celestialbones23

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id be more neutral on tadc ships if people werent so obsessed with them but now they genuinely bore me . i do not want any of these characters to kiss. what is so appealing about both the group and one on one dynamics is that basically no one is even friends. largely untapped dynamic of 'we're stuck together, but we cant die, leave, or even get hurt, so i dont even have to care about you.' followed up often by an 'i do, though.'

"do you have any actual friends" is gonna kill me. zooble and gangle are friends. jax and ribbit were friends. what is everyone else? its not quite friendship. its a constant mutual understanding. its leaving a stranger to die so you can escape before realizing you cant and now you have to face her everyday of your life. its, youre being mean, but youre upset and im here, so lets sit in this back alley and talk about it. its, we're gonna go back to the group and youre gonna forget this ever happened, arent you. its fake positivity and sarcastic optimism. its hating yourself so much you cant stand to be around other people. its saying things just because you can say them. and it is unbelievably lonely, but the fact that it is lonely is always entirely your fault.

the fact is that everyone is always about 2 degrees away from tearing eachother apart with their teeth if it'd actually make a fucking difference is what makes all the moments of kindness range so easily from extremely strained to extremely genuine. and im obsessed with it. i would watch 6 hours straight of them all attempting to have something resembling a normal conversation with each other. but my ultimate point is i fucking hate love and im gonna drown jax and pomni in an aromantic lake

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Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

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Northanger abbey by Jane Austen is what I’m currently reading

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i think half of being a decent human is just going 'that's not my business'.

someone in a wheelchair stood up? not my business.

someone has a service dog but doesn't visibly need it? not my business.

someone is acting weird? not my business.

someone is participating in a culture i don't understand? not my business.

someone got an abortion? not my business.

someone identifies in a way that doesn't make sense to me? not my business.

someone has a medical issue i don't understand? not my business.

if it doesn't negatively impact me or others, it's not my business. and i will continue to push for legislation that allows people to just live their lives, because why should i or the government have a say in shit that doesn't affect us? it's not our business.

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my solution to conflicting ships is big polycule. Big ol’ polycule where some people are fucking, some just romantical, and some just qpr/friends. No rules, only various types of love (this is specifically about tadc lol)

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i need something beautiful and romantic to happen to me NOW

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love when I see a pic of a loser like trump and I’m like “nice editing bro” then it’s turns out the image isn’t edited lmao

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the tf2 “free crack woo hoo hoo” is now one of my vocal stims and has become the most common one so thats great i guess

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Pretend to be a villain but my guilty pleasure is help people and making them feel good :(

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Me watching Pomni brutally kick Jax’s ass:

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the summer I stopped looking for people’s validation

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yeah you’re right i should just *remembers that suicide jokes worsen the suicidal ideation* go to the meeting room. perhaps i had simply missed a memo.

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when you accept that you will never be normal about anything you like you'll be free

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CLIPPY HATES CAPITALISM >:(

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Clippy eats the rich for dinner >:)

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going to the doctor for adhd meds tomorrow! :)))

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wait… if I’m matching your freak, and you’re matching my freak… who’s driving the bus?