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“There are years that ask questions and years that answer.”

— Zora Neale Hurston; Their Eyes Were Watching God

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trying on identities and seeing what fits

i’m still fucking 19, nothing has to fit

embrace the fucking process

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Always last to leave the party, drugs rule everything around me. Wake up with new tattoos on my body, drugs rule everything around me. Hit the Goose, raise a toast, pop the molly. I can go toe-to-toe, like I’m Ali. We’re all trying to fill the lonely, drugs rule everything around me. D.R.E.A.M. - MILEY CYRUS

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One Shot: Proposal

I woke up excited for the day ahead. Today was the day, the day I was going to change my life forever, for the better.

Ever since I met her I knew I wanted us to end up here, together, and today it’s finally happening. 

I got dressed and while she was still sleeping I made sure everything was set for the day. After she woke up I told her to get dressed or we were going to be late for our celebratory breakfast, the 2 year anniversary of the first time we met. Little did she know. 

We got in the car. I think she was too busy making conversation to notice I was not taking her towards the office but actually in the opposite direction. We were going to my favourite spot, where my life had changed forever, where I met the single most important person in my life. That park had always been important for our relationship: where we met, where we said our first I love you and now it was going to be where I proposed. 

While I was parking she finally realised this was not the place we were supposed to go to. I told her I had a special surprise planned. I had one condition though, she had to keep her eyes shut until we reached the tree under which our relationship started and flourished. 

We walked for what seemed an eternity and finally I saw what my family had helped organise. Everything was perfect, I was ready. 

She opened her eyes and saw me kneeling on one knee and that’s when I opened my heart to her, speaking like I had never spoken before about all the reasons why I love her and why I want to wake up with her in my arms for the rest of my life. She is the single most important person in my life, and she is going to be wife. 

I had always thought I did not need other people to be happy, but that was before I met her. 

I never thought I could be saved, but to be honest I also never thought I could love someone this much. Little did I know.

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“I don’t know what I feel or what I want to feel. I don’t know what to think or what I am.”

— Fernando Pessoa (via quotemadness)

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“OH YOU WANNA FUCK HER!” - my friend in response to me saying i wanted to do more than just dress like Alice Smith

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you still have so many years to meet so many people you never knew you could love so much

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We don’t talk anymore, and the saddest part is, we used to talk everyday.

(via love-diaries)

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compulsory heterosexuality is Wild, like, i have spent most of my life fantasizing abt women, thinking about how girls were more .·*Aesthetically*·. pleasing than boys, having crushes on lots of fictional women, literally Never thinking about men & then i was like ‘’why do i have to like men, i wish i liked girls :\ that would be much better :\ but sadly, i totally like men, Right,,’’

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Dear future girlfriend

Hey darlin, man it’s been a while hasn’t it? I’m sorry about that. Life is getting pretty fucking crazy at the moment. There’s so much that I wish I could talk to you about. There’s this feeling I have in the pit of my stomach that I can’t even begin to describe, I can’t tell if it’s loneliness or what but it sucks. I’m sitting out by the water wishing you were here. But whatever it is you’re doing I hope you’re enjoying it because you deserve it. The more I sit here and think it’s the little things I can’t wait to do with you. I can’t wait to go grocery shopping together, just drive around, sit here by the water in silence and just enjoy life, or hell even sitting in traffic. It’s the little things that just make me happy. When you’re here to do them with me I know it’ll be even better because how much more amazing could it be to already do the things that make you happy with the person who makes you happy? I think it’s gonna be pretty great to be honest. I think I’m going to take you here on our first date. It’s just so peaceful and amazing I think it’ll be pretty awesome cause we could just sit and talk and really get to know each other. I just can’t wait for all the things we will do together. Life is going to be so grate once you’re in it. I’ll be here waiting for how ever long it takes for you to come into my life. Until then I hope life is going well for you and always try and smile and see the best of things cause life isn’t always going to be so bad I promise. Well until I write again, love always

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Mi fantasía sexual favorita es pasar 24 horas seguidas sintiéndome bien.