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anyone else really confident but then as soon as someone likes you, you feel like you’re not good enough for them?

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could anyone give me some advice?

tw: panic attacks

so just over a month ago i think i’ve started having panic attacks. for no reason and seemingly out of nowhere i start getting really nervous, my heart starts racing, i feel dizzy and sort of nauseous, i feel really disconnected from reality, and i can barely speak a full sentence to the people i’m with. it always happens when i’m around other people, and it lasts about 10 minutes or more. i’ve had five since it started. the problem is that two of them happened when i was eating with others and now eating with other people who aren’t my family makes me nervous. i just don’t really know what to do about this whole situation?

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you guys… i have this little thing going with this guy i met a couple days ago, and he’s so sweet? like he’s so nice oml. we went to a party and he spent most of the time at the grill just cooking and taking people’s orders and it was so cute. and he kept on checking in on me and making sure i was okay🥰 idk he’s just really sweet and i have no idea why he’s being so nice to me lmao. i feel like i’m maybe not his type like he deserves someone better and idk if i should continue this thing with him… i guess i’ll see where it goes it might just be a hookup situation

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i went through the same things when i first started uni, i think it took me a couple of weeks and a lot of crying to settle in (i had a breakdown over failing to assemble a cupboard. i was very overwhelmed. with everything.) But now it's my home and I love it here! I think it's very common to be scared in the beginning. I can recommend the freshers week activities to get to know people (to fight the loneliness), but don't stress if you don't immediately become close friends with anyone :) (i remember feeling really sad and lonely because everyone i met seemed kinda nice but it was all very superficial and exhausting. Friendships take time to form so it's normal to not feel super close to people from the get-go!) Honestly, most people around you will feel the same way as you right now, so don't be too shy to make the first move and say hi! I absolutely feel you for being overwhelmed but I am 100% sure it's gonna be ok :) (oh and should you feel like it might help, uni counselling can be a great thing) Much love!! My hugs go out to you <3

honestly i cried a bit reading this. thank you for such a kind message❤️ logistically in my head i know i’ve been through a move before and that i got used to it and that i can make friends and maybe be happy here. but right now it still feels really scary and makes me really anxious. and i don’t really know how to get over that other than just sticking it out. it’s really nice to get messages like this though so i know i’m not alone and it makes me feel like maybe i can do this. so thank you again you are lovely and i hope you have a wonderful day

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hey are there any freshman following me right now? would you be interested in making a group chat? it’d be nice to hear about other people’s experiences

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For at least the first week I was at college I cried like every day because I was scared and worried about being by myself. I chose to go to school pretty far away from my family, so I wouldn’t get to see them except on longer holidays. I know it feels overwhelming now but it does get better and easier.

thank you so much for this❤️ it does mean a lot to me to hear from people that have gone through it that it gets better. i was the same when i moved countries in highschool, i cried every night and i had to nap everyday because i was so tired from the new schedule. i’m hoping for the best for myself, it’ll just be really hard in the meantime but i know i can do it. thank you again though for this kind message <3

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freshman year is always tough. it’s a really big change, but think of it as growing pains. if you’re truly miserable, I’m sure there’s some transfer/virtual option or smth. It’s inconvenient and difficult to arrange, yes, but you’re not hopelessly stuck. Idk I struggled my freshman year, but thats what I’d tell myself. You gotta give it time for a new routine to be established & to let the homesickness fade. For now it’ll suck, but it’s only for now. All big changes are scary, it’s natural.

thank you for this💛💛💛 i am really hoping that eventually i’ll adjust to my new life here and make good friends, but it’s definitely really hard right now. especially because where i am is so different from where i lived before, and i had to deal with a big move right before i myself moved to university. it’s just hard because i’m really bad at letting people get close to me, of course i had friends but i really only had my family, so it’s just hard to be this lonely. again, hopefully it gets better with time, i guess i’ll just have to wait and see

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i’ve moved into my dorm and i know it’s normal to feel alone like this but i just feel so alone. i can’t imagine that this is going to be my life from here on out. this will be my room, there’ll be no going back to my family. i’ve chosen to live downtown and i realize that it’ll be so overwhelming and not peaceful and it feels like i can’t do it, i don’t want to do it. i just want to go back to summer with my family and none of this scariness. i don’t know. i suppose i’ll just tough it out

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my mom keeps asking me if i want to go various places, keeps asking me what i want to eat, keeps trying to talk to me. i told her i’m depressed right now and that i just don’t want to do anything but clearly she doesn’t understand what that means

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just saying bi men are actually so wonderful and should be cherished and i don’t think people appreciate them enough. so yes this is a bi men appreciation post

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i’m super curious! reblog this with your sexuality and/or gender identity and what your type is

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i’m so sad. i’m so depressed. i can’t remember ever being just sad, so sad like this before. i don’t know why i ever was nice to anyone. i feel like i’ve given myself all away and tried to be so nice and so kind and helpful and considerate and it’s like it’s not enough for anyone. they don’t care. it’s not enough for them to care about me. they don’t even notice. all i wanted was for them to care about me. i’ve just decided that i don’t need anyone. i don’t need to miss them if i don’t need them. i can be alone. i can do it on my own. it was delusional for me to ever think someone would see that i’m hurting and help. it’s never happened for me before, i don’t know why i thought it would happen to me now. i’ll care for myself. i won’t be so upset that other people will never. it’ll be okay, i am strong and i can do it.

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You can maybe give her an idea that you want to have a talk about something important and when she responds that ok let's talk or let's wait, you will find out when to talk

hello! this is what i actually ended up doing, thank you so so much for your help you are an absolute angel😇

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thank you so much to everyone who sent in an ask or messaged me. if you messaged me/gave me advice, you are such a kind soul and you are an absolute angel. i don’t have the words to express how much it means to me that there are people there for me when i am at my lowest. i will never be able to repay the kindness that this blog has given me and the wonderful people who reach out to me. i ended up talking to my sister and it was the right choice. i was at one of the lowest points that i’ve ever been, and i was completely falling apart. i don’t know how i would’ve been able to just cry for the rest of the night and then be almost crying and not able to talk while we ran all our errands. she said she was glad i talked to her, and i’m feeling miles better now. again, thank you everyone, i hope you have an excellent day, i am sending my love❤️

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it’s nearing 2. i wanted to ask her if she had time to talk but now it’s definitely too late. i guess i’ll just cry myself to sleep.

can someone please give me advice i don’t know if i’ve ever needed advice more and i feel so alone please please

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I think you should wait to talk to her

but when do i do it? i don’t know if we’ll have time tomorrow and i’ve had to go to the bathroom like five times just to cry so i wouldn’t cry in front of them

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can someone please give me advice i don’t know if i’ve ever needed advice more and i feel so alone please please