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Evil

So much terror

So little kindness

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Kindness kneels

Evil is grinning with all its terrible teeth

And everyone smiles with it

The devil frowns upon you

You’ve lost him sleep

Because even when he fell from the sky

Never could he have imagined someone like you

Giggling as kindness kneels

I can’t sleep

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Man of terror

Tell me why the failed Adam you have made

With the body parts of work worth a thousand times your soul

Is more fantastical

More creative

Then a single

Unintentional

Speckle of dirt on a canvas

Perhaps it’s because that speck is real

It shows something, although I’m not sure what

A withering world

An inattentiveness

Something worth more than your sad faced creature

Gasping for air

Pleading to be killed as the fluid in its lungs prevents it from breathing

And yet you make more

And your Adams

As they die again and again

Will never replicate that speck of dirt

No matter how hard you try

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I feel the soft rain

Pattering on my roof

Seeping down to my door

I feel it on my bone

On what remains of my skin

It’s warm

Warm as life

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This man online

He typed a question

And sent it out

For the world to read

He sought the pain to end

His suffering to die

I wonder

As I search for the same question

If he ever found the answer

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Mister Reaper

I hope you’re kinder to me

I hope when I’m going

That you’ll hold my hand

Or carry me

I hope you won’t pull me

I hope you will lay me to rest

To sleep without sorrow

Life was too loud Mister Reaper

Cover my eyes

Ears

And mouth

Take me to sleep

Let me rest my head on mud

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I will never understand monsters

I will never understand how some bite

Some bark

Some whine

I will never understand how monsters could be like this

I could never understand how my horned head and my sharp teeth could resemble theirs

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You’re mistaken

I don’t hide in this rabbit hole

So that the other rabbits may not find me

No

They all are hiding with me

I’m here because

There is a fox

Pretending to be a rodent of some sort

Sniffing out my doorway

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My dearest

Do not fear me so

For I have known you since you were brought home

Swaddled and awaiting your crib

And you have known me for as long as you have known that you cannot see in the dark

You pretend to not know me now

You pretend that those twitches in the dark are a play of a mind

But we both know it is me

It is the thing that tried to hold you when you cried yourself to sleep

It is the thing that reached to your bed to pull the covers up on a cold winter night

It is me

The monster in the shadows

A blur in the dark with no face and no name

With no body to call its own besides my sad blur of raven

That you would hide from

I am still real my dearest

I'm sorry I have to remind you

I'm sorry that when you write of me your hands will shake

I'm sorry when I stare that you will never stare back

With the love I have for you

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A surgical tool

Made with the smartest of hands

Held by the smarter of hands

Cutting

Cutting

Cutting

For the first official time

Slicing

Slicing

Slicing

Through the skin

Thick and fat

And as I peel the cover back

How one would reveal a performer

Or an item of profound history and art

I see a pig’s heart

I see the intestines of a cow

The blood and flesh of every animal before and after us

Tucked away

Hiding behind a cover

To show that we are better

That we human’s outsides are supieror

Than the writhing squirming bunches in our body

In all of the bodies

I stitch the pig back up

And weep for my barnyard friend

He will stay ignorant to the fact that every other creature bleeds and writhes the same as him

But I know

I know that beyond our skin

We’re just stupid animals

In line for the slaughterhouse

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Do they see

Do they smell

Do they think

Do they know

Know what I am

What I did

What I do

And if so

Could they tell me

Could all these eyes

Grow mouths and speak

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I don’t like the way my skull feels

I don’t like the way it rests under my skin

Over my brain

I don’t like the way it caves in around my eyes and nose

I don’t like the way it it never moves

Never wavers

And if it did I would feel too much pain

To relish in the fact

That now it moves

It caves

It changes

It’s not stilling

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Dear mother

Why don’t you take me to the park

And when I scratch my leg will you kiss it better

Why don’t you carry me to bed

And when I tell you my secrets promise you will not judge

When I tell you of what bothers me

You will listen and you will change

When you talk of your friends

Why don’t you speak with fondness

And when you speak of your foes

Speak of them with indifference

Dear mother when I fight back against my kin

Why do you shame me so when you tear the hair of your sisters

When you have harmed my cousins

Dear mother why can I not play outside

Why can I not be cradled

Why must I run from you now

My brothers and sisters told me that you were the best

That my aunts and uncles would starve their children and beat them senseless

But that does not make you great

My dear mother why is it when I clutch onto your figure

Sobbing

Screaming

Begging you not to leave

Asking you to feed me

To kiss my wounds

To tell me I have done good

That you walk away

And why is it when in my last attempt I clutch your necklace

And you berate me as the faux pearls slip from the string

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A Giant

Cw For Megalophobia and lost sense of reality/se;f

I stay still

And I look

Not to the left

Not to the right

Neither up nor down

Forward or Back

I look a way not yet discovered by me

Or by mother

Or by father

Or by sister

Or by brother And I see something

The most terrifying thing

A woman

Who is more real than I am

A life I have lived a long time

Every love

Every loss

From the moment I took my first steps

Is faulty when compared to her

Every stretch of skin was more refined

Thousands of millions of trillions of detailed hairs each one so distinct I could tell them all apart

It’s fingerprints curved like great canyons

It’s eyes unmoving

Unwavering

It is realer than I am

It knows more

It feels more

It is more

It is not god

No

It is something else entirely

It is from a plane realer than ours

It towers

And I feel it staring even now that I no longer see it

It is more

It is so much more

And I am less

So much less than it

I am an ant 

It is a giant which cannot even see my conscious mind

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please do your part to end this genocide. please do your part to end this occupation. please don’t stop speaking up. palestine is no longer trending on here and i can see a steady decline in people interacting with posts as well.

please don’t forget that this isn’t a trend. these are people’s lives. this is about their rights. their freedom.

please keep speaking up. please remind everyone that it’s not over. that this isn’t the new normal. that this isn’t something we should just accept

this is unacceptable. please speak up against it. 10569 killed not counting the missing people under the rubble is a huge number. heck, even 569 would be huge. this is genocide. please speak up. please voice out.

donations are not helping them right now. but your voices will. your voices will amplify the voices of the palestinians being shut down by biased western media and propaganda. please keep speaking up on their behalf.

ways you can help

UPDATE ON THE SITUATION

SECOND UPDATE

more breaking news

more israel lies coming out

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Star

I am a star,

I am the first star

And I am the last star

Not the last to be made, or the last to be seen

But the last one glowing

The last one reaching out to the ends of the universe

Using my ever knowing and ever seeing eyes to take one final glance

Of the things i’ve made and now destroyed

I watched the glory of my birth effect everything 

I watched over billions of trillions of years

A time that cannot be put into words or thoughts

As every planet formed and died 

And as every star like me, every life, every galaxy started and ended like a story

There are many like you

Who believe they are the center of the universe

But it is me

You are a person on a planet in a solar system

The solar system is in a galaxy

Which is one of an infinite amount

Which surround me

Which watch me

But do not know that I watch them with more understanding than they know about the simplest of topics

Even giants, ones who could fit your whole planet in a single pore of their skin pale in size

They could not stand near me

They could only watch as they shrink and I grew

You cannot begin to understand your smallness

And irrelevance

How tiny you are compared to me

How small you are compared to those giants who cannot stand a trillion miles near my glow without becoming mere dust in space

You pale in comparison to your closest star. If you could see it closer your mind would flatten and die.

And I love you for it.

For you still find meaning while I fail to find my own,

And that is why I have abandoned you.

Left you at the edge of the universe

To be the last ones consumed

I will come soon.

But In that time you will change more in mind and body.

More than I have in an immeasurable amount of time.

I love you.