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May 4th 2022

I am upset that I have to restart the 75 soft challenge. But when I got sick, I wasn’t resting my body like I should have been. I’m going to restart it Saturday! I’m so ready

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April 26th 2022

Of course I would start to get sick as soon as I wanna make my self feel better.

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April 25th 2022

I started the 75 day soft challenge. I added a few of my own rules to the challenge. One of them is journaling at last ones a day, even if it’s a word.

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I’m having baby fever but worse. Like yesterday, I cried in the shower for a good 15 minutes because we cannot afford or have the room for a baby.

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October 3rd 2021

Having a very off day. Everything I have put on has felt wrong. Like my skins just doesn’t know what it wants.

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September 19th 2021

I let it get to me yesterday. It was hard but I did it. I kept telling my husband that I wasn’t feel good but in honesty I was feeling depressed.

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September 17th 2021

Have you every felt your self slowly going into a depression episode? And you try your hardest to not let it take over because people count on you?

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August 29th 2021

My daughter want camping with her grandparents this weekend and honestly I’m regretting letting her go. When she got home, she didn’t even want me. She started crying when I picked her up to hug her. She wanted nothing to do with me. I would have rather given up my anniversary weekend.

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August 23 2021

I called my physical therapist and canceled all my appointment with them. I don’t want to fight with my grandmother anymore to wake up to take me. I don’t want to have to wake her up to watch my daughter.

I wish I didn’t get really bad anxiety while driving but I do. Every time I even get behind a wheel I tense up and almost cry. Even if I wasn’t, I wouldn’t have a car to drive. 

I’m just tired

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August 19th 2021

I never posted anything. I should have. It would had been a good day too. I was feeling something by the end of the day.

I’m not even sure what was wrong or what I was feeling. It was just a lot of everything. It was almost like I was feeling everything and it made me very tired. And that continued into today. Everything is just to much. 

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August 17th 2021

Started physical therapy today. my upper back is really bad, like it barely has any movement during some of the exercises. I have to go three times a week for the next four weeks. I was told that i was going to be feeling sore because of the “test” we did but I didn’t feel any different. I still have stuff that needed to be done. But I got the rest of the laundry done. My husband (Jason) started cleaning the room while I was at target.

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August 16th 2021

I was looking up the clothing sizes for my daughter and her height and weight are two sizes. My daughter is very tiny due to being a premature baby. Her height isn’t the bad, she is only two inches shorter then the average height of a two-year-old. I’m concerned that she isn’t gaining enough weight but her doctor is very happy with her growth and she is happy healthy toddler. 

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August 15th 2021

I feel like I’m constantly being put on back burner. I know I’m a mom and my number one priority is my daughter and I have no problem with that. But I still need to take care of my self too. I would think that my husband wouldn’t have a problem with me having a few hours of me time.

On Friday, I just wanted to do my nails, and as soon as I started he wanted to get a shower. Luckily my grandfather was home and watched my daughter while I did my nails. I finished my nails (maybe 30 minutes) he was still in the shower. We got into a big fight about it. I need me time to take care of my self. I’m not asking for a lot. 

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August 12th 2021

I have a journal I can use but I found using my phone to type the stuff out more convenient for me. Also when I was using a journal, my daughter would try and color in it.

I don’t know if I’ll post pictures or just write out post. Not really sure where this is going to to go but that’s the fun part.

I got an X-ray on my back and they don’t really see anything wrong with it. My spine has a slight curvature but it’s nothing serious. The doctor gave me muscle relaxer and I took one last night and it kind of helped. I only woke up three times in eight hours, unlike waking up twice every hour but there was still some pain.