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I’ve been gone awhile, but I assure you I am alive and currently doing pretty alright at the moment. The past few months though I’ve wanted to post several times but never got around to it. I’ll try to remember and sum up what has happened the past five month and yes things have gotten weird. September is a blur to be completely honest. October I started talking to a coworker (which is a terrible idea) we began dating for the entirety of the month. Then I got weird like I usually do and I decided I didn’t really want to be with this girl. I ended up having a threesome with two of my friends. In November I continued to not talk to the girl from before even though we worked together atleast once a week. I also started to completely ignore everyone once I moved back to where I lived earlier in the year and started boning an old flame before ending things because they wanted to be more serious. I became more antisocial throughout December , but tried to rise above. I got a complaint about my attitude from new coworkers and my manger asked me to go back to my doctor and get help. I changed my availability so I wasn’t being worked to death and started a routine. I had my New Years kiss with two girls, so I thought I had that going for me. The couple that I had a threesome with broke up and the guy said I deserved her. Which I had no interest in and actually confused me. A month later I went over to check out her new apartment and we ended up fucking. It’s been a week and the hickey has gone away, but I still have bruise marks from bites all over my torso. I haven’t thrown up, mainly due to the fact that I really want to be better. It’s a real struggle though, the fact that I might have really already fucked up my body helps me.

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I need to detox and start back at square one.

Also, probably remember to take my meds.

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I think I’m starting to get side effects from the lamictal or I could be a hypochondriac. Well, I am a hypochondriac.

Awhile ago I started getting bacne, but it has seemed to get a little worse and sometimes it hurts.

I've been on it before with no problems. I could just be over thinking it because that’s what I’m good at.

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What kind of person are you?

Because I'm definitely not who people think I am...

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My life has gotten really weird.

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Not so much anymore.

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I'm feeling good.

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I need to stop over analyzing everything.

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I just did my first yoga class.

I feel great.

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I need to stop binge eating and go back to the gym.

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My insecurities eat away at me.

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I made it to 23.

I should be happy. It’s beautiful out, a lot of people care about me, I’m talking to a beautiful girl. 

I just know this isn’t going to last.

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I went back on my lamictal then ran out and had to go cold turkey for a week. Anyone who is medicated knows how terrible that is. It's a scarier type of craycray, but at least I got my prescription refilled yesterday.

Also, she texted me this morning saying that she missed me.

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It only lasted a week.

Called it.

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I'm afraid that I'm going to get ahead of myself.

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I just went on the best date of my life and it’s going to go nowhere.