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my favorite way to ragebait men is to tell them the story of how the vibrator was created

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currently having thoughts of becoming and evil witch and throwing away all my dreams to just live in the woods and curse people for afar

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Save me an orange- Haley grace.

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me when i realize i said something my mother would say

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“i do my nails at home! i save so much money!!” i say as i spend three hours hunched over an uv lamp crying over french tips

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growing up without receiving love from ur parents is so weird because yes i am full of it but how can i show it to you. i have so much love to give but no idea of how to do so.

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“why do you write?”

because where else would i put it down? there is too much on my mind, and who would bear to sit down and hear me tell them about it? who sat down with the ten year old me when she couldn’t even talk to her mother about it, because “it” was there because of her mother?

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i knew things at 13 that i don’t know now. they are scattered somewhere in the poems i wrote and the journal entries i have. sometimes i try to look for them, but it seems as if they are locked somewhere far away. one day i will remember.

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i watched a video essay about that

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“We are creatures bound by the limits of our perception, yearning for certainty in a world that offers none. Perhaps the answer is not in finding absolute truth but in accepting the unknown, embracing the mystery, and continuing to ask questions even when no answers exist.”

-SN, the paradox of knowing (aka an essay i wrote for my philo class)

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i love life

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ghost whisperer😔

no one can break the bond between a girl and a show from the 2000s that have 40 minute episodes and 20 episode seasons

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and its like wow !!! life can actually be good !!!! and i think being scared is better than being angry !!! being because scared means that you genuinely care about what is going to happen !!! because you want it to be good !!!

-me to a friend over an instagram chat

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“there isn’t much that scares me more than my own heart, a monster of tenderness if there ever was such a thing. it sounds strange, but I have an irrational fear that one day I’ll wake up to find it (it being my heart) perched at the foot of my bed in a cloud of desperation, begging to be torn apart and consumed in the name of compassion. and that’s incredibly terrifying for a few different reasons, but mainly because I’d do it. I’ve never needed an excuse to sacrifice myself for love; I’m a martyr for everything soft. I confess to you: I’d bleed for anything if it held me the right way. I confess: I have. I have. I have.”

— phantom pain, by Caitlin Conlon

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Life is no 'brief candle' to me. It is a sort of splendid torch, which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible.

― George Bernard Shaw

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I had a broken tooth and you had a shitty car that sang at certain speeds. I was holding my bleeding mouth but we were all laughing. You were the only one who was worried. Speeding to the doctor with your hands at ten and two, sending me the occasional look and asking if it hurts, does it hurt.

All the memories of you do.

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eating pastries is so humiliating cause you'll be having the time of your life having it and then when you're finished you look down and you're covered in flakes and sugardust like fuuuck now everyone is going to know i'm a messy pastry whore