trial ends. Also I’m just glad that serif is still making cool stuff, that company has a special place in my heart because I used to use the free version of drawplus when I first got into digital design. I actually like that the affinity apps are free to try before buying, I’m a very habitual and pattern oriented person and sometimes I can’t get used to the UX of an app so it’s nice that I can try it before paying.

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I kinda wish I posted that art yesterday cuz I get bored of my art really fast and I was thinking of deleting it cuz it’s not my mood today, that art felt like a yesterday mood, if I made art today, I’d do something green and earthy cuz I felt earthy and soft and up today

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I made that art yesterday and the day before yesterday but I didn’t feel like posting, I made the bubble face first and then I took the mouth part and made the other piece where it looks like a person laying on the ground in a weird dreamlike hallway or room, maybe in outer space, in a a weird space ship hallway

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Warm soft cushiony indoor slippers are very nice 👍

🥐qoasont level soft

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I love trance music so much

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I didn’t know Star Trek tng is on Netflix Canada, I already know this is gonna be my new binge lmao

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I changed my Netflix pic to Ultra Magnus because I like the way his design looks and today I started watching transformers siege. I checked the wiki and it’s interesting, I feel similar to ultra Magnus. Not literally but in spirit. The show is not amazing but I’m only 3 episodes into Transformers: War for Cybertron Siege.