didsystemvibes

[didsystemvibes]

About Me

Hello! My name is Evander, I am the host of this body. This is my second alt account, my main account is whaddupbaby and my witchcraft alt account is mysticalwitxh.

I have DID, this is why I made this alt account, so I don’t overload my other accounts with DID stuff. 

My whole family is manipulative. Narcissism runs in the male side of my dads family. My dad was my main abuser, even though his parents have had custody of me since I was like 3. Since I got away from him, no one else has stopped contact with him. They don’t like him, but almost none of the family deleted his number and stopped communications. My grandparents are now my main abusers. Although it doesn’t happen often because, I mean, cmon, How much abuse could weak 70 yr old's do to a strong 15 year old. Part of the reason the abuse stopped with them is because I never take them seriously and have quick comebacks to their bullshit. Most abuse now is them trying to manipulate me (Nice try, I work with demons and strong deities.). The abuse before though, the cops came frequently because I was having a panic attack and my grandfather would try to physically harm me and yell at me because I couldn’t breath and I was crying.

For the last 2 months everything has been 99% fine, and that is mostly because I learned how to use energy in my craft (I am a pagan witch) and my deities and the demons I work with, have helped me keep myself safe. One of them (Zeus...) angered my grandpa outside with the wind while he was working on the house. He kept blowing stuff away from my grandfather figure while I was watching.

As I said I am a pagan witch, so that is most of my personality. I like other things, but my day mostly consists of talking to the deities, a daily protection circle, and doing return to sender stuff. Since my relationship with my deities has been getting stronger, and I have to do return to sender stuff a lot because I get negative energy that isnt mine, my grandfather has been getting sick a lot and getting hurt because he is suddenly weaker. Karma bitch.

My alters are pretty cool, but I recently developed a new alter. She is a protector, because my main protector (reformed persecutor) has been getting overwhelmed and can’t be a good protector because of his mental health right now.  She is a violent protector. Not a persecutor, she is just on her villain arc. She is nice and all, but she is ready to stand up and fight at all times. Based on her song selection, she gives me God is a Women vibes. 

[didsystemvibes]

Ever just develop a alter who is on their villain arc?

Last night a new alter formed while I was in my headspace communicating with my alters. What happened, was a black shadow shaped like a person had a white question mark on the “face” of the shadow. It was teleporting around all of us, then left. we were all creeped out.

Now, just an hour ago, our legal guardian held off our coping mechanisms for stupid reasons. All we wanted was to get a notebook to write down our alters and mental health. It was healthy coping. But my legal guardian, who is my family, who is also one of my abusers, denied us the access to get that notebook from the store because of their cult.

 (I am not getting into that here, but basically my grandparents, legal guardians, whatever, are literally in a cult that they think is Christianity even though the bible is different, church is on Saturday, they have no building, its been 100 years since it was founded, and it was founded from a old man who said Jesus was resurrecting again very soon.)

Because they put off our healthy mechanism for a few hours, I was upset, but the rest of the system was enraged, even the littles where very upset. The new alter has been co-con with me all morning, I felt it, but they weren’t coming forward, and it didn’t feel like the main alters I have that like to front. So I just let it go.

Just now, she told me who she was. She is nice-ish, but she is a protector on her villain arc. By that I mean, she is a protector who is mischievous and ready to throw hands.

Recently, my protector (who used to be our persecutor) has been getting really fucking depressed. He is our only protector and he was getting overwhelmed. When I was in the headspace this morning, he did nothing but sleep, or hang onto random alters (mainly me, the host) and he was very groggy and didn’t talk much. I believe the new alter is here to help ease his load.

The new alter is not violent I don’t think, but she is a overbearing protector. What I got from her vibe so far, (and song choice, she was triggered by a song, thats how she finally told me her name) she is, nice, but she isn’t taking any bs. She will be nice if your nice, but she will stand up for our body and me immediatly. That is why she is here right now, because everyone was raging cuz we were being denied healthy coping skills. 

She gives me God is a Women vibes. Badass independent women vibes.

I will update about her personality. I think the villain arc is simply just because she got triggered by the systems rage. She might calm down later and be non...villainy but I’m not sure. She doesn’t give me the vibes of always dangerous. 

Anyway, yeah, ever just have an alter show up that is ready to fight everyone and everything?....in a non persecutor way?