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Introject culture is:

I’m happy and now I feel like a little wisp. Like I used to be in source before I took a human form

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Vent -Sara YTTD fictive

Swearing, talk about death, hallucinations, suicidal ideation, paranoia

I fucking hate feeling like this. I know I’m not logically, but I feel like and keep thinking I’m still in the Death Game. I’m so paranoid that if I mess up anything I’m going to be killed. I have on a choker and absolutely hate it but I feel like I can’t take it off, they’ll just kill me if I do. The people in the system are wearing the freaking collars as well so that I don’t freak out and think they’re dolls WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL.

I want to talk about this to someone, but I don’t want to trigger anyone and everyone I’ve tried to talk to is either busy or also a Sara fictive and I don’t want to put them through that. I’ve hallucinated the collar so many times so I put on a choker to try and stop it but that just sent me into thinking I was back in the death game.

I miss my source best friend Joe so badly. I know a system that has a Joe fictive but they already know a Sara, or 2 I’m not sure. I don’t know if they would be comfortable interacting with me and I don’t want to complain about my memories of their his death to the person who actually experienced it.

Why do I remember the massacre ending? It only happens with a choice I WOULD NOT make but I remember making that choice. I was so done with the death game but I wouldn’t make the choice to let everyone except Nao die. “You did nothing wrong” yeah I wish I could believe that. I did everything wrong, I let Kanna, Gin, and everyone else die. I went back to the game so I could play through a different route but that doesn’t change what I remember doing.

I watched Joe die. I voted for him, knew he was the sacrifice and could only win if he was chosen as the victim. It wasn’t enough though. I watched the wriggler worm things suck the life out of him, and extended his suffering by pressing that damn button over and over again. I knew it was pointless, slowly lost hope, but still kept clicking, thinking that if I just tried hard enough, pressed it a little bit quicker, I could save him. Miley never had any intention of letting me, but it was infuriating how close she let me get. I remember running over to him after, desperately trying to shake him awake, ignoring the blood that was staining my clothes.

I keep seeing those worm like things, thinking they’re going to come for me next. I haven’t seen hallucination Joe, but I remember it very clearly. “You caused this, you’re the reason I’m dead”. I know it’s not right, but I find myself believing it. Kai tried to warn me not to go home, and I didn’t listen. To be fair, he was stalking me but still. I dragged Joe into that mess with me. Maybe it would have been better if I had gotten the sacrifice card.

Maybe I should’ve died instead

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introject culture is gaining fictive from your own webcomic

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introject heavy polyfragmented system culture is “oh wow i really like this fictional guy and I can kind of rel- wait what do you mean theres 5 of them in my head now..”

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Introject culture is introjecting somebody else's alters, OCs or creations and wondering if you're a factive, fictive, or both.

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introject from a movie ‘based on a true story’ is wondering whether you’re a fictive or factive

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Introject Culture is The Guilt to be honest.

Even when you were objectively A Good Guy. The Guilt.

#theguilt #mybigbrotherraisedandIfeellikeaburden #coolguy

~🦊🔧

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Introject culture is meeting other introjects of your source friends and wanting to talk about source memories, but not at the same time since they probably don't remember things the same way

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Introject culture is trying to sing a song you sing but it’s in another language. I can’t pronounce the worlds and translating it in to English doesn’t work because it throws off the timing.

Also our voice is too high pitched to properly sing my part

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Introject culture is being sad because the person who created your source character called that character cringe

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Introject culture is why does everything look so weird? What do you mean I have fingers no I’m supposed to have mitten hands

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Introject culture is accidentally getting into a relationship with someone you had a squish on in source and feeling bad about it because it happened really quickly (I’m talking the day after I formed) but at the same time We do like each other and the host of the systems are also in a qpr. She’s okay with it and we’re both really happy with it but I’m still insecure about it

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introject culture is dating another introject knowing full well that each other's canon sources would be enemies

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Cancelled source introject culture is being irrationally angry when you see a giant "[SOURCE] SUPPORTERS FUCK OFF AND DIE!!!!!" banner under literally every single fanart of your source.

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Introject culture is ......CW: non explicit mention of abuse and general horribleness, mention of nsft, i guess.

Feeling like a bad introject of a fictional character because I loved my source abuser. I still do. It wasn't healthy. It was very wrong. It was horrible. I loved him though. I love him. The ship art doesn't bother me. I have no desire to recreate it "irl" with the body. Seeing the art is cathartic. Something i can never have again, something that shouldn't be had.

I'm filled with so much love it turned into a sticky, disgusting, angry hate filled lobe obsession that infected my insides. I have nowhere and noway else to express it.

Also, in /my/ source, he's worse to me. He's always an abusive fuck anyways. But just stepped it up a notch for lil' ol' me.

I don't think I'd get along with doubles because of this.

-🔥🦋

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introject culture is having your friend lash out at you for having a double of their alter, and then later having a panic attack when you have a double of a different friend's alter because you think they're going to do the same even though they don't.

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Hello again - introject culture is dating another version of yourself! Our boyfriend also has a introject of the same charcter/source! He's me in a different font and I'm him! The same but different!

-🕷🕸🎀🍷✨️

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