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So glad I can say kill on tumblr so I can say, between the cancelation of Inside Job and Infinity Train, I think we need to start going to streaming executives houses and killing them.

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WHAT THE FUCKIGN HELL

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heard porn bots might be following you guys again. sorry about that. but in some good news i have been gaining many new followers who are real stunningly beautiful women. welcome ladies :)

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Wtf is tumblr live?

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okay i can understand why people are mad about the dead to me ending but like...to me it was full circle about a show about grief and the circle of grief? the show was always about death and the rippling aftermath of death?

i mean, sure, it was also about women doing crimes and cop dodging, but the main plot is not always the theme, the theme was always death and grief and the circle of life and death and how everything is a circle

and knowing a queer woman wrote it makes me a lot more okay with the bury your gays trope because it's written by a queer woman? it sucks, sure, to watch another queer character die, but queer people are allowed to kill queer characters to tell the story they want to tell.

i think this was always where the story was going; full circle back to the beginning, where jen just lost a partner, and has to find her way in a new life. except now she has... more. she was lost before, but judy brought into her life the tools to deal with this next cycle of death and grief. she helped her become a better mother, a better person, a better friend. she helped her family through grief. she equipped her for the path forward. that's the message. you can't run from death, you can't escape it, you cant will it away through anger and determination, sometimes you have to accept it and instead ask, "What did the life bring me?"

jen went full circle because that's the story, and as much as i wanted those two women to fall in love, raise a baby together, and live happily ever after, that was never what the show was about. as ted dies, a new life (judy's partnership) begins. as judy dies, a new life (joey) begins. as the story ends, a new one begins (will ben forgive her).

as devastating as judy's death is, it isn't a surprise.

the show is called dead to me, after all.

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first off they are cute af second wtf that makes me so sad damn 😓

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Delete dating apps so i can meet people the old fashioned way (you killed my cheating husband and i killed your asshole ex boyfriend)

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DEAD TO ME 3.05

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a fictional man: *is kinda fucked up*

me: i want him so bad

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“this character is not canonically bisexual” to YOU. i know them personally

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I haven’t opened this app in a while, but I knew you heathens would have the best reaction

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why are you celebrating someone's death?

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When I realized pre-packaged food was for me, my entire outlook on life changed.

Let me explain.

I remember walking through the grocery store with my mother as a teen and her making a bitter comment about how everything had more packaging now. De-shelled hard boiled eggs in plastic, cut fruit, pre-portioned salads, all of it was "laziness" to her. She insisted people were getting lazier to the point where if my brother ate pizza from the fridge, she would chastise him for not heating it. She would say "you deserve warm pizza" as a way of saying you should do something the "right way" because it's worth doing.

This isn't because my mother had no concept of people with disabilities, she is disabled herself. However, in raising me, she taught me to hide that disability, to try to be on everyone else's level so we aren't seen as weaker. That laziness is worse than being disabled and there's simply no excuse for taking shortcuts. I don't think she intended to teach me this, but her own internalized ableism was so loud.

When I became an adult, I realized I hated cooking. The prep was tedious, I almost always have dishes in the sink, there's cleanup after, my back hurts, my eyes burn, it's too hot and in the beginning, I got overwhelmed to the point of crying. Leftovers were almost never eaten becuase heating them up (the "correct" way to eat them) was an extra step that made me not want to put the effort in. I thought I was lazy and felt ashamed when I wanted something to eat but couldn't bring myself to make it.

At some point, I finally said "I'm tired. I don't care how much packaging it is, I don't care how lazy it is, I'm going to get meal kits."

It was life-changing. Dinner takes 30 minutes to make. Everything is portioned. The directions are clear. I don't hate it anymore. I want salads in bags. I want eggs that don't take three steps to eat. It's not laziness, it's accessible! I don't have to make a meal, I can eat the raw vegetables, have pasta with butter, eat a granola bar! There's no right way to feed myself!

I made things SO HARD on myself because I wasn't acknowledging my disability or my depression and they didn't need to be hard! I didn't need to go around the store saying "is that really necessary?" Because it IS necessary for me! It's brilliant! It's so helpful!

Accessibility takes so many forms and overcoming internalized guilt for not being able-bodied or mentally well enough to handle tasks other handle easily is incredibly freeing. Obviously I'm lucky to be in the position to have this option avaliable to me, but I kept myself from it for far too long.

I do deserve warm pizza. I can have it delivered.

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we seriously need to bring back the concept of “despite its flaws i still enjoy it” instead of ‘cancelling’ every fuckin thing in sight 

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now why are they shortening the notes