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reblog if you wear glasses. too many mutuals don't know they have glasses wearers in their midsts

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If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading

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I wonder, really wonder, how that girl who's loved by everyone thinks?

Because, personally, I really want to be that girl, the girl who's basically sunshine, the girl who brings happiness wherever she goes, who is loved and adored by everyone.

Not the type that is egotistical and acts innocent to get their love, but the one that resembles a people pleaser, that makes compromises to make the people she loves happier.

I wonder, because I wish to be that girl, but never really understand how.

I wonder, because I want things in life, I have my own goals.

I wonder, because I know myself, know that I won't give up time spent working on myself to go help a friend or family in need.

I wonder, because I am selfish.

I wonder, how can the girl who is the embodiment of selflessness not lose herself?

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I desperately long for someone who prioritises me, someone who understands, and loves me despite my all my flaws because God, it's such a long list, I wouldn't be able to warn my future lover, if they exist, about all my flaws.

I want my future lover, to love all my flaws, so much to romanticize them, to love them as if they were benefits.

I want my future lover, to caress me when I want for love, and to understand when I am in one of my moods.

I want my future love to choose me, always, no matter who's in front, because that's what I want.

I want a future lover, yes lover, because that bond, that priority will never be given to me unless it's a lover. And even.. even if I find that lover, who knows if they will be all I want them to be?

But, that love, that I seek, won't ever come from friends, won't ever come from family.

Just single girl thoughts. Just thoughts of a girl who has too much time on her hands.

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Haven't posted in a while, was having fun with family for diwali

Just read first book of twisted, anyone up for discussion about it?

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I just had such such good food. Good food, good life.

Looking pretty cute too.

I'm at a spa day with my bonus mom, and we're going shopping with my dad later.

So so so much fun

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I'm finally on vacation!!! 🥳🥳🥳

I'm in such a dilemma, do I eat whatever I want? Or restrict cause I don't want to gain weight?

Anyways, I'm going to forget studying, and make detail plans about the next few months after my vacations are finished. Cause that's what an overthinker does.

Planning is so much more fun and aesthetic then doing.

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Yesterday was one of my favorite voice actor's birthdays. ~Idk if that sentence if grammatically accurate~

Happy belated birthday Nobuhiko Okamoto

Many many happy returns of the day, and thank you for bringing alive many of my favorite characters.

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Haven't... studied. Am about to start I guess..

Crying cause I sabotaged myself. I have no one but myself to blame. I did this. I did this to me.

Wish I could take it back but I know nothing would change even if I did.

I don't know if I'll survive if I keep ruining myself. Brb, gonna go cry some more because I did something stupid that I knew was stupid. Hate myself.

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I want someone who's world revolves around me. So bad. So nothing could ever go wrong.

I studied btw. Cause that's all that matters doesn't it? Only matters that I work..... not whether I actually.. idk..

Back to feeling useless.. back to losing the will to do things.. back to blaming life. I hate when I do this.

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I'm going to start posting of whether or not I studied, cause I'm procrastinating and my dream life ain't gonna be handed to me on a platter. Let's see if I start lying to myself again.

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Have you ever wondered if everything you're working for is really worth it?

Ever lost motivation because you lose sight of exactly why you're doing it?

Ever became accepting of failure then stopped feeling the pleasure of success?