dreamofmepleasedear

[dreamofmepleasedear]

people be like "omg i love your eyes, they're so pretty" and proceed to make sure that you lose the shine in them.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I give my secrets away to everyone i meet

Like little souvenirs, something to remember me by

The stranger on the bus, the girl in the bar, every boy I’ve ever loved

I tell them “take it, please. All i ask in return is that when you hold it, think of me”

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I look at your soft face and I know exactly how you feel. You hold your heart out to me, no inhibitions preventing you from giving it fully. You are kind to me, just because you are kind. You’re sweet and gentle and all things safe.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I forgave you in silence and unanswered prayers. I couldn’t bear the thought of showing proof, I won’t let anyone see the way I’d love you.

God, I would let you love me like a fire loves a forest.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

Loving you used to be the easiest thing I could do. It came to me naturally, like breathing. How do you unlearn that? Because you’re no longer here, but the love still is.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

btw I am doing it afraid

[dreamofmepleasedear]

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I am in my kitchen and I am falling in love again. Slower this time, more intentional. I see his smile flushed in the soft light from my stove and I think he’s someone I will love deeply, and someday I will tell him so. I still think of you sometimes, but the ache of your absence isn’t here right now. Not while the tea kettle is on and he’s spinning me around in the light from the stove.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

Sometimes the lonely ache of winter crawls into bed with me and I have no choice but to let it press its cold feet against my back

[dreamofmepleasedear]

It’s warmer now, May outside my window. The sun has come back like she always does. The days are longer now too, so i feel like i should be forgetting you. Because I knew you in the cold, our days filled with winter snow and tea that was too hot, it burned my tongue

You used to help cool it down for me

We sat in your kitchen, the early morning sun shining through your big windows. Your arm around me, my head on your shoulder. I remember thinking i wanted this to last forever, but you were gone before the spring.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

permit me voyage, love, into your hands (James Agee) Pride & Prejudice (dir. Joe Wright) Anna Karenina (dir. Joe Wright) Memories of Murder (Bong Joon-ho) In the Mood for Love (Wong Kar-wai)

[dreamofmepleasedear]

still loving someone who left you is like i miss you. i hate you. why haven’t you called? please don’t call me. i want to be around you. i don’t think i can look at you again. do you think of me? i’m only ever thinking about you. i want to forgive you. i don’t know if i can.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I’d die for you quietly, with only heaven as my witness. And when god asks why i would simply say, “because my love didn’t need to be proven to be real”

[dreamofmepleasedear]

the world is heartbreaking every day and the world is beautiful every day and we have to pay attention to both

[dreamofmepleasedear]

Text me when the ache of my absence stirs your heart.

[dreamofmepleasedear]

I slow down at the yellow light instead of rushing through

I have time this morning

The sunlight hits my face through the window

And for a moment I allow myself to miss you

But just until the traffic light turns green, and I keep moving

[dreamofmepleasedear]

when the thought of you

becomes too much

i close my eyes

and dream that

i belong to you

in the way the tides

belong to the moon