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"I did it for you" has gotta be my favorite form of betrayal. You gave me a gift I never asked for, and now I have to look around at the world you destroyed with the knowledge that it was gift wrapped and addressed to me.

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Another snippet from the fic I'm working on because I'm really vibing with it. Once again this is a first draft so the writing may be rough.

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It’s hard to be mad when he sees that look on Izuku’s face, the one he gets whenever he talks about something he’s interested in. He gets this sparkle in his eyes, this childlike wonder. Katsuki hates how much he loves that look.

He hates even more how soft he feels when he sees Kazu has that same look. That same sparkle. It pierces his heart with emotion he can’t quite parse. Katsuki has never had an easy time understanding his own heart, feelings don’t come easy to him; despite all the work he’s done in the past couple of years to remedy that, he still has a hard time putting words to most of them. Anger was simple, familiar. Anger and pride came as naturally as breathing, hell even the ache of sadness made sense to him. But these softer emotions… the things Izuku makes him feel, they’re fuzzy around the edges, muddied by years of explosive fights and bitterness.

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NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.

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it is honestly amazing how much of writing and editing is just. logistics. like... do i use a name here or a pronoun? if i move this dialogue tag to the middle of this line and break it in half, does the end of the line hit harder that way? what if i move the tag to the front? what if i remove it entirely? ...wait, whose point of view am i in; can i reasonably say this character is appalled, or must i say they look or seem or sound appalled? is this a deliberate action or a step-removed one; is her hand closing on his shoulder, or is she closing her hand on his shoulder? environment environment environment, we need to break all this dialogue up with some narration, the scene is coming untethered. what! are! they doing! with! the rest of their bodies that are not hands! fuck fuck fuck FUCK i forgot we covered this two chapters ago and now i either need to cut this whole chunk or find a reason to reprise the conversation from earlier. name or pronoun? name or pronoun? name or pronoun? move this clause around in this sentence? oh i'll add this phrase-- nope, never mind, past!me added the same phrase two lines down. okay, if i add too much environmental narration it's going to take away from this bit, but not enough and it won't feel grounded. what if i move this to its own line? where the FUCK are their hands?

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Happy Birthday Izuku Midoriya Sensei 🎂🎁🎊💚🧡

Someone came to pay a little surprise visit ✨

After pining for like 8 years, Kacchan is finally happy to celebrate alongside his longtime partner 🥹🥹

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BKDK RP request!

(more or less reposting from my main)

So I’ve been wanting to get back into roleplaying for a while, but I’ve never actually gone out and looked for an rp partner in the wild. So… I’m just gonna make a post here and hope for the best.

My current hyperfixation has been mha, more specifically bakudeku so that’s what I’m looking for (I’m open to other ships but this is specifically for bkdk). I like doing AUs mostly but I’m also down for canon compliant/slightly canon divergent plots. I have a lot of different plots in my head but I’m open to plotting and discussing, one of my favorite things is worldbuilding and plotting for rps, I also like just talking about headcanons and such, I've been known to make moodboards and playlists for just about anything because I'm insane and when I get into something, I get obsessed. I would really love to find someone who can match that energy, join me, be insane with me.

But, I do have AUs that I usually go for, that I have a lot of ideas for, or I'm just really interested in:

Any fantasy au, I eat that shit UP

Hybrid au, especially with a lot of worldbuilding to how a hybrid society would function have I mentioned before that I love worldbuilding?

Spiderman au

Quirkless hero support Izuku au, a classic and one I have so many thoughts for.

Omegaverse, this... but less focused on the rut/heat thing and more the weird intricacies and the implications of the au.

Prototype bkdk

These are just some of the AUs, but like I said I also like canon compliant plots and have ideas for those as well.

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Other than that here are some additional rules and requirements:

NO MINORS! I'm 20 and don't feel comfortable roleplaying with minors, even if there's nothing nsfw I'd just overall prefer it if you're 18+. That being said I am open to nsfw, as long as it's not like... the whole rp. I'm not too confident in my nsfw writing but I'm open to it as long as they're ages up. I exclusively write Deku to be a bottom, I'm not a huge fan of top Deku.

I write Deku mainly, I can write other characters for flavor, just so thing's don't feel too empty, but I'm looking for someone to who writes Bakugou specifically.

In the spirit of not making this post too long, I'll leave a link to my pinned post where I list my general rp rules, make sure you read through that before messaging me!

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If anyone is interested in roleplaying just hmu in dms, be aware however I rp on discord only. If we vibe then I'll give my discord handle and we can continue on there! I may be a little awkward at first when it comes to new people. But once things get going I'll warm up more, I'm always down to chat and share thoughts/hcs/art/anything ooc as well so don't be shy!

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Class 1-A, chattering among themselves:

Aizawa, walks in: Quiet, why are you all so loud today?

Izuku: Iida-kun is two minutes late today, none of us have seen him.

Bakugo: I bet he tucked himself into bed too tight.

Sero: Aim harder bro, I think he went to the school library and got avalanched by books.

Aizawa:…I’ll guess, he got side-tracked in cleaning the dorms.

Class 1-A:

Aizawa: This is fun.

Iida, rushes in: S-Sorry, I’m late sir! I got sidetracked in cleaning the kitchen-

Aizawa, claps his hands: HOT DAMN!

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What's that ship that's been with you for ages? That you come back to every once in a while because you miss the vibe. The ship that you've read every piece of fanfiction about. That lives far removed from the source material in your head and heart.

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NON-freaks dni. This is a freaks only zone

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Happy Halloween 👻🎃

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hmpf

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I’ve been working on a bakudeku fic since April of 2024, its been off and on progress and I’m only just now getting back around to working on it, but since I did some significant work I thought I might as well share a snippet with people. I will not die with my ideas.

Be warned however this is a first, very rough, unedited first draft so it’s not perfect.

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“Yaoyurozu is right, Midoriya, we are all here to help!” Iida says, his hand resting on Izuku’s shoulder. Izuku sighs with a smile. He knew he wouldn’t be able to get away with doing this all on his own, Aizawa had already warned him about that, and he was grateful that everyone was so willing to pitch in.

“Thanks guys, I actually really appreciate it,” Izuku admits, scratching the back of his neck.”

“Of course, Izu! We’ve all got you!” Mina springs up from her seat, wrapping her arm around his shoulder in a side hug. Izuku smiles at her until he sees the glint in her eye. “Especially your husband~”

“What–” Izuku blanches, eyes wide as he looks at an equally embarrassed Katsuki.

“Haah?”

“Aren’t you gonna help your wifey out?” Mina asks with a shit eating grin. She glances back at Izuku before adding, “wifey in a gender neutral way of course,” with a wink.

“He’s not my– my anything!” Katsuki says, face beet red and very pointedly avoiding eye contact with Izuku.

“It would be the manly thing to do!” Kirishima says, with a grin that is far too innocent than it has any right to be, Katsuki should think. He knows the bastard is up to no good.

“I don’t even–” Katsuki starts, but the sound of Izuku mumbling makes him pause.

“I-it’s alright Kacchan, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. Although I would ah… I would appreciate the help,” He stammers awkwardly, fidgeting with his fingers. The tips of his ears are an adorable shade of red, and that puppy dog look in his eyes as his gaze slowly drifts up to look at Katsuki feels like a shot through the heart, hitting harder than any blow Shigaraki ever dealt him and god damn it, Katsuki can never say no to him. He has to know that by now, with the way he always looks at Katsuki when he wants something, he has to.

Katsuki groans, head thrown back onto the cushions in exasperation. A hand comes up to rub at his temples. “Fine, fine whatever. I’ll help— but only because I know that you’re going to screw it up and probably lose the damn kid.”

Izuku smiles so sweetly that Katsuki nearly blows up the damn couch. “Thank you, Kacchan, it means a lot to me”

Fuuuuuck!

“Whatever.”

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Angry Dialogues - Vol. 2

✧ “You don’t get to hurt me and then act confused when I don’t trust you anymore.”

✧ “Say it. Say it out loud. Say exactly what you did so you can hear how f*cked up it sounds.”

✧ “Stop acting like I’m the villain for reacting to the sh*t you did.”

✧ “You lied to my face, and you’re still looking at me like I’m the one who owes you something.”

✧ “I begged you not to break me. And you did it anyway.”

✧ “You keep saying you ‘did your best.’ Your best nearly destroyed me.”

✧ “I would’ve forgiven you. You didn’t even ask.”

✧ “Every time I think of you, it feels like rot in my throat.”

✧ “You want to talk? Fine. Let’s talk about how you abandoned me the second it got inconvenient.”

✧ “I’m not angry anymore. That would mean I still cared enough to be hurt. Now? I’m just done.”

✧ “You always show up when it’s too late and expect me to be the same person who waited."

✧ “You don’t get to miss me. You threw me away. You don’t miss trash.”

✧ “I kept waiting for the version of you who said you loved me to show back up. He never did.”

✧ “You broke my heart and then asked me to help you clean up the mess. That’s not love. That’s manipulation.”

✧ “I hope one day you feel exactly what I felt. And I hope no one comes to save you.”

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Soft prompts to make you YEARN

✭ brushing your thumb over their knuckles while you're both not saying a word, just existing quietly in the same space like it's the most sacred thing.

✭ them absentmindedly playing with the hem of your sleeve because they want to touch you but aren’t ready to say it yet.

✭ “can i kiss you?” whispered like they’re afraid the moment might shatter if they speak too loud.

✭ their voice cracking just a little when they say your name for the first time in a long time.

✭ them resting their forehead against yours and just… staying there. No words. No movement. Just breath. Just nearness.

✭ sharing headphones and they keep looking at you during the best part of the song. you don’t even know what the song means to them but suddenly it means everything to you.

✭ "stay the night?" said so soft it might’ve been a wish.

✭ dragging their fingers gently down your back like they’re trying to memorize the map of your spine.

✭ tracing your features with their fingertip like you're a sculpture in a museum and they were not supposed to touch you, but god, they can’t help it.

✭ “don’t leave yet.” not because you’re going somewhere. but because being with you is the safest they’ve felt all day.

✭ their voice in the dark. low. quiet. like the night is just for you two.

✭ "this reminded me of you" and it’s just a stupid rock or a weird leaf but you hold onto it like it's a diamond because it's you to them.

✭ laying in bed, face smushed into the pillow, sleep-drunk and murmuring, “you make me feel like i’m home.”

✭ them looking at you like you're not just a person, but their favorite story. one they’ve been rereading since forever and still keep finding new parts to fall in love with.

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editing your own work is like trying to give your weird little son a haircut while he bites you

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big fan of a character seeking comfort in the arms of the thing that’s going to kill them. and i am psycologicalily normal too.