hypercrybaby

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “And who got pretty nice ugly cuts on the face, or his arms destroyed, or who got destroyed at not even half my power.”

-- I wouldn’t be here if you actually destroyed me, so, it doesn’t count. Anyway! I’m not as weak as back then.

You look so fragile, like a tower of cards. I guess is not that fun to be weak, huh? (@hypercrybaby)

- “Nope but it’s about to return to normal…”

M!A ends!

A shockwave of raw power burst out of it cracking the whole place further as his muscles had their normal shape and volumes again.

- “Urahaha! See? I told ya~”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “In your dreams weakling.”

-- The “weakling” who mangled your face once?

You look so fragile, like a tower of cards. I guess is not that fun to be weak, huh? (@hypercrybaby)

- “Nope but it’s about to return to normal…”

M!A ends!

A shockwave of raw power burst out of it cracking the whole place further as his muscles had their normal shape and volumes again.

- “Urahaha! See? I told ya~”

[hypercrybaby]

– I see. I was afraid of send you flying away with a sigh.

You look so fragile, like a tower of cards. I guess is not that fun to be weak, huh? (@hypercrybaby)

- “Nope but it’s about to return to normal…”

M!A ends!

A shockwave of raw power burst out of it cracking the whole place further as his muscles had their normal shape and volumes again.

- “Urahaha! See? I told ya~”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “I am… It’s the sad truth but it serves nothing to lament on it right…? However if that make people happy and serves justice I’m ready to do or support everything they will ask of me…. I know I hurted you….do you wish to avenge yourself….?”

-- ... What’s even the point? I literally asked you to hurt me. It was a fight to prove myself, remember? ... I don’t even know what I want anymore. Being evil and kill and torture innocents for fun? I’m tired of that. Being the “nice and weak Asriel Dreemurr”? I’m also sick of that! I can’t even help anyone.

Anger and grief is growing inside him.

-- ... And I don’t want to hurt you.

Is something wrong? Some "flower" told me you were acting weird... (@hypercrybaby)

- “Oh? Howdy Asriel! How are you? I do feel different, but it’s fine really. Hmm also if there’s anything you desire out of me I will do it. So how may I help you?”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “Like someone like me deserve happyness? No! Not after what I did! The past….the past is the past is a sentance that can’t fit me as all my life was build around it! I’m a shadow of the past, I belong to the past, I must be judged from what I did!”

- “I don’t care how you feel……well…I’m gratefull….but all of what I did can’t be forgiven simply because it’s the past! Would you forgive a rapist simply because it would have been long since they did it? Plus I’ve did bad things recently too….. No….this formula FAIL with me!”

Hyper was right in there, and that’s the sad truth. Genocide can’t just only be forgotten, or forgiven... Asriel was never good at cheering up people, and this is the proof of it.

-- ... You are right, then.

He couldn’t say anything else. What he could say anyway? That he deserves that hatred as much Hyper does? Pity is the last thing he needs.

Is something wrong? Some "flower" told me you were acting weird... (@hypercrybaby)

- “Oh? Howdy Asriel! How are you? I do feel different, but it’s fine really. Hmm also if there’s anything you desire out of me I will do it. So how may I help you?”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “I despite my old self, I despite myself, I despite everything I am! A shame he had to rather this useless version of myself. A shame anyone did! I deserve only one thing….hatred.”

-- Just like all “Gods of Hyperdeath” around there. I used to think they way you do, until I grew tired of my self-depreciation.

-- The point is... the past is past. Is the “present” what it matters... instead of thinking of being hated by everyone, you could instead do something to be happier.

Is something wrong? Some "flower" told me you were acting weird... (@hypercrybaby)

- “Oh? Howdy Asriel! How are you? I do feel different, but it’s fine really. Hmm also if there’s anything you desire out of me I will do it. So how may I help you?”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “Maybe? Who cares…..I don’t…..”

-- “You don’t”? For some reason, my flower self seems to miss your “old self”. I don’t know why... I used to be an strange little flower.

Is something wrong? Some "flower" told me you were acting weird... (@hypercrybaby)

- “Oh? Howdy Asriel! How are you? I do feel different, but it’s fine really. Hmm also if there’s anything you desire out of me I will do it. So how may I help you?”

[hypercrybaby]

-- Are you sure you are fine? Isn’t someone manipulating your behavior?

The change is a big surprise for him.

Is something wrong? Some "flower" told me you were acting weird... (@hypercrybaby)

- “Oh? Howdy Asriel! How are you? I do feel different, but it’s fine really. Hmm also if there’s anything you desire out of me I will do it. So how may I help you?”

[hypercrybaby]

Now in semi-hiatus. Working in new icons~

NO. They aren’t free to use. NEVER.

[hypercrybaby]

Sadly, I must go throught anoter hiatus… my computer died.

[hypercrybaby]

on selectivity & why being selective or private is not the same as “elitism”:

selfindulge:

there are a few other posts like this out there but this became relevant & i felt the need to do a small write up on this.

if you’ve been in indie rp long or even just a little while it’s likely you’ve seen the words “selective” and / or “private” ( sometimes both at the same time ) floating around. if you’ve been in indie rp long then you’ve also probably seen the word “elitist” floating around as well, often times when describing specific rpers or fandoms that are particularly selective & / or private. 

some people might not know what this means but here’s a run down of how i have seen most people describe it:

selective:

can be choosy with who they choose rp with

private:

only roleplays with mutual followers ( meaning they follow their rp partner and their rp partner follows them )

BEING SELECTIVE AND / OR PRIVATE IS NOT THE SAME AS ELITISM.

it’s understandable that some people may take it as a personal slight when an rper who is private & / or selective chooses not to rp with them, but don’t be confused. it isn’t. selectivity is not elitism. elitism in the way it is most commonly used by people in the rp community tends to paint roleplayers labelled it as “snobbish” aka: “one who despises, ignores, or is patronizing to those they consider inferior”. 

selectivity can come across as being ignoring of those who are “inferior” but the truth of the matter is more often than not the selectivity of a particular roleplayer or fandom has more to do with the any number of the following:

they have had bad past experiences and retain selectivity in order to keep themselves safe & comfortable

they have anxiety 

they have a lot of followers and therefore a lot of potential threads & are attempting to keep things orderly & under control as to not become overwhelmed

they prefer an uncluttered dash to keep anxiety at a minimum

they have anxiety & prefer to stay within a certain group of people because it helps them feel safe & comfortable

they have trouble maintaining muse if their writing doesn’t mesh well with the other person

they have trouble maintaining muse if they feel they can’t get along with the other mun ooc

so basically what i’m saying is writers are selective & private NOT because they feel you are inferior or are “elitist” but because:

roleplaying is a hobby

selectivity helps keep that hobby fun, safe, comfortable & easy to maintain for them

IT IS RARELY IF EVER a personal slight against you or because they do not like you specifically. it is almost always because of one of the reasons listed above. selectivity helps maintain an individuals rp space safe, fun, comfortable, a hobby what roleplaying is.

please stop making those who are selective & / or private feel guilty for maintaining these things. being turned down to roleplay with someone can be disheartening but in my experience it is rarely a personal slight against you and can be for any number of reasons outside of it. making that roleplayer feel guilty for turning you down is a manipulative and not good thing to do and is actually more than likely a part of WHY so many roleplayers are selective & / or private. making people feel guilty for maintaining their hobby and keeping it a hobby for them kind of defeats the purpose of roleplay. 

additionally, NO ONE OWES YOU AN EXPLANATION for why they do not want to write with / follow you. i understand that can be a hard pill to swallow but more often than not in my personal rp experience, explaining to someone why i do not want to write with / follow them has led to unnecessary drama or them being unnecessarily rude about it when i have been nothing but polite. you are not ever owed an explanation for why these things are. explaining those things can cause those rpers unnecessary anxiety, stress, & drama that– once again– makes roleplay less of a hobby than it should be.

people have the right to not want to roleplay and / or follow you. the sooner you accept that that is not against you personally, the easier this hobby will become, trust me.

additionally, even if people don’t like you specifically or your writing that is THEIR OPINION which they are entitled to & which may impact whether or not they want to write with you & that still doesn’t really make them elitist, it just means they have a personal preference that you don’t fit. it might be a hard reality check, but roleplay doesn’t revolve around you or me or anyone. all of us will be faced with people no matter who we are who do not like our writing, our choice in muse, our characterization, who we are ooc,  AND THAT IS PERFECTLY HUMAN & OKAY. if that happens, you are still not allowed to make them feel guilty for that. actually, you’re allowed to, no one can stop you, it just still doesn’t make it any less inappropriate for you to make people feel bad about their preferences or get haughty about it and label it “elitist” because god forbid someone doesn’t like you or your writing or is selective in a way that excludes you.

the bottom line is — selectivity is for comfort, safety, & to keep things fun. whether a selective rpers choice not to roleplay with you is because they don’t like you specifically or not doesn’t matter. it doesn’t make it elitist. and it is NEVER appropriate to make people feel guilty over these things.

guilt tripping & starting conflict over selectivity does not help things. it makes people feel guilty, it actually contributes to that selectivity, it’s petty and  it causes anxiety & unnecessary stress to a HOBBY ( god how many times do i need to remind people this is a hobby and not a job ).

something that’s ESPECIALLY important is that seeing as selectivity can many times directly tie in to an individuals mental health ( re: anxiety, depression, etc. ) guilt tripping is ESPECIALLY bad & can have severely negative impacts on those things. ignoring this is a really crap thing to do & hurts a lot of people & just in general perpetuates some nasty things. selectivity can be a tool to help with anxiety and depression as well as other mental health things that impact how people roleplay and spend their time here. guilt tripping applies to that in really bad ways and, again, calling selectivity “elitist” applies to those things as well. something i wish more people would keep in mind.

FURTHERMORE, HOWEVER, YOU ARE NOT OBLIGATED TO ANYONE’S TIME. NO ONE IS OBLIGATED TO ROLEPLAY WITH OR FOLLOW YOU. DON’T MAKE PEOPLE FEEL BAD ABOUT THESE THINGS IT’S NOT COOL.

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “I’m only telling you to do like your best friend, aren’t they always right? I do know they where much wiser than most of my alternates, and I think it would be wise to not care about me either….”

He put a paw where his missing locket used to be and sighed heavily. He whiped his tears once more.

- “I hate pity, and I’m a jerk so why not simply treat me like I derserved to be treated? I don’t understand….”

-- Stop with your martyr complex. I’m helping you because I want to and nothing else. If you deserve it or not, I couldn’t care less.

He noticed the way Hyper’s paw rested over his chest, where a locket would be. Probably someone took it away from him, or it got lost.

-- This is not pity. I just want you to be fine.

Howdy Hyper. It seems like you are having troubles with the gray people known as "Anonymous"... (@hypercrybaby)

He stopped giggling to himself after a while and was just sitting there now, sniffing, sobbing and crying. Today had been rougher than usual for him, and boy he didn’t expect that last question at all (the one with that almost M!A). He didn’t want to show his alternate his tears beeing a huge humilation for him but…well it was too late now……..

- “H…..h-howdy………………w-what do you want…? *sniff*”

[hypercrybaby]

thesoulsurvivors:

[Next thing you know, Flowey pops up out of the ground. Looks like he brought Sans with him.] Flowey: “Looking for a Quest? Nice! Better get your bags packed, ‘cause we’re about to have an adventure!” Sans: “Don'tcha mean you’re gonna have a Bizarre Adventure?” Flowey: “Thanks for killing the moment with your terrible JoJoke…”

Sans and Flowey?... great. Just great.

-- Another of my alternates and... Sans. Is strange to see you together, but I´m too bored to decline your “kind” offer. What is this quest about? Kill a dragon? Retrieve a legendary object? 

[hypercrybaby]

-- When was the last time I had an interesting quest or something like that?

@thesoulsurvivors

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

He sniffed several times sitting there before standing up and whiping his tears. He stared down at the ground for a moment, then took some steps forward before addressing Asriel again.

- “Why do you care? Why are you trying to help me? I’m just a crybaby…..Chara hate crybabies……so why don’t you hate me too and leave me alone….?”

-- I’m not Chara.

Asriel said that last sentence in a more aggressive tone, almost as if he were offended or something. It took him a few seconds to calm down and continue.

-- ... What I mean is, I don’t hate you, and I neither tried to offend Chara or something.

Howdy Hyper. It seems like you are having troubles with the gray people known as "Anonymous"... (@hypercrybaby)

He stopped giggling to himself after a while and was just sitting there now, sniffing, sobbing and crying. Today had been rougher than usual for him, and boy he didn’t expect that last question at all (the one with that almost M!A). He didn’t want to show his alternate his tears beeing a huge humilation for him but…well it was too late now……..

- “H…..h-howdy………………w-what do you want…? *sniff*”

[hypercrybaby]

wocxdid:

- “Hehe…nothing *sniff* m-much….I just realised that even if one day I manage to die it would be to only go in hell for my crimes, that even if I had the power to bring back the one I miss the most it would mean even more pain for me…that just…..no matter what I do I…….”

He smiled and chuckled bitterly before whipping the tears flowing from his eyes, they stopped but his eyes stayed pretty wet….

- “I-I’m cursed….I……….I think it was that moment when I b-betrayed Chara but…..I realised that no matter what I’ll do from now on it….i-it won’t change anything…..”

- “I’m already broken…I tryed to kill myself many times before and failed…I hahaha, I keep myself from becoming crazy w-with pain, I-I keep hurting other b-because I have no other choices, I a-am constantly devoured by m-my Love I….”

He laughed suddenly closing his eyes and joining his paw together clenching them hard enough for the blood to stop circulating in them or struggle to do so.

- “I….I….I’m in p-p-p-pain and i-i-i-t’ll never stop hehehehehehehehe n-n-n-never…..”

Tears where flowing from his eyes once more as he smiled while greeting his teeth in pain. He wished he was never borned…

That seems to be a common thing between some “Asriels”, every himself went through a similar breakdown long time ago, just after a great fight with another alternate... but seeing Hyper like this, just after the fight they had, was kind of heartbreaking.

He couldn’t think in any words of comfort or some speech to lift his spirits, and he wouldn’t pretend he could magically cure all his grief... however, he still could try to do something.

Asriel sits by his side.

-- ... Let’s go somewhere else, and do something entertaining. It may help you.

Howdy Hyper. It seems like you are having troubles with the gray people known as "Anonymous"... (@hypercrybaby)

He stopped giggling to himself after a while and was just sitting there now, sniffing, sobbing and crying. Today had been rougher than usual for him, and boy he didn’t expect that last question at all (the one with that almost M!A). He didn’t want to show his alternate his tears beeing a huge humilation for him but…well it was too late now……..

- “H…..h-howdy………………w-what do you want…? *sniff*”

[hypercrybaby]

-- I was bored in my timeline, so, I decided to visit you... and you clearly aren’t doing very well.

He approaches to his alternate.

-- What happened, exactly?

Howdy Hyper. It seems like you are having troubles with the gray people known as "Anonymous"... (@hypercrybaby)

He stopped giggling to himself after a while and was just sitting there now, sniffing, sobbing and crying. Today had been rougher than usual for him, and boy he didn’t expect that last question at all (the one with that almost M!A). He didn’t want to show his alternate his tears beeing a huge humilation for him but…well it was too late now……..

- “H…..h-howdy………………w-what do you want…? *sniff*”