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hello esteemed friends i just wanted to let the followers here know that yes i am still in hard college coursework and it is not letting up at all. i am most often on my main blog (which is a multimuse) cataschism. i still don’t write often there as i am dying but i do rp memes and musing and stuff, i’ll see more messages, & discord is open to mutuals. i hope everyone is well !!

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back on here, going to try and reply to stuff intermittently today (maybe queue. or not. up to future me) now that my life is gonna be cooling down a little

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DON'T BE MAD AT ME ... I'M SO SORRY.

independent, adults-only (25+ as of 1.27.25), semi-private, non-fandom affiliated horror and video game focused multimuse heavily featuring nathan prescott, his father sean prescott, and mark jefferson.

also featuring muses frrom LIS 1 + DE, until dawn with a focus on josh washington, miles upshur from outlast 1, and new additions from lost records: bloom & rage. heavy crossover content for LIS-UD-B&R.

adult content + heavy trigger warning: MINORS DNI! this blog has an insane amount of trigger warnings. my pinned post goes over all of them.

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doing another one of these, lms if you want me to ask character development questions <3 im losing my mind in school but can't write yet <3

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if you ever try to send me a post for some godless reason tumblr on desktop won't load specific posts, so i have to find them via the blog. because god hates me

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🖤 or ↻ if you're interested in an ani-manga multimuse focused on canons from death note + kny. currently featuring yagami raito as the primary muse / main focus. written by hal, he/him, 32. blog is 25+ as of 2.11.2025, mutuals before this rule was enforced are exempt. yagami was est. feb of 2020 (you might recognize him from urls like namenoted). i also run pavlovianpanic. absolutely no minors. crossover, oc, duplicate friendly. rules on my pinned. this blog was formerly lifesliced.

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won't be here much today until the evening because i have a test and stuff, but my boss is leaving and i'm running our department on my own starting today (so excited, gonna do so much good stuff) so lmk if you wanna friend me on disco!!

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cont’d from. with @minglz.

In-ho’s duty as the Front Man meant, mostly, watching every intricate gear in the island turn and making sure it ran smoothly. Number one eighteen was a guard that was distant to his daily tasks and mainly unremarkable in their own. Often times, the guards’ numbers blurred to him, forming one giant pink collective that worked in synchrony.

This was dangerous. The ones you can forget are the ones you should keep an eye on. In-ho was one of those people. He used to be.

The rules were intricate for the guards, and for the main part, he didn’t know them. Going from player to staff, skipping guard duty entirely, put him in a dangerously unaware position. There’s never anyone good to ask, never anyone good to tell. I don’t know is a phrase you never want to admit to, in a place like this. 

Number one eighteen seems to know just that.

❛ Answer. What are you doing so far outside of your assigned room? It’s almost bed time. No one should be out. ❜

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in-ho save me from this test im gonna bomb tomorrow. in-ho save me

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wait me too

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Lee Byung-hun, as Hwang In-ho/Front Man/Player 001, in Squid Game Season 2 (2024).

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actually talking to my child made me remember this, but here's how i operate (and kind of always have) for roleplay: i have a lot of characters that outright would say no. however, the rule of improv is to say yes, and? basically, which (to me) means that, even if my character says no or would say no, i have to find a way to make them say yes, even narratively. say no aloud, do the yes via action, even if forced by circumstance or something else. i think it's really helped me always 'keep a thread going' when it should 'die' because ... i am in control, so i can always 'say yes, and?' so to speak, if that makes any sense?

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i've added one new aspect to my rules, nothing major: i won't ship in-ho in the way of dating. he will still obsess (with permission from the mun), and can be obsessed over, but directly romantic relationship shipping is contradictory to how i view his character and his arc, and will not be pursued.

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To want is a painful thing. It requires sacrifice and clouds one’s judgment beyond recognition. In-ho has managed to avoid it for eight years, separating all the gooey parts of himself from the form he wants to take.

He knows it eats Gah-mi alive.

It can be useful, then, to use Gah-mi in this way, but efficiency comes down to time. And In-ho doesn’t have time to quell inadequate behaviors when the attention provided isn’t enough. Gah-mi has a job to do, and In-ho thought he’d be busy enough to not have to think about In-ho while he’s working.

In-ho was wrong and remains wrong. The frustration gnaws at him, but a job must be performed.

❛ You aren’t focusing. Is something on your mind? ❜ In-ho doesn’t appear without his mask, if he can help it, on all official business. It also provides a degree of necessary separation. ❛ Your quota is lower than standard. Do you need a break? We can provide breaks, but you need to tell us. ❜ We can provide a replacement, In-ho is saying. There’s always a replacement. None so good as Gah-mi, but In-ho will do.

Closed starter for @deadbuys

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Salesman’s palms were sweaty and he felt a bead of sweat fall down his forehead as he made his way to his Frontman’s office. He sounded not too happy over the phone requesting his presence so the suited man did not think this would be a pleasant talk.

Finally after nervously making his way to the office he made it. He knocked on the door and was immediately told to come in. He did as told and walked in. He went over to his Frontman almost standing at attention, making sure to display professionalism and seriousness.

‘ ‘ Sir, you called me? ‘ ‘

He didn’t want to speak too much, feeling like it was more his place to get scolded rather than asking questions and speaking too much. He swallowed the thick lump in his throat hoping his Frontman would at least forgive him for whatever problem he caused. He hated when he was mad at him, it made him feel incomplete.

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in-ho’s response to that sentence @amhaengeosa

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ye-jun 🤝 in-ho

don’t fall in love with me i’ll throw up

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Curiosity gnaws through In-ho’s entire body, filling him with thorns that span the length down his arms and inside of his mouth. His face remains neutral as he looks at Ye-jun, keeping his head still even as Ye-jun tilts to look at him like a dog. He remains quiet as a point of authority against Ye-jun’s constant minute movements and humming, and still can’t stop the wave of emotion that passes over him as Ye-jun looks at his cheek. It brings a deeply suppressed feeling back to the surface—maybe anger, maybe shame, even eight years later, he feels the sting of Ye-jun's palm against his cheek.

In-ho won eight years ago, but that initial humiliation still bleeds. It’s why Ye-jun is the best. He haunts.

In-ho tries to remember the training that Il-nam gave him, some more recent than it feels. The art of begging. The play that makes players feel like they have to go, there’s no other choice than to go, and it’s their idea to do so. They may feel influenced by others’ decisions to go, but the fact remains the same: each player must decide to go back, and how you make it happen is an intricate maneuver they can’t be aware of.

In-ho must remember life is defined by rules. This is something with rules. Ye-jun is looking for rules. He is looking to In-ho what In-ho once looked to Il-nam for: structure. Something In-ho knows how to provide.

❛ He’s been chasing you for ages. He won’t tire, but we can’t let him get discouraged. If he doesn’t go, it’s not as fun. ❜ For who, In-ho wonders? The VIPs? They don’t remember Gi-hun’s name, and under those masks, it’s hard to tell if it’s the same ones three years ago, who would even remember the shock of Gi-hun’s final game.

In-ho was angry with Ye-jun for delaying the inevitable, but Ye-jun had been at this longer than In-ho has. He knew more about the desperate. In-ho weighs an apology in his mouth.

❛ Do you know where his songbirds will see you? ❜

the recruiter isn't alone in his decisions . while not playing a bold role in the misery that falls upon the players , he's often seen as the reason why they're dead ; you did this , you sent me to hell ! hwang inho was color among the black sea of faceless people , he was red , vibrant and vivid . yejun knew he was going to be the next winner the moment he saw the rage in his eyes the first time he slapped him ; body for money , pain , for money . if he was operating at a higher rank the recruiter , it was because his eyes were cold as mountains of ice - because he was calling him a dog . and it makes yejun smile , letting him grip his neck , hiss against his face and yejun smiles like a mad dog . pleased with being degraded , treated like a lap puppy . yejun was a shell now , physical and mental violence never succeeded to change his behavior . therefore , he doesn't pull himself away until the frontman lets go of him .

and he stands there with his jacket tilted and feeling the coolness touch his neck , where inho held before . ‘ the fox is trying too hard to get into the trap , sir . ‘ the fox , mister seong , who simply wouldn't stop wandering almost everywhere to find him . it's getting tiring now , the recruiter came here to ask for advice ; oh ilnam's death had dropped the business in the frontman's palms and yejun had no other choice but to come to him when the situation called for a more detailed and controlled solution . his head tilts like a confused dog , eyes glinting under the dim light of the black room . ‘ isn't that suspicious ? he hasn't even spent the money he won , he's obsessed with his mission to find me . and i presume it's not because he wants a date with me , sir . ‘ his eyes linger on the side of the frontman's cheek ; the same cheek he has slapped . a weird memory , something he never forgets . especially when he's grabbed and threatened like this . his voice lowers when delivering the next words ; ‘ i avoid him . i only play with treats that i'm given . and i tend to break them . ‘ his gaze lifts from inho's cheek only when he finishes his sentence .