corpseintraining

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Arby’s in the upside down. Get you some rat beef sandwich and dark suggestion of rotisserie chicken.

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I’m pretty new to Tumblr, I didn’t expect over 25% of my posts to be endorsements of eating like a roman emperor, but here we are.

i’m starting a collection

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My dad always used to ask me and my siblings “To what end” about our outrages and arguments. It was obnoxious, but valid. For me it’s more a question of making myself enter discourse than to avoid it because I’d usually rather dodge conversations with people I disagree with unless I like them or there’s a difference to be made. Being thoughtful and self aware about these things is wise I think.

far be it from me to tell anyone not to engage with content that bewilders and enrages them, but sometimes you gotta recognize when you’re doing self-harm by discourse

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Too many chimps, not enough bonobos.

i know that senseless violence shapes the world. i don’t have to accept that as a given forever. i don’t have to accept that as a good.

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Man, that’s a nice, mild meal to carry you over to a spicy volcano apocalypse

this slaps honestly

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Charcuterie boards get a lot of shit because they can be stupid expensive at restaurants or whatever, but a good homemade board of various shit is slap city. Fists full of nuts, cheese, meats, and fruit in countless combinations? I’m here for it man, you can play with flavors and a bunch of relatively simple ingredients become magical.

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i am no longer available for things that make me feel like shit

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Even with full express encouragement to rest and heal I find myself struggling to find some way to make it productive. I remember being young and playing video games without any motives of being better for it. Maybe the problem is I’m trying to effort my way into in effortless task, I’m gripping where I should release... Life will do it to you man. 

Does trying not to try equal relaxing?

Doing nothing allows our bodies and minds to have space! Sometimes my moments with nothing inspire reflection and motivation that I wouldn’t normally have.

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I love being alone and I always have, but some miracle I found my other and we can be alone together! She improves the quality of the solitude, which was already pretty dope. Don’t let people shame you for being solo, you don’t learn about yourself never being around that person you are. 

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I’m trying my best, but there’s so many astray competing with strange love pulls.

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Being from The United States and broke is kind of like having abusive, oddly wealthy parents who're addicted to meth. They don't really see you directly too much because of meth stuff, but when they do it's unsettling and damaging because of all the meth stuff.

If you could just get away you could feel for them, you could hope for them to recover and choose a different path, you could love them from a distance.

...But they cripple and damage you into a shape a little more like theirs, telling you that their ways are better and all the other shitty countries wish they could be exactly like them. They sabotage you and make it painful and risky to leave and then tell you "Just leave if you don't like it."

You end up broke and dying and hopeless and they tell you it's your fault because you either didn't do what they said, or you somehow did what they said the wrong way. Your entitled attitudes on healthcare and being able to pay rent every month is infringing on their meth stuff and you should just sacrifice more until you die.

I don't want to hate it here... I'm so tired.