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almost entirely unprompted, a cis person on reddit accurately explained how most people see trans women as at least slightly subhuman. instances like that always make me feel ten million times better than any kind of deliberate attempt at "validation", like.

fuck man, yeah, thank you for saying that. everyone hates it when I say that, they get mad at me, but you just understand it without me having to say it. and you said it for me, so I don't even have to be the one everyone hates for saying it. I feel so protected.

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It is morally correct to be horny on main.

If we really want to fight against this puritanical culture that seems to be hell-bent on running sex workers off the internet and banning pornography wherever they can find it, you have a moral duty to post hole on main. Doesn't have to be your own hole but you got to post it.

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Came across a very interesting post on IG about how Christianity was intentionally used to subject enslaved Africans. Which should be news to no one, but the book that was shown, How To Make A Negro Christian by Kamau Makesi-Tehuti, was a commentary on selected text from a work called The Religious Instruction of the Negroes in the United States by Charles Colcock Jones who was a Presbyterian minister and enslaver.

A summary of this work provided by this website states that the second part, out of four, in this book, and I kid you not, deals with

[T]he "Moral and Religious Condition" of slaves and free blacks, blaming their circumstances for their lack of virtue. Jones especially calls attention to their poverty and lack of education. He describes their ignorance of Christianity, their general lack of character, and their prevailing vices, noting that in the end, they are totally dependent on white men for the ability to overcome these limitations.

Then later

The final part of the book proposes some strategies for implementing programs of religious instruction for slaves, making recommendations for Sabbath services as well as weekday plantation meetings. Jones says that the Christian gospel must be presented in a way that is intelligible to uneducated slaves, and must be inculcated early in childhood when possible. The guiding principle he describes for dealing with the condition of the slave is to be only concerned with the spiritual, not the secular, political, or civil.

I've recently been reading Octavia Butler's Kindred and there's a part in it where the main character, Dana, mentions the existence of slave bibles which omitted any verses about liberation and freedom.

You can read more about them here:

They gutted the Bible so much that, according to this article, the nearly 1.2k chapters in the text was chisled down to a mere 232.

It's been mentioned before by people more articulate than me about how Christianity is a white man's bastard, misused, abused, and misappropriated to enact and inflict the worst sins upon non-white people. Enslaved Africans weren't the only ones. Never forget that indigenous people across the Americas have historically been subjugated to violence and terrorism by white Christians and missionaries literally wielding their faith like machetes.

I have no end point here. While I am not a Christian and haven't been one for over at least 13 years now, if not longer, I do fucks with Jesus heavy. And it's not just because of my upbringing that I still have some fondness for the figurehead, if not the faith/practice itself, or because some of my immediate ancestors were Christians and I respect their long held beliefs while they encourage me on my own religious path. I have no qualms with the religion in general, however, I do not and cannot ignore the history of violence that historically and continues to be done in the name of that religion.

Neither am I looking to challenge my fellow Black people to leave their faith if they should come across this post. Though, I would be a lie if I said I didn't want Black Christians to revisit their ideologies in relation to how they view non-Christian beliefs (and y'all know exactly what the fuck I mean, please don't make me spell it out) and how they regurgitate the same queerphobic, sexist, anti-Black rhetoric of the white church. I would love, love, LOVE for y'all to challenge those views and disabuse y'allselves of these ideologies for the betterment of the community and people as a whole and to do it fucking quickly please. That's Y'ALL work to do, if y'all so choose.

I just found this fascinating in a "staring at a horror" kind of way.

Also, I might revisit the unique way in which African practices infiltrated the creation of the Black church anyway once the whites were so sure they had indoctrinated us out of our heritage and culture. I'm talking about things like the ring shout, call and response, laying on of hands, spirit possession, connection with nature and natural elements. Things like that. And how these elements are still found in some ways in the modern Black church but especially in African Traditional and Diasporic religions as well.

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Yesterday I was with my friends near the place where the displaced people are. We were playing football. Night came, so I greeted them one by one, as if I was saying goodbye to them.

I went home, sat on Tumblr for a while, then suddenly fell asleep at 1:30 a.m. A house next to us, not 50 meters away, was bombed. It was my friends’ house, so I ran quickly, my tears falling, drop by drop. They took one out, so I looked at him and found that he was my new friend, whom I had only met two weeks ago. Then they took out his little sister, who was no more than 10 years old. My heart was beating so fast that it almost stopped. Then they took out the rest. There were about 10-12 dead people, and my mind has not stopped thinking until now Please I want to live

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I think some people think therapy and recovering from mental illness is that one day, you just wake up "well" again, and everything is sunshine and rainbows, and you'll never be mentally ill ever again.

When, in reality, you're often talking yourself down from a category five meltdown with the patience and trust you were never shown by anyone else.

"I can't do this, I can't do this, I can't do this."

You can, actually. It's going to suck, and you're not going to enjoy it. But you can do it. And one day, maybe you'll even have to heal from it like you've done with other things. But right here, right now, you can do this. You're also allowed to complain and bitch the entire time.

No one said you had to take it well.

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in order to unlearn racism u have to be willing to accept that u are racist. it’s not a bad thing to want to change for the better. it’s not a bad thing to say hey, the way i’ve been acting is racist and i don’t want to be racist anymore. when people of color are telling u ways in which u have been racist, it’s actually not cool to brush it off and say, well i didn’t mean it that way.. u actually have to make an effort to stop doing those things if u want to be able to actually say ur anti-racist. u can’t just say ur not racist because u don’t wanna be seen as racist. that’s not how unlearning racism works.

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My two greatest fears are permanence and change

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dainty cute femme with chest hair + unshaven pits + full bush + happy trail btw

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This and also when English speakers talk about how German has so many long weird specific words. Like. Do you realise that's because in German you can make new nouns by combining any existing nouns???

the nuisance of our language is stunning

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“imagine a borzoi with husky eyes. that’s jeff the killer, right?” -my boyfriend

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people get so mad and weird about polyamory when ultimately it's always like you're just mad you can't date this polyamorous person you met because you want a monogamous relationship with them and they're dating other people

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i think when we used to point out that a story didn't need a sex scene what we meant was "this story reduces its women to mere sex objects and gives them no interiority so the sex scenes are gratuitous and geared towards the male gaze" it wasn't the sex that bothered us per se it was the objectification of female characters while givig them little to no consequence to the overall story but nowadays people mean "sex is icky and gross and has no merit to ever be portrayed in our arts which should be good and pure and never ever make ME feel discomfort" and it's like. i bet a bowl of unfrosted flakes looks real good to you rn

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many on here need to be learning this lesson

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I'm Mr. Sterling's right door hand hook car door man

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From Ursula K. Le Guin’s Cat Dreams. Illustrated by S. D. Schindler.