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I'm sorry you're being harassed 🫂

tysm 💚💚💚 I reported the person doing it, I hope they get banned

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Wag is wrong with you

LMFAOOO REMY YOU CANT EVEN SPELL

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Loony ass bitch go kys-Remy

fuck u stupid ass bitch. ur the 1 who sent the pic of ur dog scratch w blood n no tw. i aint done shit to u. ur the 1 that said my innocent stories about my childhood shenanigans freaked u out. bitch I told those fkn stories to my other friends n they thought it was funny. it wouldn't freak u out if u weren't an ableist dumbass. how tf do u expect to have a friend if u ain't gon support them. u sent a pic of bluey w the orange dogs hand on blueys stomach sayin that was me and rocksy. girls a minor n putting your hand on someone's stomach is sexual tf is wrong w u? "oh sorry i didn't notice" pfft lmfao now that ik u I bet u did. u also sent a minor that picture w blood. now u b posting porn where a minor can see it. "you were messed up xd" bitch u right I was. n knowing my trauma history it's ableist of u to say that. now I feel ashamed ab my trauma and mental health again. fuck u, ur little cutesy act is gon come to an end. ur also lyin ab ur age. u say ur 23 but u look 17-19. me and my friends mass reported u so bye 😘 ur days being a two faced bitch r coming to an end😹

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a heads up!

block this account, they are posting nudity. ive had problems w this person in the past, and I tried not to post about that because i hate drama, i dont wanna lose friends, and everyone makes me look bad therefore i am not talking about that.

the nudity doesn't show the genitalia, maybe it does but it comes close. do not interact with them, just block and report.

the account is:

@/stevesfuzzypinkslippers

they also say theyre 23 but they are very obviously younger, ive seen pictures and videos of them, and they look 17-19.

i have more tea on them, dm me if you're interested.

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Unfortunately, I will be leaving Tumblr indefinitely. I have been receiving too much hate and criticism, but today it crossed the line.

I have struggled now more than ever with my mental health severely, and Tumblr makes my mental health worse. Mostly bc I have no self control and cant stay away from triggers. I have a severe self sabotage streak. I'm addicted to self sabotage and can't stop. No matter how much pain it puts me in.

When we started on tumblr it was our safe space w no hate. But as soon as we started gaining traction, we got more criticism than nice comments. We were always making a mistake it seemed- which growing up "never doing anything right" made some old trauma resurface. I've had flashbacks to trauma I had forgot even happened, trauma that makes me feel unsafe, frightened, and sometimes angry. I've cried in public and tried to hide it because of the flashbacks. I've longed for a hero all over again when I'm not being abused near as badly as I was years ago when I'm having the flashbacks to. Yet I'm mentally just as bad as I was then, with every mental health symptom I had back then and haven't had since coming back. I'm just as toxic to others as I was back then.

I have felt like I'm a failure, worthless, dumb, self centered, not valid, faking, and even an abuser- all these same things I felt before I was even allowed on the internet. I'm feeling them just as severe as I was then.

And the ask about the AI thing really set me over the edge. normally I wouldn't be so harsh over it, but I was sent criticism even after turning off anons and that's what made me even more in crisis completely. I couldn't handle anymore and that pushed me over the edge. Irl our life is rough and has been for the past three months with nonstop criticism and callouts for just existing. We come on social media to escape that, and now were being around negativity 24/7 online and offline. makes me feel even more depressed and like I deserve this because there's no escape from being harassed even online and I have to deal w the same things online I suffer with offline and go online to escape from.

The person who sent the ask criticizing my use of ai to make just one funny picture blocked me. I called them out nicely, they had no reason. They are immature and idc if you send them asks calling them out. You can send as many with cussing and wtv to them, they deserve it atp because I actually self harmed over it and have planned suicide now, not fully bc of them it is pushed me over the edge.

Now, an old friend who I called out for being a very toxic person is sending me asks telling me she's gonna expose me for faking disorders, but today it crossed the line because she sent the n word many times, exposed my real name with a threat that people are gonna find and kill me, and called my friends in the classic rock community here sluts. Below is the screenshots of what she sent, major trigger warning.

my mental health can't handle this. I'll never be stable as long as I have to deal with this. I am going to leave all my blogs except the KLOL fan page, if anyone wants to follow me do it there. And I will be turning off asks for the fan page.

I am dissociating so much I have really bad amnesia of my days and am a walking disaster. I'm so forgetful I'm messing up on important things IRL and it could end in me getting hurt or killed by accident, I'm like a walking dead zombie. this hate doesn't help, and tbh tumblr is a harsh and unhealthy place so I am leaving all my accs except the KLOL fan page.

I'm sorry guys. I just can't live like this.

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Go get raped and murdered ai lover human hater

lmfao bitch 😹 using ai doesnt make u a human hater. i care ab humans too which is why i use decency and respect whats right unlike u

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You don't have DID youre just possessed by demons. You don't have trauma, no shitty worthless ass last born child has trauma, lastborns are abusive by nature and immune to trauma because they're spoiled. Firstborns are the ones who get abused, who get famous, who get murdered out of jealousy, who are more successful and smarter because they matter more. Just admit you're faking trauma, DID, the whole disorder salad, just to be cool since youre a narcissistic attention whore and I'll leave you alone. If you don't, I will send the most deranged and scarring asks to your slutty little "friends."

Oh, and a little fact if they try to say I'm trolling. Lastborns are manipulative, self centered, everything youd describe a narcissist with, all by birth. They never have trauma, their lives are perfect because they're not human enough to suffer or have feelings. You're right when you admit you're a narcissist. I'm not done yet, I still have your "i want trauma why do i want trauma why was i born this way" vent I'm gonna use to prove you're faking and expose the real you.

this is probably true

again, really, thanks for reminding me how worthless i am and other shit im too mentally exhausted to repeat because your list of my faults is so long.

ion gaf what u do to me, but leave our fucking friends alone. and theyre not sluts. if ur calling them that bc they like older men and classic rock and shit, just fuck off.

also thanks for showing that u know pop psychology, it shows that u know more about shitty outdated stigmatizing pop psych than u do real psychology and actual psychological science.

ik ion hv a life so i cant say "go get a life" but i can say fuck you, stop ruining mine.

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thank you. we don't have hazbin introjects, and we're brainmade heavy, but people who truly have DID/OSDD and hazbin introjects are valid. to the people who have done so, stop taking our post out of its original context.

i know I'm gonna get some hate for this, but it needs to be said.

hazbin hotel is problematic. the creator is problematic. the creator romanticizes sexual abuse in the show, along with sexual violence in general. it's also offensive to Christians, which, I'm not a big fan of Christianity, but I also won't offend their religion because that would be anti-theist and that's not good; we should respect all beliefs and religions (that are not cults, harmful or toxic.) i say this as a sexual abuse survivor myself- sexual abuse and sexual violence are not funny or entertaining. and if you fetishize sexual violence, you are not a person with a harmless kink. you are a paraphile, which makes you radqueer, which makes you a part of the community that mocks peoples races, trauma, physical and mental disorders, and normalizes pedophilia and zoophilia. including that in your shows and doing that alone speaks for who you are.

and ofc, the DID fakers and endos are gonna pretend they have hazbin hotel alters. every sys server I've been in has at least one system with an angel dust alter, he seems to be the most common, but there's others too, and id believe the systems who say they have hazbin hotel introjects, if it wasn't for every system we've seen with a hazbin hotel introject also has a fuck ton of other introjects from other media used by admitted and obvious fakers. I can accept fictives from toxic sources, because fictives aren't their source, just the brains representation and internalization of the source- but so many fakers following a dumb trend have these hazbin hotel introjects, that it makes me paranoid around system spaces and just... people who say they have DID/OSDD in general. and the fakers are following the trend using toxic media like hazbin hotel, which makes it worse because of how toxic the show and creator are. it shows that fakers truly do fetishize us and our trauma.

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a list of things that are NOT systempunk!

believing that narc abuse is real

believing (any disorder here) abuse is real

using terms like "multiple personalities", "split personality", "psycho", "delulu", "schizo", and more that are too offensive to say

cringe culture

sending death threats, telling people to kill themselves, telling people to self harm, harassing etc (even if the person you're doing this to is pro endo, an endo, narc abuse believer, ableist etc)

lgbtq+ phobia

ageism

racism

cultural appropriation

discrimination

and since y'all can't seem to get this through your head, ableism. which includes endos and narc abuse believers. stay out of our tags :3

and credit to @anti-endo-solidarity for creating the systempunk tag.

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a list of narc abuse believer tags to block:

#narcissisticabuserecovery

#narcissistic abuse

#narc abuse

#narcissistic parents

#narcissistic mother

#narcissistic father

#narcissistic family

#narcissistic men

#narc abuse awareness day

this is all for now, comment if I missed any or if more come up

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this whole account is dedicated to narcissistic abuse.

could this name be more ableist?

that's all I could find under the narcissistic abuse recovery tag. I will reblog with more narc abuse blogs when I find more. this was a hard, severely triggering task for me and I can't handle to go through all of this all over again.

made an extensive list of narc abuse believers to block. trigger warnings for ableism apply.

here's the first account to block.

here's the next account, who used the systempunk tag despite being ableist (not punk values!)

major trigger warning for the next part. this is about a narc abuse believer who posts about self harm a lot, including the encouragement of self harm. please report this account.

their username is mushybrainpaste, please do not interact with them, just block and report.

can't add anymore screenshots to this so I will reblog with the rest of them

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also block this account for unfiltered straight up ableism. this account is ableist against npd and people on the schizophrenia and psychotic spectrums.

examples of their ableism below- trigger warnings for pedophilia and homicide

this is the most bullshit I've ever fucking heard. pedophiles don't have one set look, sure science shows that there are traits more common in pedophiles but not all pedophiles have them.

ableism against npd and schizophrenia.

again I can't add anymore pictures so I'll reblog again.

made an extensive list of narc abuse believers to block. trigger warnings for ableism apply.

here's the first account to block.

here's the next account, who used the systempunk tag despite being ableist (not punk values!)

major trigger warning for the next part. this is about a narc abuse believer who posts about self harm a lot, including the encouragement of self harm. please report this account.

their username is mushybrainpaste, please do not interact with them, just block and report.

can't add anymore screenshots to this so I will reblog with the rest of them

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made an extensive list of narc abuse believers to block. trigger warnings for ableism apply.

here's the first account to block.

here's the next account, who used the systempunk tag despite being ableist (not punk values!)

major trigger warning for the next part. this is about a narc abuse believer who posts about self harm a lot, including the encouragement of self harm. please report this account.

their username is mushybrainpaste, please do not interact with them, just block and report.

can't add anymore screenshots to this so I will reblog with the rest of them

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fuck you.

I agree with the post except for the "go KYS" part. it's ok to hope someone toxic and cruel dies but not of fucking suicide. nobody needs to be told that, no matter how low they are. telling people to commit suicide just makes us as a community look bad, it's why nobody's gonna accept us, and those comments are very fucking inflammatory for people especially those who have attempted. I hate narc abuse believers as much as you do but I'm not gonna tell them to commit suicide because that's just fucking gross.

I have disowned you from our community. we don't need toxic people like you.

and fellow narcs, this is not what your community stands for, the rest of you are better than that.

yeah i get it bpd deserved to have a whole awareness month but we deserved to have only the day of despise and hate on our existence❤️ wow thanks i feel so valid and accepted (I FUCKING HATE YALL. KILL YOURSELVES I HOPE YOU DIE ON THIS "UNFORTUNATE" DAY)

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dear people who believe in ‘narcissistic abuse’,

count your days.

this is a threat.

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to the "narc abuse" believers:

yes, narcissists can and do abuse. but so do other people. it's also worth noting narcissistic personality disorder doesn't always make someone abusive. in fact, majority of people with npd stand against abuse. npd is a trauma response.

to the "aspd abuse" believers:

yes, people with aspd can and do abuse. but it's not as common as you think. most people with aspd feel shame in their thoughts and behavior that come from this disorder. and it's also a trauma response.

to the "bpd abuse" believers:

yes, people with BPD can and do abuse but it's also not as common as you think. there's a whole community of people with BPD who stand against abuse, and BPD is also a trauma response.

to the "histrionic abuse" believers:

yes, people with hpd can and do abuse. but there's also many people with hpd who stand against abuse. it's also a trauma response.

if you want to say there's "insert disorder here" abuse, remember there's also neurotypicals who abuse. should we start calling that "neurotypical abuse?"

abuse is abuse. it doesn't matter who does it and even if their disorder caused them to abuse, it's still not an excuse and is not "insert disorder here" abuse. it is emotional abuse, verbal abuse, psychological abuse, physical abuse, whatever method they abused you, that's the type of abuse it was. not "I was manipulated and gaslit by a narcissist! I'm a victim of narc abuse!" no you're a survivor of emotional abuse.

stop being ableist and realize abuse is abuse, even if another abuse survivor does it or a person with a mental disorder does it.

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we're all aware of hypermobility right?

well let's raise awareness for hypomobility.

as a person born with cerebral palsy that left me hypomobile in different areas of my body, it can be debilitating. I can't do certain things without feeling my muscles stretch and being in severe pain. sometimes, different joints lock up in place and won't move. it's scary, there's been times where I thought it would stay stuck forever. I have less range of motion than an average person.

but nobody ever talks about hypomobility. all the attention goes to hypermobility. which has made me feel left out and less valid in the disability community.

lets raise awareness for hypomobility. we need all the same support and recognition hypermobility has

feel free to reblog <3