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[cextile]

what does your mirror see beyond your face?

one → two → three four → five → six

how to read this pick a pile tarot reading ♡ the images above are your pick-a-pile options — see which image immediately pulls you in. if nothing stands out right away, take a moment to look at each pile/image. the one your attentions keeps coming back to is likely your pick. if more than one pile calls to you, trust that too. you can read both and take what resonates. and hey, if none of them feel like a match, no big deal. not every reading is meant for right now. come back another time — this reading isn’t going anywhere. 

pile one

your mirror sees more than the shape of your features or the flicker of a passing emotion. it saw you when your thoughts began tying themselves in knots. and it saw when, slowly, you started loosening them - one by one.

though, right now? it sees movement. it sees you stepping forward - not just dreaming of change, but choosing it. it’s like watching someone walk across a quiet field just as the sun breaks over the horizon: soft, golden, full of promise.

there was a time when everything was confusion - like being thrown into a thick, unpredictable fog with a blindfold on. you cried often. it felt like a kind of mental hell, a stretch of pure internal chaos. but instead of running away, you stayed. you didn’t try to escape the feelings. you moved through them. you let them happen. and because you stayed, the joy of ‘the sun’ could find you.

still, the mirror wants to pause you, gently, and ask: are these decisions you’re making truly grounded? or are they just the first available door out?

see, once you finally break free from the fog - from the weight of stillness - there’s a rush. a push to act, to move, to do something. and it can feel like anything is better than being stuck. but action for the sake of motion can be just as unsteady as not moving at all.

so ask yourself: are you chasing clarity, or just avoiding confusion?

and with the seven of rods reversed, obviously - like i said - there’s another message here: you need to allow support into your life. this is how closure finds its way in. it’s okay to ask for help once in a while. really. you don’t have to hold it all alone.

i feel like this is the second time this message has come to you. maybe you ignored it the first time, thinking it was a coincidence. but you should take it seriously. it applies to a very specific part of the collective. 

staying connected to your roots is essential, it grounds you emotionally. you can’t abandon them - they’ve been a part of you longer than you can even remember. outside home, not everyone has good intentions. running from your foundation to cling to people who offer you less - that’s not freedom. that’s forgetting yourself. binge my other readings <3

pile two

the mirror sees a face, but it’s like someone has bitten off a piece of your identity. like something vital has gone missing. what’s going on with you? yk those moments when emotions get blurred, or numbed out completely? this time though, it’s not just emotional fog - it’s like something has literally taken a bite out of your mood.

it looks like you’ve experienced some kind of failure, and now you’re left wondering what to do next. like... you used to be this bright flower, full of life, full of color - and now it’s as if that flower has wilted. imagine you had a rose in your hand and a cap with feathers - that was you, in your element, doing what you were meant to do. but after whatever this was, something shifted. now your posture has changed - slouched a little, like you’ve stopped caring. the feather has drooped, cartoon-style, and the rose has lost its life. it’s like  a cartoon character after the punchline - a little deflated. 

and yet - underneath all that? 

you are a literal fucking star. 

all these surface-level things - the setbacks, the doubts, the failures - they’re just that. surface. bubbles rising, popping, fading. they come and go. but the bulk of you? the joy, the passion, the depth you found in what you love - that stays. it always stays.

the happiness you felt in the journey - that doesn’t disappear just because the outcome wasn’t what you imagined. the beauty of it, the meaning of it, still lives in you. the success you think you lost? it hasn’t gone anywhere. it just looks different now.

now, i have to ask - was this outcome influenced by someone else’s advice? like, did someone older/experienced, or someone with that “i know more about the world than you, kid” energy, say something that pushed you off course? like they handed you advice that didn’t fit your situation & now you're sitting with the aftermath of that decision.

again, whatever this thing is - this moment, this so-called failure - it’s just the steam from a boiling pot. loud for a second, then gone. but you? you are the water underneath. steady. powerful. inevitable. and that success you think you missed out on? it’s still yours. the core of it, the truth of it, is untouched.

you don’t even realize how much of a star you are - not yet. but you will. you’re stepping into an era of abundance. it’s not just coming - it’s promised. guaranteed. and all these temporary things? they’ll flicker in and out like background noise. but your path? your light? your purpose? that’s constant.

you were made for abundance. you were made to shine. don’t worry - it’s already yours. binge my other readings <3

pile three

you look in the mirror and see someone shaped by memory, emotion, self-perception, and identity. but how often do you pull yourself down because of what you think you see? you believe you're seeing the truth - but I’m here to tell you what the mirror actually reflects.

i got the knight of swords + the emperor, these cards together suggest a struggle between impulse and discipline. also i’m sensing that this pile holds more masculine energy compared to the others (this does not determine gender).

let's go deeper into what ur mirror actually sees:

there’s a need for balance. indulgence must be managed, or it may lead you back to an older version of yourself - one you’ve outgrown. don't drift back to a version of you that doesn’t fit anymore.

this pile is my favourite. because it gets the question. what does the mirror see beyond you?

here’s why i say that: twice, cards jumped out together. in both moments, one card was sharp, heavy - a reflection of how you think you are. but then, right next to it, came its counterpoint. a quiet contradiction. not a mistake - but a message, a correction.

the devil - but with strength, just behind it. you are not your doubt, but your courage.

the king of rods reversed - but with the sun hiding behind it. you are not your fear, but your fire.

these are the truths the mirror is trying to show you. but you’ve been looking at the wrong things. you see the cracks, but not the light coming through them.

right now, maybe everything feels uncertain. maybe you feel like you’re standing in fog - stuck, spiraling. but this isn’t the beginning of the breakdown. it’s the end of the storm of transformation.

and when the good arrives, it’s not going to trickle in.

it’s going to flood you.

three cards came out in succession - all marked with the number eight. in tarot and numerology, eight is the number of flow. abundance. longevity. movement.

it confirms: joy, stability, and happiness are not just possibilities - they’re destined. it’s like waves of fulfillment are about to roll in that is going to settle in your bones. i really want you to know that a simple, joyful life full of happiness - the kind people spend lifetimes chasing - is coming to you.

(i feel like some of you are being skeptical but this is not a false alarm, please believe me)

for some of you, that happiness might look like marriage or creating a family. there’s a strong theme here of building - not just homes, but legacies. foundations.

you may think you lack something - clarity, direction, self-worth - but that’s not the truth. you think you’re missing something - clarity, worth, direction. but the mirror says otherwise. the mirror sees your depth. your ability to reflect. you’re being called to look inward and recognize the qualities that genuinely bring you joy. not surface-level victories, but the inner traits that foster peace, connection, and lasting happiness.

you don’t need to become someone. you just need to remember who you are underneath the noise.

because what the mirror sees, beyond your face, beyond your own warped perceptions - is someone on the edge of becoming.

and the real truth? what’s meant for you isn’t just coming - it’s already on its way. binge my other readings <3

pile four

the mirror sees you as the constant amidst all the change - like those time-lapse montages where someone stands still while the world shifts around them. seasons pass, buildings rise and fall, people come and go - but you're the still point, the anchor. everything else transforms, but in the mirror’s eyes, you remain the one unchanging presence.

you’re like freshly upturned earth - still warm from the chaos, but already sprouting something new. after the tower falls - fire licking at its walls, waves crashing against its base, everything trembling and breaking - you don’t crumble with it. instead, you just take a breath, say “oh well,” and begin again - gathering your things - your memories, your scars, your quiet strength - sling your metaphorical stick over your shoulder like some wandering scholar-warrior from an old film, and set off on another journey. 

just a quiet resolve to keep walking.

the image reflected in the mirror is steady and traditional - like you've got it all figured out, you sitck by the book, bound to the long haul - but i’m not convinced that being like this gives you authentic joy. 

like the eight of cups upright, there's a quiet departure, a choice to walk away in search of something more, though that something remains unspoken. paired with the eight of rods reversed, movement slows, stalls - there’s isolation here, not imposed but chosen.

you’ve been disoriented - maybe even alienated - from what once felt like home. that sense of grounding, of being held by something familiar, slipped away. so you became your own anchor. your own home. the only one to guide yourself toward the light.

so yeah, you walk alone, not out of exile but purpose, eyes lowered, fixed on the path beneath your feet. around you, beauty and possibility stretch out like a waiting horizon, but you do not look up. the emotional longing remains, suspended in the scenery you don't yet face. 

and maybe, just maybe, your mirror sees what you haven’t dared to believe yet:

that you’re not just surviving - you’re becoming. binge my other readings <3

pile five

your mirror doesn’t just see your face - it sees everything you’re carrying behind your eyes. it sees the weight of a situation you’ve been stuck in for too long. it sees you feeling like you’re trapped, yearning for liberation, but unsure of how - or whether - to move forward.

your mirror reflects not just your features, but the quiet turmoil beneath them. there’s hesitation, indecision. you’re caught between staying and leaving, and it’s tearing you up inside. at the same time, you feel frozen, unable to take that next step.

there are no new perspectives left in this situation. it’s worn out, and it’s been weighing on your conscience like tiny needles pricking at you from the inside.

it almost seems like you’d rather feel aimless or lost than continue in this same cycle. that’s why you're being invited to turn inward. what can you do right now that would truly be best for you?

it’s easy to stay caught in our heads, to focus on surface-level complaints, to accept the familiar. but the mirror invites you to step in and take a moment to look deeper - to ask yourself whether you're actually thinking clearly, or simply reacting to life as it comes. are you making conscious choices? or are you just drifting?

your mirror sees the fog in your gaze - but also, the spark hiding behind it. it sees the capacity for joy, little bubbles of it, floating around you like unclaimed blessings. you’ve just stopped noticing.

the mirror won’t move for you - but it will wait, patiently, until you’re ready to see yourself clearly. binge my other readings <3

pile six

your mirror sees someone who, on the surface, may seem uncertain - pausing at menus, questioning outfits, shifting slightly in place - but beneath that? there’s always clarity. you don’t always feel decisive in the little things, but when it really matters, when the moment comes, you actually have very strong opinions. when there's a real need, you can make decisions with clarity.

i feel that many of you have already made a significant decision about something. this could be in the present, but for most of you, i believe it happened in the past.

and because of that decision, you’ve felt... estranged.

maybe you're looking back now, wondering if the path you chose was truly the right one. it hasn’t led to a bad life - but it has brought some tough consequences. you might feel disconnected, like you've grown into someone more independent, but also more alone. maybe your decision put distance between you and something - or someone - important, like your family. and now, you're left with a question that keeps coming back: was that really the best choice i could have made? and your mirror doesn’t judge you for asking that.

what the mirror finds interesting is that the disappointment doesn’t hit you like it used to. it lands, then dissolves. you don’t resist it, but you don’t really feel it either. your emotions seem to flicker in and out - brief and transient.

you used to burn so brightly with purpose. but now, that fire feels… less urgent. like you're conserving the flame instead of feeding it. something about that old passion feels unreachable, as though it belonged to another version of you.

as i read your pile, i feel drawn to a sensation of pain or tightness in the wrist - especially around the rotation point, the part that aches when you’ve written on the blackboard too long.

this might symbolically reflect energetic resistance - tension in how you express yourself or channel your energy. maybe you're overexerting, pushing for perfection, or feeling creatively blocked. it could also reflect a struggle between control and surrender. where are you resisting softness or flexibility? this tension may tie into your sense of self-worth and purpose - the pressure to achieve, to perform, to constantly produce. you might also feel blocked in your expression. the message here is about aligning your creative or competitive energy with your heart.

so let me ask you -

are you feeling pressured to create, to perform, to be perfect?

are you trying too hard to lock in decisions - 'yes, this is it, this is the way'- instead of allowing life to marinate and flow?

is there a truth you're not fully admitting to yourself?

and here’s what your mirror gently offers: breathe energy from your heart. let it run down your arms, into your hands, past your wrists. let it wash out the pressure, the tightness, the expectations. let that energy flow freely - creative, soft, alive.

binge my other readings <3

that's it for this reading. take care of yourself. sending lots of love, Ananya ♡

[cextile]

Thank you sm for the readings 🩷 They felt accurate and I liked how you gave specific examples. I also liked that you didn't make the reading 'overly sweet'. Like, you didn't give false 'hype' just to make me happy. You elaborated the topics and you also gave me two details (psychic i assume) of my appearance through the readings which were actually true. You also communicated to me when there was a delay of the reading, and this time you actually gave me the readings pretty quickly. I appreciate that, and every reading you did for me.

It was truly a pleasure to exchange readings for you and I'm going to keep reading ur new collective readings

@cextile's tarot reading review ☆

thank you sm! it was such a pleasure to read for you too 🫶

[cextile]

doesnt look like a break clowngirl

my first hate msg, im so happy heheheh <3

[cextile]

what kind of muse are you? ✮˚.⋆

one → two → three

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how to read this pick a pile reading? ♡ the images above are your pick a pile options - see which pile immediately pulls you in. If nothing stands out right away, take a moment to look at each pile/image. the one your attentions keeps coming back to is likely your pick. if more than one pile calls to you, trust that too. you can read both and take what resonates. and hey, if none of them feel like a match, no big deal. not every reading is meant for right now. come back another time — this reading isn’t going anywhere.

pile one

note : the they/them in this reading is the person considering you as their muse. slightly n f s w so take care plz

you’re not just the muse that lives in a painting.

you’re the muse that lives in a family photo, in bedtime stories, in the way they looks at their child and sees you.

so yeah, you are going to be more than a muse that exists to fulfill fantasies or inspire fleeting art. people will actually want to build a prosperous home, a life with you when you connect with them.

i'm imagining a scene where the elevator is opening and you being an absolute girl boss (btw u don't have to be a girl to be a girlboss) steps out, do you get what i mean?

you have the the energy of someone who stands still and the room tilts in their direction.

literal infinite aura.

also, you'll be destabilizing people's focus. this is the main point of this reading & you don't literally get the intensity of how intensely you are going to do that. out of the six cards I pulled, THREE of them were reversed knights, which is HUGE. like people on intense personal journeys - self discipline, no-nonsense, no-relationships, high-focus mindsets are going to be shaken by you. they'll sort of break their focus for you. they are going to re-orient their inner trajectory just to be aligned with you. you know, you're the kind of life partner that they had been working hard for, making themselves worthy of deserving. you're the person they've been working hard to achieve. your not just a muse, you are their dream.

i'm getting this story of how this guy was sailing the world on the sea all alone and suddenly he met an African girl. after meeting her, he gave up roaming the world everywhere for one place, and that place was her.

as a muse, you inspire them to build something that breathes, to make art in motion (make love) with you.

your co-creation creates the mess and magic of legacy.

pile two

ugh slight n f s w themes, uncomfortable themes. please do not read if you are the kind of person that can't do with dark romance and stuff.

also note : the they/them in this reading is the person considering you as their muse.

I am getting line's from this book I read;

.... yet his straightforward, uncompromising good looks were almost magical when repeated, with only slight variations, in her. She was a living reverie for me: the mere sight of her sparked an almost infinite range of fantasy, from Greek to Gothic, from vulgar to divine.

that's is going to be you, but here's the catch, you are going to be nothing more than that.

you are just going to be a living painting babe.

treasured peacocks in a garden.

you're the muse who is going to be elevated to near-divine status by others, admired like a gemstone.

a living jewel on display, admired but ultimately trapped, not free to just be themselves.

the person who considers you their muse will want you serve their need to possess and keep you frozen in a beautiful moment or image.

have you guys read 'the butterfly garden'? you know, there's this man who's sort of like unhealthily obsessed with these beautiful girls. he traps them in a garden. you're are those butterflies. it's a very dark macabre book.

or you know, a better example would be that story of the photographer named masahisa fukase, who only saw his wife through the lens of a camera, and not a person. ykwim? (she left him after a decade of marriage)

im sorry, this pile might be a little dissapointing for some of you to hear. some of you want such things for yourselves, but babe this is nothing to romanticise.

so yeah again, the person who considers you their muse will just want you to themselves in a very unhealthy way.

i'm getting that, you know, you won't be sort of allowed by them gather the wood sticks and make the fire to move forward. That's the analogy for how he's not gonna allow you to pick yourself up, and purposefully make you stay fragile, losing autonomy and your self-agency.

gah my cards literally sighed in relief after i moved on from you guys in pile 2 to pile 3.

pile three

MONA LISAAA.

you, your pain, your imperfections, your body, your soul, your way of thinking, everything about you is sort of an inspiration for art. when people are going to be in a slump, you guys are going to inspire them to create art, make art.

your very essence - pain, beauty, struggle, even silence - becomes the catalyst for others to create. there's so much love here, not necessarily in the traditional sense, but love that witnesses you, and transforms you into art.

oh btw, there is going to be such a healthy relationship between the artist and the muse. what a nice change of pace of things after the bullshit pile 2 & pile 1 were pulling. people will be very respectful of your boundaries. they won't try to woo you and make you their life partner, like pile 1. they aren't going to be unhealthily obsessed with you, like in pile 2.

also there's such a beautiful energy of co-creating and dependence here. it's so beautiful.. yeah. you're gonna intimately create art together.

you are gonna be the one that leaks into the trenches of the artist's mind, inspires them to pick up the brush again, and heal through creation, make them pour their energy into something that transcends the both of you.

i just had a realization, like i was just thinking about how I want to keep channeling pile 3 forever, and it suddenly hit me�� that i am getting entangled in your ensnare too. ykwim?

pile 3, you echo so loudly, people have to reflect that back through creation.

that's it for this reading. take care of yourself.

with love, Ananya ♡

[cextile]

what shape does your parents love take for you?

a collaboration with @tarotbyjam24

one → two → three → four

how to read this pick a pile tarot reading ♡ the images above are your pick-a-pile options — see which image immediately pulls you in. If nothing stands out right away, take a moment to look at each pile/image. the one your attentions keeps coming back to is likely your pick. If more than one pile calls to you, trust that too. You can read both and take what resonates. And hey, if none of them feel like a match, no big deal. Not every reading is meant for right now. Come back another time — this reading isn’t going anywhere. 

pile one ☆

courtesy of @cextile

cards pulled : two of rods, the devil reversed, ace of rods, ace of pentacles, six of pentacles what they say: your parents' love is seen in how they gently guide you gently towards the good path (two), away from the devil. their sincere wish is that you live a good life the devil reversed you are a beautiful addition to their life (ace of rods), and they want you to have everything (six of pentacles) that they couldn't get (ace of pentacles reversed)

you can see your parent's love in the way that they guide you, softly steering you and teaching you how to live life. it's their most sincere wish that you guys genuinely live a simple good life, away from harm. btw you guys didn’t come into this world through the quick nut lmao. you were planned, chosen with love that ran deeper than reason. 

like imagine this for a sec: two desolate fields stretch endlessly, barren and silent. then suddenly, at the seam where they converge, a single lotus, brighter and larger than life, blooms. this flower swells, breathes, spills over the plain like a sunrise breaking through sorrow, its brilliance flooding the landscape - it grows until it’s all you can see.  and now when you look at the fields, you’ll only see the lotus. 

your parents are that field and you the lotus flower  you are their heartbeat bro. you guys are sometimes the reason why they exist.

you know. they do their best to provide you oppurtunities to set you up for 'life'. they want you be financially successful (esp if you guys have been struggling financially) and, you know, they want you to have every single thing that they couldn't get, couldn't provide.

they have your back bro, go create chaos in the world. whether you succeed or not they'll be your loudest supporters (even if they don't show it). they'll be the most real people you'll ever get in your life.

(btw this is so desi parent coded. like they'll pay for the best coaching/prep/cram classes so you can do your best in 'xyz' exam, yk?)

what they'd say: live fully. with joy. with righteousness. with courage. smile wide and keep going. go farther than we ever could. i love you.

read another pick a pile reading by @cextile

pile two ☆ courtesy of @tarotbyjam24

the tower , 4 of pentacles , 10 of wands , the chariot , 3 of swords

Hi pile 2 , what I feel is that your parents love is hardcore type of love , they love a lot but they can't convey it through their actions . Their actions may seem hurtful to you . You may often feel why are my parents being like this , why do they always pressure me with their dreams , responsibilities. Why it's always me who have to cater to my parents' needs but it's always what you are observing through your glasses please allow me to share my perspective they want you to grow into this good child archetype person whose background is clean like their kid don't have any bad habits and is a really really genuine person . A person who is good with elders , kids ,etc . Although when they kinda force you with their rules their heart aches too . I somehow also feel that you may be living away from your parents due to studies or anything else and they miss you so much .

Lowkey they appreciate you so much they're very proud of you and everything you do . They love how you're always moving forward and don't like to get stuck with things . I feel that you're so good at problem solving and coming up with the solutions faster than anyone else can . They love your leadership qualities and how you always shield others .

If they could say something to you they'd say you're really a good kid. We love you always no matter what you do , although you may sometimes act off the best we will always love you and be there for you and have your back . I feel that you're your single child or the eldest child and what I feel is that your parents also work a lott behind the scenes for your stability; they're literally your shield. They want to make sure that their kid don't face what they may have faced in past times . That's all pile 2 , thank you for reading . Loads of love <3

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pile three ☆ courtesy of @cextile

your parents operate on a certain model of love - one built on wanting - wanting more for you, coaching you to do your best, have a ‘move-ahead’ mindset.

you know its like those parents that push, polish & refine their children to do better? to do their best and keep moving forward. push them to pick up things that will benefit them in the future, for their own success.

and oftentimes I feel like you might feel extremely pressurized with it, hate them even. it’s not your fault for feeling this way though, because what you feel is the consequence of love trying to pass through a filter it was never meant to pass through - generations of inherited conditioning, fears, buried disappointments, social mimicry mistaken for care.

things might have turned cold between your parents, but they really, really want to reconcile with you, and somewhere they realise that they made grave mistakes.

and you know i feel for deeply for you because the ache of contradiction hits you, doesn't it? how your love for them doesn’t disappear just because it hurts. how someone can wound you in ways you thought they'd never dare, and yet the very idea of them still softens something in you.

i think it's my responsibility to tell you, even if you do not act upon this information, is that closure and healing does exist, and the dynamic between you guys isn’t set in stone. things can get better, and sometimes, just knowing that can be the first step forward.

your parents, for all their errors, were fumbling in the dark with the same kind of lostness you sometimes feel. it's their first time being parents too.

also i want to share a little something :-

sometimes, my mom and I step out together, just the two of us. we wander through the city market, weaving through stalls brimming with fresh flowers (in hindi - gajre), fruits, and buzzing chatter. the sky is a soft gray, and there’s a pleasant coolness in the air, the kind that brushes your skin without chilling it. everything feels hushed but alive, like the world has dialed itself down to a calmer setting just for us. & there’s no rush. just the rhythm of walking, browsing, pausing to eat something hot and local. that quiet, unspoken ease between us. its in these moments for me when life feels peaceful, simple, and quietly sacred.

Similarly, I'd like to tell you that your parents want this kind of soft, ordinary joy be something you live in. & more than anything, they hope they get to share moments like these with you.

so yeah even as they urge you on, they also wish for you to pause now and then. to live in a quiet kind of peace. to notice the small, quiet beauties of life. to stop and smell the flowers & not rush past them. to let the world slow down just enough for you to simply be.

read another pick a pile reading by @cextile

pile four ☆ courtesy of @tarotbyjam24

The lovers , 9 of cups , 3 of pentacles , 7 of wands , The emperor

Hi pile 4 , your parents seem very chill to me . They're like the dream parents and allow everything that can make their child happy because their kids happiness matters to them the most . They are the type of parents who show love to their kids openly and won't hesitate to adore them like other parents do . They're the proud parents because of you . They are happier than you when you achieve something , haha . Like others say that your parents are your first teachers, they indeed play this role wonderfully. They guide you in everything with utmost care . They're your best friend, teacher , mentor , etc all in one pack you will ever need .

Your parents really can't see you having any trouble. They always keep you away from trouble, such a soft life you live my dear pile 4 . It's really amazing to read through the cards that you're living happily. They work hard for you . Your parents are really such a great companion. Everything with them feels amazing. Doing such a hard task but your parents are with you ? Ghhhaa this is gonna go so easily, nothing to worry about . Your parents really have such a friendly aura my dear pile 4 .

If your parents had something to say this is what they'd say , dear you're free to do and achieve whatever your heart wants to , we're here rooting for your every win whether it's winning in love or in exams . You've got this all and our backs too . I also feel your parents may now want you to get a lover atp probably cuz they want you to have some fun. I feel people reading this pile could be around 18-19 to 21-22 years old .

You're really your parents' eyes apple . You and your parents both are dear to each other. Regardless of your achievements you're always a star in their eyes. You always have a good image in their eyes. So if you ever feel like your parents may not see you in a good light there's nothing like that . They literally think you're amazing and their worlds revolve around you n you only dear . That's all pile 4 , thank you for reading. Loads of love<3

read another pick a pile reading by @tarotbyjam24

that's it for this reading. take care of yourself.

with love, Ananya & Jam ♡

[cextile]

it's my 18th birthday today🥳

im finally legal, a few visits to the bank & I'll be able to change my bank account from minor to major 🥳

that also means I'll be able to start paid readings :))

this also means I'll be able to publish explicit stuff now 🤯😨

[cextile]

how can you authentically be yourselves?

one → two → three

how to read this pick a pile reading? ♡ the images above are your pick a pile options - see which pile immediately pulls you in. If nothing stands out right away, take a moment to look at each pile/image. the one your attentions keeps coming back to is likely your pick. if more than one pile calls to you, trust that too. you can read both and take what resonates. and hey, if none of them feel like a match, no big deal. not every reading is meant for right now. come back another time — this reading isn’t going anywhere.

pile one ☆

I just wanna put something out there, and it’s from a place of clarity and not judgement. 

A lot of you guys are in denial of who you are, like there is a disparity between who you are and who you think you are – or who you want the world to believe you are. You might have this inflated self-image, and it’s like a version of you that you hold onto because it feels good, but it’s not rooted in truth.

Right now, some of you are letting the idea of manifesting become a distraction from actual manifesting. You are crossing the line between manifesting and fantasizing, and it’s making you hollow from the inside.This is keeping you stuck. 

Confront yourself and see yourself as who you really are. Look in the mirror. 

Where are you really? And where do you want to be?

Also, you carry this untethered vibe - like you're in your head letting  numerous possibilities, things, ideas, and fantasies free flow. But at the same time, you're hyper-defensive and ready to attack, ready to defend your energy, recoil the moment things feel off. 

You’ve been holed up in your own world for too long – mentally, emotionally, maybe even physically. It’s time to come up for air. ‘

Socialise, talk to people, do something real and grounded and let the world meet you as the ‘that person’. 

btw, being that person' isn’t about waiting until you’ve arrived at some perfect version of yourself – it’s about moving like them now. It’s not about having it all together, it’s about doing the things that align with that energy, even if no one else sees it yet. you don’t become them by chasing a goal – you become ‘that person’ by deciding you already are. the rest  will catch up, promise. 

So yeah, embody your dream self now. even if you're still growing or finding your way, it’s the small choices – the way you show up – that shapes who you already are. 

Grab life by the reins, not just drifting through it like a passenger.  embody the energy of a person who knows their worth, who embraces habits that build them up every day.

Start valuing your physical appearance more. Like, you know, brush your hair, get a hair routine (idk why but my cards were focusing on hair soooooo much. Also a little bit on eating healthy & loosing/gaining weight for a good physique), go to the gym and start cherishing yourself as you are.

Nurture yourself , step away from the mental negative rut and do things that give you a happy little buzz in ways that actually matter (I’m not talking about the quick fix scrolls or fleeting distractions), and watch everything change. 

Also, I want you to  really, really, really, really know this: disappointment, heartbreak, denial, every single negative thing that's seeped in your bones and your expectations of the future is not what's waiting for you ahead.

And I pinky promise there is not going to be any space for disappointment in your dictionary babe. What's ahead is bright – and it’s waiting for you.

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pile two ☆

shorter reading than the other piles because i think for alot of the people in this collective - time’s tight, priorities matter, and scrolling through readings on tumblr isn’t one of them.

also this reading had me laughing, fr. like, y’all don’t even know. the cards lined up too perfectly & the message is playfully blunt. also I swear I want to send your reels to explain the vibe better than this long-ass text ever could.

the way you can authentically be yourselves right now is just by working for yourselves.

i rlly like your vibe btw. you guys are actually so funny and weirdly lovable, like if you weren’t so deep in your serious life stuff rn, i’d 100% wanna be your friend. but like… lowkey focus on yourself right now.

now, everything I say is going to lead you to your most authentic self.

for my tarot readers, the king of swords reversed lined up and then immediately the king of cups came out.

it’s like, don’t give up. I know you’re fcking tired, but you’re so close to stepping into prosperity. keep going.

your era of trials? It’s almost over. what’s ahead? achievements. recognition.

feathers in your hat.

so you know, right now? the relationship that matters most is the one you have with yourself.

just keep working on yourself.

like, keep mining for the diamonds and don't give up.

(lmao the image above is all i want to say)

don't get distracted by the vibes. don't party or drink too much. just keep your wits to yourself.

when you have a goal to achieve and you hang out with other people, those people might not have goals. so their lack of direction will serve as a distraction.

guys trust your energy, trust your path, trust your journey.

because if you continue to this path, your era of trials and tribulation will be over.

also, a reminder. don't get into a relationship that is demanding you to put a lot of time and energy into it.

for my people who love toxic men, get into a relationship with yourself right now.

that's the best thing.

good luck guys🍀😊

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pile three ☆

hi! so you guys struggle mainly with the inner world, its so rich & chaotic, and that spills into your outer expression.

you guys are like fog - so mentally dispersed. your identity, sense of self is just so spread out and variable that it's actually getting difficult for you to consume and contain it yourself. 

so you need to fall back on a structure that is well defined, alright? This structure could have different interpretations for you guys, so I am not elaborating more on that. 

you guys have to do shadow work to really understand where this variability, out-stretch in your sense of identity and all your patterns are coming from.

you know, suppressed tension inside of you that you really need to work upon, do shadow work on. it's like, you have tight springs in your body - all this tension, all this trauma, all this negativity - pushed down, waiting to uncoil itself. 

so, where you are suppressing things of yourself that do not need to be suppressed, and, you know, not necessary to be suppressed.

but all that’s really happening is you’re still suppressing parts of yourself that never needed suppression. you think you're holding it in, sometimes you don’t even realise that you are holding it in - but what you’re actually doing is holding on - holding on to the idea that there’s something in you that needs to be dealt with. 

let go

also, there’s a need to be conscious of what you speak. 

not everything needs to be said, right? 

a lot of times we say things out of this need to want people to validate our experiences, but you need to understand that not everyone will receive your unfiltered words as you intend them, you risk misunderstanding, misjudgment, and even a warped image of yourself being formed in their eyes.

There is a need of introspection inside yourself, and this need of, like, fixing what you think, nah what you know, is not right about yourself.

It could be a mental rut you need to get out of, you know.

stop letting your perception rot in the same setting. sometimes we get into our own headspace so much that it negatively hampers ourselves, we start bedrotting, letting things stay stagnant, not necessarily in your physical reality, but in how you perceive this physical reality and in your headspace, things need to keep changing and be active.

so yup, you can’t let that stillness calcify. there has to be motion, even if it’s just in awareness. You have to breathe life back into your mind and body.

It could also be that you need introspection in some aspects of your social self - things that are quietly hampering your day-to-day life.

Or maybe it’s your external appearance. Because, let’s be honest, how we look does help boost our confidence. soo if you want to fix something about yourself that you don't like, then you can go ahead and do it.

Plus, try become an Instagram baddie or a Pinterest doll, you know? what I mean is embody a particular aesthetic that makes you comfortable. I’m not saying this to pressure you into conforming to beauty standards - it's more like polishing yourself externally, so that you can feel more confident and comfortable in the environment and the places you move through. So you can walk into a room and not shrink.

again, just to repeat on a similar note - it would really, really do a lot of good if you start exercising, working toward that dream physique, and genuinely putting in the effort to glow up and become your dream version.

make a checklist of all your tasks and responsibilities, and aim to fulfill it - one task at a time. whether it’s cleaning your room, replying to texts, or researching something that matters to you - get it done. it doesn't matter how much it will help you professionally, financially, familially, or in relationships - do it to help yourself. you'll be able to present yourself as a more proud person, as someone who sticks to things and gets them done, right? it’s about stacking those wins and watching your self-respect rebuild.

Also, actually get out - talk to people, smell the flowers, connect with others, and do the most mundane tasks with them. go with your sibling to the grocery store and help your fam out by grocery shopping. ask your friends to meet up for a walk. It doesn't have to be an intense thing - let your relationships flourish amidst the most mundane things.

read another pick a pile reading by @cextile

that's it for this reading. take care of yourself.

with love, Ananya ♡

[cextile]

@cextile's tarot reading review

by the lovely @klarinda-klabisom 🥰

[cextile]

what kind of muse are you? ✮˚.⋆

one → two → three

REVIEWS ☆ MASTERLIST ☆ FREE READING EVENTS

how to read this pick a pile reading? ♡ the images above are your pick a pile options - see which pile immediately pulls you in. If nothing stands out right away, take a moment to look at each pile/image. the one your attentions keeps coming back to is likely your pick. if more than one pile calls to you, trust that too. you can read both and take what resonates. and hey, if none of them feel like a match, no big deal. not every reading is meant for right now. come back another time — this reading isn’t going anywhere.

pile one

note : the they/them in this reading is the person considering you as their muse. slightly n f s w so take care plz

you’re not just the muse that lives in a painting.

you’re the muse that lives in a family photo, in bedtime stories, in the way they looks at their child and sees you.

so yeah, you are going to be more than a muse that exists to fulfill fantasies or inspire fleeting art. people will actually want to build a prosperous home, a life with you when you connect with them.

i'm imagining a scene where the elevator is opening and you being an absolute girl boss (btw u don't have to be a girl to be a girlboss) steps out, do you get what i mean?

you have the the energy of someone who stands still and the room tilts in their direction.

literal infinite aura.

also, you'll be destabilizing people's focus. this is the main point of this reading & you don't literally get the intensity of how intensely you are going to do that. out of the six cards I pulled, THREE of them were reversed knights, which is HUGE. like people on intense personal journeys - self discipline, no-nonsense, no-relationships, high-focus mindsets are going to be shaken by you. they'll sort of break their focus for you. they are going to re-orient their inner trajectory just to be aligned with you. you know, you're the kind of life partner that they had been working hard for, making themselves worthy of deserving. you're the person they've been working hard to achieve. your not just a muse, you are their dream.

i'm getting this story of how this guy was sailing the world on the sea all alone and suddenly he met an African girl. after meeting her, he gave up roaming the world everywhere for one place, and that place was her.

as a muse, you inspire them to build something that breathes, to make art in motion (make love) with you.

your co-creation creates the mess and magic of legacy.

pile two

ugh slight n f s w themes, uncomfortable themes. please do not read if you are the kind of person that can't do with dark romance and stuff.

also note : the they/them in this reading is the person considering you as their muse.

I am getting line's from this book I read;

.... yet his straightforward, uncompromising good looks were almost magical when repeated, with only slight variations, in her. She was a living reverie for me: the mere sight of her sparked an almost infinite range of fantasy, from Greek to Gothic, from vulgar to divine.

that's is going to be you, but here's the catch, you are going to be nothing more than that.

you are just going to be a living painting babe.

treasured peacocks in a garden.

you're the muse who is going to be elevated to near-divine status by others, admired like a gemstone.

a living jewel on display, admired but ultimately trapped, not free to just be themselves.

the person who considers you their muse will want you serve their need to possess and keep you frozen in a beautiful moment or image.

have you guys read 'the butterfly garden'? you know, there's this man who's sort of like unhealthily obsessed with these beautiful girls. he traps them in a garden. you're are those butterflies. it's a very dark macabre book.

or you know, a better example would be that story of the photographer named masahisa fukase, who only saw his wife through the lens of a camera, and not a person. ykwim? (she left him after a decade of marriage)

im sorry, this pile might be a little dissapointing for some of you to hear. some of you want such things for yourselves, but babe this is nothing to romanticise.

so yeah again, the person who considers you their muse will just want you to themselves in a very unhealthy way.

i'm getting that, you know, you won't be sort of allowed by them gather the wood sticks and make the fire to move forward. That's the analogy for how he's not gonna allow you to pick yourself up, and purposefully make you stay fragile, losing autonomy and your self-agency.

gah my cards literally sighed in relief after i moved on from you guys in pile 2 to pile 3.

pile three

MONA LISAAA.

you, your pain, your imperfections, your body, your soul, your way of thinking, everything about you is sort of an inspiration for art. when people are going to be in a slump, you guys are going to inspire them to create art, make art.

your very essence - pain, beauty, struggle, even silence - becomes the catalyst for others to create. there's so much love here, not necessarily in the traditional sense, but love that witnesses you, and transforms you into art.

oh btw, there is going to be such a healthy relationship between the artist and the muse. what a nice change of pace of things after the bullshit pile 2 & pile 1 were pulling. people will be very respectful of your boundaries. they won't try to woo you and make you their life partner, like pile 1. they aren't going to be unhealthily obsessed with you, like in pile 2.

also there's such a beautiful energy of co-creating and dependence here. it's so beautiful.. yeah. you're gonna intimately create art together.

you are gonna be the one that leaks into the trenches of the artist's mind, inspires them to pick up the brush again, and heal through creation, make them pour their energy into something that transcends the both of you.

i just had a realization, like i was just thinking about how I want to keep channeling pile 3 forever, and it suddenly hit me… that i am getting entangled in your ensnare too. ykwim?

pile 3, you echo so loudly, people have to reflect that back through creation.

that's it for this reading. take care of yourself.

with love, Ananya ♡

[cextile]

Do you do exchange readings?

yes! but i won’t do a reading if your page doesn’t show any readings you’ve done — i need something to know i can trust you

[cextile]

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@cextile's tarot reading review☆

this one is by @iris-tarot 🥰

i'm so glad we decided to exchange readings btw :)

[cextile]

a fun little story on how i made my homemade deck + told my parents i read tarot

hi! sooo i got into the idea of reading tarot originally just to feed my delusions - like i literally only wanted to ask my cards what xyz thinks of me. very unserious.

[weirdly enough, it’s been a while since i made my deck now and still havent asked those dumb questions yet. tarot somehow turned into this personal thing for me - more about growth and healing than stalking someone’s feelings through a deck of cards. who would've thought]

so i decided i wanted tarot cards for my 18th birthday and literally created a whole dramatic scenario in my head about how i’d convince my parents. but then i chickened out, scared of what my parents will say. so i was like okay whatever i’ll just ask my friends to get it for me instead. but they were scared about what their parents would say. so they backed out. tragic.

but THEN i saw this post where @tarotbyjam24 made her own tarot cards and didn’t even tell her parents.

and i was inspired. deeply inspired.

so i opened an editing app, laid out all the cards from the aquarian deck, made them all pretty.

then i told my brother to tell our parents he needed to print 'some cards' for a 'game' and boom, he got them printed for me. then i stuck all the prints onto old notebook covers, cut them out, and laminated each one with tape. a full undercover DIY operation. honestly? iconic.

(bad lighting, but yup, i made these)

one fine day, i was just casually shuffling through my cards, doing a tarot reading for one of my little pick-a-pile sessions. and that’s exactly when my mom walked in. she saw me, the cards, and the tarot book i had opened on my screen.

that’s when it hit her that these weren’t 'just game cards'. she asked me why i chose to not tell her these were tarot. she asked what i used them for. if it was for love or something.

i was doing my usual justification nonsense, but yk how moms are. she saw right through me. she told me that tarot is an extremely serious thing that both her and my dad dont follow, and then walked away. icky.

nothing really happened after that.

until today. today, someone send me a message on how reading pile 3 from this pick-a-pile was a life changing moment for them. they shared a deeply spiritual experience that happened because they listened to my advice, and how they were basically inspired to 'be brave and share their light, just like me' 🥹😭🧿🥰

this struck me so deeply and profoundly, and i was so so touched. i wanted to share this moment with my parents, because it made me so so happy know i was able to help somebody and had such an impact. 😭🩷 I am seriously for grateful for this platform.

now, even though a part of me really wanted to tell them what that person shared with me - and finally just clear the air about me & tarot - i was still confused about whether i should go through with it or not.

then moments later while scrolling, i saw di’s @tarotbyjam24 update - the one where she finally told her parents too. that was the final trigger.

she finally had her dramatic reveal arc, and i decided it was my turn too.

so yeah, i ended up telling my mom. told her about everything - why i kept it from them, how i felt about tarot, and also about the absolutely beautiful message for me that person shared. and tbh, i usually don’t tell my parents a lot about what i’m up to, so saying this out loud felt like lifting a tiny little weight off my heart.

thank you for reading my story.

the end.

[cextile]

guys I attended the last time it was soo fun please join

This monday I will be giving free readings on twitch, come and join us 💜

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@cextile's tarot reading review(s) ☆

thank you so much!! ♡

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this testimony was given by my irl friend <3