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Gay Doom.

I've decided to call this situation Gay Doom. Because a person involved is gay, and he is also doomed. Due to the gay.

Okay so my ex is bi, right? ( he's the one I referred to as gay ). And he's got this look, I call it Soft Eyes, that he gives to people he loves. As his ex I can pretty much immediately recognise those eyes.

And I got this crush, right? I live in a not-so-large town, and also am super involved in the local punk scene, so everyone knows everyone.

Now, my ex knows this crush. They're friends, been friends for a while, I'd say they're pretty damn close.

My ex has a crush on my crush. Fun situation, I know. But my crush recently posted a photo of my ex, in which you ( me mostly ) can very clearly see my ex giving our crush the Soft Eyes.

Here's where the Doom comes in, our crush isn't gay. He is a straight man, CisHet+ in fact, because he has tested to see if he's gay. He is definitely not.

And my ex is now in Gay Doom state.

There is no timeline where this turns out any sort of positive, and I am so far removed from the situation that I can't help. I mean, I can't just go up to my ex and be like "Hey I know you haven't told anyone about this but I know you have a crush on our mutual friend who is very much not into men". I haven't spoken to this guy outside of shows since New Years.

There's no resolution to this, I just have nobody to talk to about this because everyone knows everyone and the second I mention an ex being bi all my friends are going to know who it is, and it'd be wrong of me to expose a secret I reasonably should not know.

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Sometimes I think about how back in highschool there was a late rule.

Simply put, every time you're late you get a strike, and three strikes means detention. Small problem, that didn't apply to being absent.

So, while they succeeded in their goal to discourage being tardy to the party, they replaced it with just not fucking going to class, lol.

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Recently had the realisation that the characters based on me in a book about a childhood game was given a fate I fear more then anything and it's definitely a reflection on how I feel a strong lack of control and sense of worth in my own real life.

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You ever wanna attack people?

But not in a fisticuffs violence way.

Like. . Grabbing them by their shoulders and shaking them while yelling and making guttural noises of pain and frustration.

Ranting and cursing until your words spiral into incoherent sobbing as you've melted as a defeated puddle at their feet?

Yeah that kinda way.

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Let's get cozy, friend.

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Thinking about the fact that when I was 11, I posted a thing on my old deviant art account stating that I was no longer going to be using it, and a 28 year old man somehow found that post and sent his followers to say that;

It's good that I'm stopping because my art was terrible.

I'm poor, and I get my jeans at a hardware store ( this one has no explanation, I don't know where he got this from. )

I should kill myself my art is so bad.

Thankfully, my 11 year old self really meant it when I said I wasn't going to be using the account, because I didn't log back in until I was 16, so I never saw any of those messages until years later.

But just the thought that a then 28 year old man saw an 11 year old's art, and decided to send his followers to bully me, is the strangest thing.

Like yeah, my art was terrible, I was 11, of course it was. But you are a grown ass man. You are a grown ass man that sent over two thousand followers to a child's art account to bully them. I don't even know how he found the post, or my account at all, I had no understanding of self promotion or the use of hashtags ( still don't ), so he must have been scrolling for hours to find this post.

Just thinking about that is still mind blowing, and it's been years. I am now a grown ass adult myself, and I can't imagine going through all this to bully some random kid. I know it's super easy to tell people to kill themselves online, as abhorrent as it is, because there's a disconnect between you and the fact that it's an actual person through the screen. But where the fuck did you get the idea that I got my jeans at a hardware store?

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You know, it sure is pretty god damn insane that even though I've never posted a photo of my face on Instagram, and nobody else has ever posted a photo of me on Instagram, there's still a pretty big change that they have photos of me saved in their database.

There's very much a chance that they automatically save every photo in your camera roll once you give them access to it. My friends takes photos of each other all the time, so they have plenty of me.

Maybe I'm some sort of anti-internet nutcase, but I feel like maybe there might be something wrong with this.

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It’s kind of heartbreaking to delete the old pinterest board of our future wedding. I hate you now, and I didn’t love you then, so I don’t know why it hurts.

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WHAT THE FUCK?!

I was taking night classes but in high school and ditched them to see what would happen. The school’s police officer caught up to me and cuffed me. Ya’know, me on my stomach, hands behind my back while he sat on my ass. I turned around and asked, “What if this is my kink?”

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I like how you just say “the school’s police officer” like that’s just a casual thing. Running in the halls and you get a damn speeding ticket.

I was taking night classes but in high school and ditched them to see what would happen. The school’s police officer caught up to me and cuffed me. Ya’know, me on my stomach, hands behind my back while he sat on my ass. I turned around and asked, “What if this is my kink?”

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The only consistent part is that it’s all Legend of Zelda fanart, and I really like that. I know a lot of people get super frustrated with not having a consistent art style ( myself included ), and it’s so nice to see that even amazing artists like you have a range of styles and like to play around with it.

Seeing your year roundup was very inspiring and uplifting!

My 2022 art roundup! ✨

I’m so happy I was able to draw something each month of this year and I look forward to creating more pieces in 2023! Happy New Year!

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It’s all about the parallels in Goncharov (1973)

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Did anyone else take a second to realise the catholic was being serious? So used to platinum tier shitposts I scrolled down for a few seconds before realising. 

“BDSM is sex for autistic people” post is funny to me because me and my bf realized that we’re both lapsed Catholics and to us it’s more like “BDSM is catholicism for gay people”

Oh the Catholicism/BDSM overlap might be even stronger than the autism/BDSM overlap

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It’s like he’s watching me. Every twenty seconds I see his eyes in a new spot.

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