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forgedmask:

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“Do you think I look evil like this, Chouko-chan?” He can’t stop thinking about it..

   “ I don’t think so-- Maybe if you.. put on dark makeup and stopped smiling or something.. I think you look.. cool -!! “

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kyomus:

his parental instincts kicked him in his gut as he noticed a rather young lady walking alone. there were all sorts of predators out at night. mosquitos mainly was what sorin feared at this hour but of course he was also thinking about unwanted creeps. oh– he wasn’t one them though! a hum followed by his fingers lightly tapping at her shoulder.

   ‘ excuse me dear, but why are you alone at this time of night? ‘

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 she couldn’t say she had a real reason she was outside. maybe it was because it had been so quiet lately at home. everyone seemed to be preoccupied with other things and she’d rather just. . .

   she stepped forward, spinning around in a somewhat confused manner as she was tapped.

  “i was just taking a walk-- i-i was planning on going home pretty soon-” 

          This guy wasn’t going to kidnap her or anything, right?

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aiionia:

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“have you…ever thought of wearing glasses? i think they would look nice on you.” he pulls out a pair of pink rimmed glasses and held them out to her. “would you try these on?”

   a look of confusion crosses her face as she stares at the glasses before looking up at the random male who was speaking to her. “m-my vision isn’t bad though-”

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And now I try hard to make it I just wanna make you proud I’m never gonna be good enough for you I can’t pretend that I’m alright And you can’t change me ‘Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be perfect Now it’s just too late And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Perfect, Simple Plan (via arsonbabe)

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I hate myself for this. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't make this right. I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry. This isn't you. This is me not being okay. I miss you. I'm so sorry.

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ofeggc:

     “What if I’m never allowed in the kitchen even after I grow up? Can I at least boil an egg…?”

   “What if you make the entire house explode..”

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rcjikku:

          “ don’t say those things. ”

     her voice was stern but there was no bite to her words. carefully, she let go of the other and held her face up to face her. her words had to get through, they had to. chouko depended on her to get her through this. she couldn’t do that if she was blaming herself.

         “ you were never bad. you are the kindest girl i knew. you couldn’t have done anything and i died on my stupidity. i messed up and i got myself killed. it wasn’t your fault. never think it was your fault. ”

     with that, she quickly held her one more, a bit tighter than before.

    She doesn’t understand, why doesn’t Ruri get it? Ruri was the one who always got it. She was supposed to understand and help her and she isn’t, Ruri’s being weird, she’s trying to convince her everything will be ok and that’s wrong, that’s terribly, horribly wrong.

             “W-Why does it matter whether I was kind or not..? You’re dead and I’m alive and that means there’s something I could’ve.. Should’ve done that I didn’t do-”

          She had promised herself, hadn’t she? The first time she’d woken up and seen her mother dead and herself alive, that the next time someone precious was in danger, she’d make sure they’d be the one to survive.

                                         “They.. We.. We can’t.. Function without you..”

                         She didn’t bother reaching a hand up to wipe her tears, choosing instead to stay in this embrace for as long as she could, because she’s scared the moment she lets go, the other will vanish.

Could I be enough?

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rcjikku:

   carefully, she rubbed the other’s back hoping to calm her down. seeing her like this broke her heart. to see her basically trying to convince herself that it wasn’t real was enough to make her want to cry. even though she was just made up in the other’s head, she still hurt for her. leaning back, she smiled a sad smile.

 “ i’m so sorry, chouko…i’m so sorry i left you. ”

    moving back her hair, she placed a small kiss on her forehead.

    Arms wrapped tightly around the figure she swore was in front of her, sobs heaving through her body as she helplessly clung to the other.

                “D-Don’t be sorry, ju-just come back.. I-I’ll be good this time, I promise- A-And I’ll n-never ever let anything get to you u-unless it goes through me first a-and-- a-and--”

          She can not shake the thought in her head that there was some way she could have helped Ruri stay alive, she could have been in her place, she could have done something, anything- But she is still here and somewhere inside her she knows that Ruri really never is going to come back, and she can’t find it in herself to accept that. Accept that yet again, the person most important to her has disappeared. Maybe it’s her. Maybe she’s cursed. 

        “P-Please don’t leave us.. I-I’m sorry-” 

             She’s shaking so much she can barely speak, but eyes drift helplessly to look at the other girl’s.

Could I be enough?

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rcjikku:

        “Hey, Chouko.”

    The leader walked over and wrapped her arms around the other. Truly, she was just an apparition, a figment of the other’s mind but that didn’t mean she had ill intentions. No, she was there to help the new leader find her way. Even if she was just created from memories she had of the long gone messiah. 

         “Everything going alright? You look upset.” 

   Unsure of what to do, Chouko just stood there, staring at the other, inhaling deeply as she looked at her. 

                     “Ruri-- Ruri--” Her name passed Chouko’s lips, eyes brimming with tears as she returned the embrace as tightly as she could, burrowing her face against the other- Of course ! Of course she would never die- She wouldn’t just leave Chouko and the squad like that, she was their beloved leader after all-

       She smiled weakly, just holding on tighter to the other girl, voice almost weak. “I’m ok now- I’m ok, I think I was just having.. I don’t even know how-” She let out a short laugh, taking a deep breath afterwards. “I.. I somehow thought you went and died and left us without you-”

Could I be enough?

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rcjikku:

    she hugged back just as tight, a sad sigh fell from her lips. of course she had thought it was a dream…with her here to help as much as she could, it was to be expected. gently, she rubbed small circles on her back to try and calm her down. it was cruel for the real ruri to leave chouko like this, but she didn’t have much say in when death should come, did she?

        “ i’m sorry, chouko… i am dead. i’m so sorry….”

  Her grip tightened, a firm shake of her head being her only response for a bit. No, she was lying- Obviously, this was some kind of joke- It had definitely been a joke, or a nightmare, nothing but a figment of her twisted imagination that Ruri was dead, because Ruri would never, ever,  have just left Chouko on her own without her- She’d promised.. So long ago, to take care of Chouko-

               “You aren’t.. Y-You can’t be.. I don’t want you to.. Please don’t say you are, Ruri-”

Could I be enough?

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Could I be enough?

  Chouko has been.. Out of it for around three months. It was hard, keeping yourself together when someone you’d look up to and adored since you were little, was suddenly gone. This was twice now, that her ‘mother’ person had vanished, and it scared her, that they had died but she hadn’t. She was trying to step up and be the leader to the rest of the dan, but it was hard, pretending that she was strong enough or half as good enough to live up to Ruri.

       Seeing what she couldn’t help but think was the frame of the other girl, she froze, eyes widening as a look of confusion crossing her face. Fingers trembling slightly she lifted her fingers in an uncertain manner, looking at the vision in front of her. “R-Ruri..?”

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“I think you still look nice though-” Bizarre because she wasn’t used to it, yes, but it !! Wasn’t like he looked bad or anything when he looked normal- She blinked quietly, shifting from side to side slightly. “Would you like some company--” She was kind of.. Bored- She wanted to go too, but only if he was ok with it, of course.

“What I mean is I am not in my natural garment so I feel out of place.”  His arms cross against his chest as a sigh fell from his lips. He found being like this a bother. ( this look didn’t make him interesting at all. ) Prometheus looked down at Chouko. “Ah? I need to go buy supplies, and fix the clothing. It tore. “

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“But you’re wearing clothes--” She recognizes the voice and his general features, but indeed, it does seem a little odd to see him without his customary clothing and that white hair that she had come to associate with him. “How come you aren’t dressed up today-??”

“I feel naked.” Without his costume on that is. He had accidentally tore the pants so he had to go out and get supplies to fix that. As well as he wanted to get a new wig. His other one was becoming too much of a pain to deal with.