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[anonymousswriter]

Its almost 5am, and I haven't had a glimpse of sleep tonight... I dont know how I am feeling, It's a really numb feeling, really weird. But at the same time, I feel like I have a big burden on my back. A burden that is way out of my reach... a burden that that I can't get off because some other dumbass decided to fuck up and put the blame on someone else. Some dumbass decided it was fair to terrorize people in the name of God... and guess what? He succeeded, because now due to some organisation that simply doesnt follow the rules themselves claim to fight for the religion. Isn't it funny? The Almighty - who created everything and controls everything needs people to defend and save his religion. I am gettin too religious

Goodnight

[anonymousswriter]

Hello there reader. Yes, you. Sitting miles away, staring into the screen and wondering who the fuck is writing this. Oops. I hope I can swear in here. Don't know how the algorithm works. So today I will try to talk about something instead of just venting and ranting.

So Idk if I ever mentioned, I have a girl in my life whom I love the most. My love towards her is really unexpected and really wonderful. I wish I could fulfill all the promises and give her all the love she wants. Reason? Not just because of my love towards her but moreover the way she treats me, despite having a bad past with trusting and puttin her love into men. She trusted me, she showered me with love, she cared as if we knew each other for centuries and were always meant to be. I love her and everything about her. Ahhh... i dont know if this is an universal thing. Girls really don't like admitting they are beautiful. I could literally stare at this girl for hours and every second wish to cup her face and kiss her tight. Hold her by the waist and pull her close and cuddle till we fall asleep in each other's arms. But... I am almost 7500 miles away. Yet, always in her heart.

If one day, I am not here anymore and you are reading this. I love you, I always did. And if we broke up for some reason. I want you to know, you were and always will be a queen. I love you

[anonymousswriter]

Hi there reader

Its me, again. Isn't it really weird how short our life is but the amount of things we experience and feel is too much compared to it. We fall in love, make friends, make rivals, build our careers, study, play, pray and what not. And not just the experiences are huge, so are our dreams. We dream of things that are out of our grasp, but Isn't that the human's special thing. We dream of success and work towards it. Who would have believed you if you said 40-50 years back that one day we all might be able to travel to another planet. Or you tell someone from almost 100 years back that one day we all will be connected with a device in our palms and nothing else.

But the worst and most hurtful part. Life gives you chances and opportunities, but takes sacrifices. Well, nothin comes for free

Just 9 more days and then I am off to another country, another city, another continent. New people, new college and new places. Leavin behind people. Behind is not the right word, they won't be behind. They will travel with me (in my heart). I really hope things go as I planned. I need to come back and hug her so tight. I love her.

9 days...

[anonymousswriter]

28th November

I am not as active as I promised I would be. Or maybe I just don't have an interesting life to share.

Share? 😂 Sometimes when I write these things. I ask myself, do I really have an audience in mind? Whom am I talkin to in these texts? Will someone even read these one day? Who knows... for now, I am happy writing this just for myself and being happy.

So today I wanted to share a thing with whoever is gonna read. When you lose a battle in love and are hurt, lost and in pain. And someone walks in, handles you with care, love and affection. DON'T LOSE THAT PERSON.

[anonymousswriter]

22 Nov 2021

Sometimes people are just too ready to end things. They don't really see how it would influence or unfold. I was the same, I left someone who loved me so much for my overthinking.

It also made me realise, no matter how long you are with or how precious you are for someone. They will leave you.

[anonymousswriter]

Is it necessary that good things ending should hurt. Why is it "sad cause it ended" and why not "happy cause it happened" ?

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3 more days...

[anonymousswriter]

OMGGG... i just got selected for Chicago State University. I am sooo happy. But... on the other side, I want to be enrolled into UIC which is a better college and a better campus. Being a kid that took correspondence, I have 0 campus life. The only campus I roamed was NIMS.

Apart from this, I went on a date with my colleague. Well, not technically a date but... yes we went out to eat food and have some talks. We chose an Italian restaurant and obviously had pasta which cost us nearly 15 dollars per plate. Going on random dates with friends isn't bad at all. People think it's cheating or dating, NO. You're just good friends and love being together and spend time gossiping.

Now the next target would be to enjoy this 9-10 days properly before I leave the job and get detached.

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Being busy has it's own advantages and disadvantages. As much as I love being busy and not idle. I have had no time these couple days to actually sit and pen my feelings down.

A lot has happened in these days. I have lost a colleague... well, he is not dead but he left the job. I've switched my transportation. Handle my girl's tantrums 😅 and adjust myself in all this.

[anonymousswriter]

Hello Tumblr,

It's me again. Day 2 for my personal diary? I loved today. Who knew roaming with your girl could be so fun but at the same time, so tiring. I just love her so much. You should see when she flips her hair back from her face or when she gives me a stare 😄 I love her and I am lucky to have her... If I ever breakup with her one day, she'll be a really interesting chapter to my story

[anonymousswriter]

I have no idea how this thing works. Do we just write and post? Or there is more to this. I hope that one day people actually read this and laugh... or atleast I do thinking how desperate I was. Okay. I am not desperate, I just need a place to dump my feelings. I am not depressed, just in need of a personal diary and here I am.

- 5th Nov. Pretty normal day. I miss cuddles right now, but I also miss gossiping with this new office girl. Such a drama 😄🤣

[anonymousswriter]

Good Afternoon Tumblr. My first post expressing myself... feels good to have a platform where I can be myself without anyone judging me 😊