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when i close my mind i don't know which face i'm looking for

new faces, it happens

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see , you never know. open mind open heart. as the wind lifts you away you adjust with passion. forced but worthy either way. your still there, at least you seem to be. you haven't moved very much from the last time i've seen you. dream to reality. commotion to whirlwind, i spin either way. head, mindfulness, focused. i survived.

starting to get it

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i survived my rock bottom, and so will you

here i am

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you call that, love ?

white lie

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how it really feels

you ache from hot flashes to panic attacks you shiver you have to promise to let me let you go sometimes , well , most of the time , i didn't even want to let you go you're almost like a drug , you know that? you're not good for me you made me sick you made me sane you made me go fucking insane you do breathe though, when it's over that awful aching in your chest comes to an end hot flashes and panic attacks turn into complete trash forgetting the throwbacks that even brought you back you stop shivering, you smile this is the point i was told you're suppose to hope for the best , i think at least you hope that person , the very best -don't forget to thank yourself

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selfish and selfless

understand

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oh darling, save yourself for someone else

protect your precious love

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The brighten of my smile, the power in my laugh. Without you? That’s the way it is. I love your soul I should say. Not you. Your soul is what I see, you are what broke me. I’ve accepted you. I will never forget you. My soulmate from a distance. The most wonderful stranger you became. So long, my love.

bravely healed

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where are you now are you with her i know i left but it still hurts when will this stop there has to be some sort of end december nights crying november mornings it's just i know we're not together i guess we just couldn't make it through this stormy weather

free verse

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don't ever imagine you weren't important to me

i still love you

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That will be the very last time I let your gentle words fool me. You did not plant gardens of poetry inside of me, you took my beautiful words and turned them into this horrific nightmare I called love. There’s nothing beautiful about a shattered heart. I’ve been searching for an exit for awhile now but when you try and love someone into loving you , you finally believe they do. You are every tear, every torn up page of my notebook , every finger print on my heart and every defeated bone in my body. My sadness tastes a lot like your name tonight and for fuck sakes if you were to call me at 4 a.m to sad to say hello I would still rush to the other side of town in a heart beat just to feel yours. I feel incomplete with you and incomplete without you and im not sure which one is worse. But your time ran out. I really think you blew it. Just don’t bother.

im in shock

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until next time

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Well i had a dream the other night. A scary one too. I woke up , I didn't have you anymore. I felt my heart slowly sinking. I remember the tears vividly pouring out of my soul. I remember your dark eyes reading me inside out. I remember you. Your feeling, your touch, your existence. Thinking about what had happen made my stomach ache. I promised myself after that I would never make a home out of a person again. I couldn't believe that this really wasn't what you wanted. I woke up in the morning to realize this dream was the reality of yesterday. You really are gone.

don't leave like this

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She was damaged Hidden under cold sheets She was mentally bruised She didn't have a love for much But holy fuck Did she ever have a love for you

heavy

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struggle

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Id rather make an impact on your heart than your eyes

never ending

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"He taught me what it was like to miss a person who was sitting right next to me"

where are you now