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New beginnings.

Yeah, it was long dued. I struggled A LOT with this blog: I were never satisfied or happy or anything, I couldn’t keep on posting and feeling so bad about my content... I thought about leaving for good but I missed the simblr community and sharing my “stories” with you so much that I understood I couldn’t leave... which is why I decided to create a new blog, start from scratch. I’m really attached to my new McKinnons babe, so I’ll continue with their story but with a massive time skip, just because I was sick of struggling with the storyline... so... yeah, here’s that. 

If you want to follow me, you can find me at my new simblr: http://novarue.tumblr.com/

I’ll probably hide this blog soon-ish, but I still wanted you to know I’m still alive and the reason behind my sudden disappearing.  Love you lots, thank you for sticking with me for so long and, hopefully, on my new simblr too!

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- They woke up few hours later, still hugging each other.

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I don’t know what you had in mind  But here we stand on opposing sides Let’s go to war

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With every battle we lose a little more Remember everything that we’d die for You are everything that I’d die for

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Showdown with the past, a past that was never let go of.  Showdown with secrets and hopes, for yourself, for the people you love.  Or this is what you tell yourself when you pretend to have moved on.

But what excuses will you find, when that past you tried to protect turns agaist you and destroys everything you’ve fought to build?

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There will be love, there will be pain There will be hope, there will be fear And through it all year after year Stand or fall I will be right here For you.

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Brindleton Bay, 7:23 am.

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#favoritemovietag

Soooo I finally managed to do this! I’ve been tagged my by babes @astrasouls and @recklessims!!

Rules: Using gifs, and without using titles, list your top ten favorite movies of all time. They don’t have to be in any particular order. Tag however many people you like.

I tag literally everyone guys I swear this is fun do it!! Also i’ll put the titles of the movies in the tags cause I’m a curious bean and I always struggled when I saw these around and didn’t know the titles so yeah well here they are

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Im sorry

Hi peeps, even if you probably forgot about me I'm still alive and well... I've been in a very bad place lately, especially regarding the simblr and the game. I almost deleted my blog like several times but luckily (I guess) I never did it so yeah... I'm still here. I wanted to apologize for this impromptu hiatus and also to my friends cause I've been quite the bitch in the last two weeks or so and well, I'm not easy to deal with sometimes and I'm so sorry they had to go through one of these phases (once again). I especially need to thank @recklessims, the ultimate sweetheart that today helped me put things in perspective and just pushed me to keep on posting (ilysm 💕).

So yeah, even if no one cares I'll be back soon and... I don't even know why I made this post tbh. Just know that I love you all and this place very much, even if sometimes it's a struggle to keep up with all the awesomeness I see here.

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Hi im Francesca and Queer Eye is killing my soul

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Nothing to add.

This will be my mood now and forever.

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I'm in love.

Up there, in the blue sky, their name, silver among the stars

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Hi peeps! No one will read this cause its like the worst time ever to write this BUT I'll be MIA for like a week cause... It's festival season!

See you all when I'm back 💕

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It can't rain all the time.

Unless you live in Brindleton Bay.

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- How can you look someone in the eyes, so blue and bright just like your own, and see their expression as you destroy their world too? As their curiosity turns into shock and then… acceptance?

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The house was quiet, the only noise Imogen heard as she woke up suddently in the middle of the night was Gandalf, lazily snoring at the end of her bed. She tried to go back to sleep but, somehow, she couldn’t. She took her fellow plushie Apollo and stealthily tiptoed to the kitchen… but as she arrived at the top of the staircase she stopped. Someone downstairs was sobbing. She held Apollo closer, cause if it could protect her at night, it could sure help whoever was feeling so much pain. He was her personal stuffed protector after all. But what she found in her kitchen left her speechless.

You don’t forget the first time you see your mother vulnerable. That moment when all her superheroine masks fall and you’re struck with the realisation that she’s a human being too, with flaws and weaknesses like everybody else. She’s not invincible. She can fake it, hide her uncertainties and pain behind a wall, but through its cracks pain leaks unrelentingly. So little and so powerless in front of such a profound grief, so boundless and deep that it was impossible for Imogen to understand it, to grasp whatever it could be about… but most of all. how to heal it. She tried so bad to understand, she wanted to make Brynn’s pain her own, just to see her her mouth curved into one of ther comforting smiles, just to be sure her bright blue eyes would have looked at her with joy again. She wanted her mom back. Imogen was scared. But it was a weird fear because usually you always detect what caused it in the first place… in that moment, she had no idea. She saw her mom like that and all she felt was fear. She really tried to get what was going on, she wanted to understand what mom was going through… but when she looked upon that grief’s edge, she saw everything she would have never expect from her mom: her past, her frustrations, fear of the future, lost relationships and friendships, that constant fear of never being enought, no matter how hard she tried. Imogen undestood the abyss’ extent, but she couldn’t jump in it and save her. She wanted, but she couldn’t, not yet. 

Brynn heard Imogen’s soft gasp and she lifted her head, looking at her daughter with watery eyes. When their gazes met, Imogen knew her mom was broken. Those big eyes, caught red-handed in their moment of weakness, a luxury granted by mistake, by exhaustion, certain they’ll never get caught. Imogen saw it clearly written in her distraught expression: “I let my daughter down”. Everyone knows moms always have to be there for you with the right answer, sure about what the next move shold be, with everything under their control…watching as the fear of not being enough for Imogen stabbed her mother brought her on the verge of tears. Back then she couldn’t understand why she wanted to cry so so bad… but now, she does.

“Mom, I’m just like you.“

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- How can you look someone in the eyes, so blue and bright just like your own, and see their expression as you destroy their world too? As their curiosity turns into shock and then... acceptance?