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I’m eepy as helllll I don’t know what I’m doing

I love my gf

She deals with me when I’m like this

How can she not get annoyed by me?

Idk

I love her tho

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Broooo how the FUCK do I explain my coping mechanisms

Like

Age regression??? People don’t know what that means

People think that’s weird and gross

Sitting on the floor sorting beads or doing something repetitive??

Yeah that’s alright

But then I tell them I do it for hours and forget to eat or drink and shit and SUDDENLY it’s wrong

Even just PRETENDING to harm myself is wrong even though I’m not even causing pain I’m just doing the motion to calm down

Ughhhhh

Bro I want I caregiver ngl

WHO AM I EVEN TALKING TO NO ONE SEES THIS BLOGGGGG

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FUCKKKK MY GIRLFRIEND IS SO CUTE HOW DO I COPE WITH THIS

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What if I’m actually not a system and I gaslit myself into thinking I’m one because I just wanted a diagnosis for whatever the fuck is wrong with me

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Literally just getting on call and watching TikTok with my girlfriend is literally the light of my day

Just hearing her voice makes me so happy and then hearing her laugh is just AUGHHH

She’s literally so pretty what am I doing

How do I even compare bro </3

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When a Scout alter comes out of fucking nowhere and I don’t know if he just hasn’t spoken up or if he’s newly formed

JEREMY WHERE DID YOU COME FROM

He hates the body’s voice but for some reason whenever we do a Boston accent it sounds wrong so he’s kinda sulking about it

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Ughhhh I don’t feel goood

I’m gonna throw up

I gotta stop complaining about shit

Anyway I’m [Atlas] back in front and going to bed because I don’t want anyone else posting something stupid

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The host, Atlas, wants to sleep

I don’t want to sleep

We’re like rapidly switching in and out of front but also sometimes co-fronting and it’s lowkey disorienting

Anyway I have no clue if the host’s gf is dating our whole system or just the host like how does that work

I mean Atlas is basically always in front so it doesn’t really matter but still

Wait does she even know we’re a system?

What if she wants to break up if she finds out we’re a system

We’re not diagnosed or evens actually sure we’re a system

This is supposed to be Atlas’ vent blog but idk I’m here now

Also Atlas remembered that Cloudy can see this blog so hiiii

I gotta figure out who the hell i am though

I know I’m a guy

I think I’m blonde

Dunno why I’m here

Aughhh

Wait maybe I’m demi boy

Who the hell cares

Uhhhh

That’s it

If Cloudy’s still awake then Atlas says to go to bed

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I FUCKING HATE HER

Not my gf since I know she at least checks this blog sometimes. This isn’t about you I love you



Anyway

This fucking BITCH acts like she’s so fucking entitled because she’s a mom it makes me so mad

I should not be hearing you kid cry after getting off call with you because of something you said

You have the fucking audacity to hurt her then still pull the “mom” title GOD

I haven’t even met you and I have lost all respect that I could’ve had

You don’t hurt the person I love, physically or emotionally

I hope you get what you deserve

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My head hurts so bad and I’m lowkey struggling to breathe and I feel shaky but it also might all be from lack of sleep

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I get stressed tf out whenever I see mentions of a mental hospital

Fuckkk I wanna go home but I know no one could pick me up

I’m shaking I don’t wanna be here I know it was literally just someone saying they got back but aaaa

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Oh my godddd I’m clingy as helllll

I miss my girlfriend

She’s literally just asleep

We talked last night

I’m tweaking

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What am I even doing at this point? I cant run a server. Im 15 with a fear of confrontation, how am I supposed to be a “leader” in any context?

I knew it was getting bad, I knew I should speak up about the jokes and leaving people out. But I didn’t.

I’ve wanted to just delete the server for so long but people keep saying that they love it and I don’t know what to do

I hate myself

I can’t stop ruining everything

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Bro I hate my acne so much I gotta throw hands with god

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Little does she know

I am a jealous bastard

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I’m scared what if I just fucked everything up

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Ughh everything sucks

I feel terrible

Why am I still here