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I’m just gonna leave this here.

(I watched Spider-Man: Homecoming last night.)

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Home

Thud. Thud. Thud. 

Bucky’s heart beat against his rib cage, as he laid, motionless on the floor. His chest ached as the pressure in his sternum grew with each beat of his exhausted heart. For the first time in a long time, Bucky wished to go home. But the janky stairwell and smell of Mrs. Norsburg’s perfume and Steve’s crooked smile broken by some bigger guy’s fist wasn’t what he wanted. He didn’t wish for the bed he had shared with his sister. He didn’t wish for the comfort of people who knew his name, not his face. 

No, Bucky wanted to go home.  

Home where redheaded assassins ranted about annoying Sitcom characters. Home where Wakandian warriors often broke in to glare at his messy kitchen and offer frozen Toaster Strudel. Home where ex-fly boys smiled pretty and bright, just for Bucky. Home where Friday nights were booked for movie binging, and no one judged when Bucky asked to watch something a little older. Home where it was okay if he had bad days, and his missing arm flared as his confused brain tried to use it. Home where nagging therapists weren’t expecting something that, if they looked just a little closer – if they took one second to understand one thing outside of themselves, they’d never find it. 

Bucky wanted to go home where he had someone to call  baby and doll and sweetheart. Bucky wanted to go home where he could fall into bed next to his best friend and ask him how his day was. 

“Great,” Sam would say on some days. 

“Horrible,” Sam would say on others. And Bucky would paw at his shoulder, until he rolled into Bucky’s chest, planting his face in its place between Bucky’s chin and collar bone.

Bucky had wished for that peace; yearned for it since he was a boy. Since he was ten and confused on why he wanted Mrs. Norsburg’s son to notice him so much more than he wanted her daughter, too. 

What would your mother think, James? A voice that sounded too eerily like some distorted, controlling, disapproving version of himself. 

“You’re too hard on yourself.” A voice sounding like Natasha.

“No one else’s opinion matters.” A voice sounding like Ayo.

“Hang in there, buddy.” The cat poster hanging in the government designated therapeutic service office read. 

Bucky wanted to go home, the ache in his chest subsiding as he regained his breath and pushed himself off the ground. He had been selfless for so long, fighting for some war he didn’t fucking believe in; for some institution who wouldn’t jump to give it’s life for him in the same way he had been trained to give his for it. 

He wanted to go home to his Sweetheart; his Love; his Sam.

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In before What If ...? S2

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What If… Captain Carter Fought The HYDRA Stomper and Black Widow fought the friendzone

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"oh my god ao3 is still down I need it I'm literally losing my mind and going crazy please" girl you and I both know that you have at least twenty unread books

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I feel like this is how addicts feel when going through withdrawal if i dont read a 4000+ words fan-made fictional story about two queer people falling in love in the next 24 hours I'm literally going to end up in the ER

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me when ao3 is down so I'm forced to go to bed early and have a good 8 hours of sleep before going back to work tomorrow instead of burning my retina on my screen phone reading about the same guys falling in love over and over until 3 am

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y'all heard about the WGA strike? here's how you can support us if you're not a member.

writers with the WGA have access to a strike fund that will help them out, but there are many other hollywood employees, assistants, and crew members who will need financial aid during the strike. you can donate to the entertainment community fund (tax deductible!) and help ease their burden. choose "film and television" in the drop-down menu under the gift designation.

if you can't donate, please at least boost and spread the word! and thank you to everyone who's been showing solidarity and asking how they can help us out, it's been overwhelming in the best sense of the word ♡

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Barbie: Born Again (2024)

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his pathetic babygirlism has bewitched me body and soul

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i come on this app to change my icon and remind myself why i love gay people then leave

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How can time be still, and still be running out?

Goncharov (1973) dir. Matteo JWHJ0715

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why are stevetony like That in endgame

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Paper rings au : prom

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This scene from Avengers Assemble S3E25 lives rent-free in my head

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wake up besties, new quiz just dropped 😌

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Random fact from this multiverse AU: AA Steve shows up in the Tony Summit lobby so often that the Receptionist Tony has given him the nickname "Lover Boy"