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Me: we're not going to daydream about any of our active WIPs because when we do that we end up finishing the story in our head, liking that version, getting discouraged when we can't remember it word for word when we go to write it down, and end up abandoning the project.

Also me: but what if we rewrote it in our head 5 times before going to sleep.

Me: … fair enough.

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Roman “Crossing the Line”

Okay, so Sanders Sides is not my main fandom (I’m not sure I have one anymore) but I do love it a lot and I honestly don’t watch Tangled but I did fall down a YouTube hole. Somewhere in all that it suddenly seemed like Crossing the Line would be the most epic Roman turns into a Dark Side song. (I know this is bad, but come on, if he did, he’d need a song!)

Not to mention the cut lyrics... cut deeply.

(I'm done being one of the fools --> listening to/accepting Janus)

(There are lines I've always felt I had to toe / I've been trapped by lines you never had to live in --> remus vs roman creativity stuff)

(That's a line that I'm not falling for again --> JANUS)

Also, him getting to say ‘let it burn’ almost in a dig against Let It Go? sounds like an opportunity Roman wouldn’t want to miss...

I’m sure someone else has already noticed this and made a much better post about it but I’d just thought I’d get it out there for my own peace of mind. I wanted to color code but it’s been to long since I’ve made a real post and I honestly don’t remember. Maybe later.

EDIT BECAUSE WTF THIS COULD BE JANUS, TOO: I just realized like an idiot this could be a full out Janus song. I mean, hello, Taking what’s mine? Janus, as he decides to try and “leave behind” Remus and join the “Light Sides” With SO MANY pointed jabs at Virgil.

(There's a line between the chosen and the rest --> Thomas & co  accepting Virgil)

(But I've never got the chances you were given -->VIRGIL)

(You don't know how much I've been denied --> Lying be good?)

Thomas: This has to stop now Whatever it is that you're going through, we'll fix it together - me and you Just like we've always done

Roman: No! This has to stop now This thing where you think that you've been my friend And don't even hear how you condescend The way you've always done

Patton: Roman, listen Roman: I'm listening Patton: I know it isn't true Roman: Isn't it? Patton: Just look into my eyes now Roman: Well? Patton: I know you feel it too Roman: Perhaps I do

Logan: Roman, listen Roman: I'm listening Logan: I swear it's not too late So before another line gets crossed and everything we've had is lost just wait...

Roman: Wait? No, I won't wait.

There's a line between the winners and the losers There's a line between the chosen and the rest And I've done the best I could But I've always known just where we stood Me here with the luckless You there with the blessed

And that line between the beggars and the choosers is a line you never let me quite ignore How I've tried to jump that great divide! But I've never got the chances you were given You don't know how much I've been denied Well, I'm not being patient anymore

[I'm crossing the line! So get out of my way 'Cause I'm not gonna play by your rules It's my time to shine I don't need your 'OK' And I'm done being one of the fools I'm crossing that line

There are lines that I've been waiting in forever There are lines I've always felt I had to toe Some were blurry, some unseen Some I've had to learn to read between So many boundaries Far more than you know!

But the line you think connects us both together? That's a line that I'm not falling for again 'Cause this time my eyes are open wide I've been trapped by lines you never had to live in You were never really on my side So I'm doing what I should have, way back when]

I'm crossing the line! And I'm done holding back So look out, clear the track, it's my turn! I'm taking what's mine Every drop, every smidge If I'm burning a bridge, let it burn! But I'm crossing the line...

As for us, if we're over, that's fine... I'm crossing the line

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once more, into the void

It’s been ages since I updated. I mostly lurk these days, liking and reblogging  with a few exceptions. So many drafts sitting in my queue unposted. so much of it is just feeling sorry for myself or reminiscing about people.

I’ll say it. I’ve been a bad friend. I’ve ghosted people, not necessarily on purpose but the result is the same. i let things slide and now... we’re not “friends” anymore. I still love them. everyone i don’t talk to anymore, i want to make that clear. i still care. how can i not care about people who helped me through some of the toughest times in my life? of course i care. and i know that it’s... not enough. that the things we loved together or did together... it’s not enough now to maintain a kind of friendship. relationship? acquaintanceship? whatever it is or was I’m glad it happened. and when i see your names come up i still think of you and the things we did. and i’m grateful. i am. i think i said once i didn’t have enough energy to maintain so many relationships. god, how cruel it sounds. and maybe it’s true. i focus so much of my social energy on my fiance now and i have minimal friendships with coworkers and ...it’s enough. most of the time it’s enough. but now and again. i feel the loss of companionship. i miss adventuring.

just. So many things have changed. I’m not who i used to be and yet...i am. I’m still that weirdo I always was.

I’ve had a bit to drink and, well, not too many people read this anyway. There’s still a lot of comfort in shouting into the void.

I don’t know what the hell is going on with the world now. This covid-19 thing scares me a little. For all I like the post-apocalyptic aesthetic, I didn’t think we’d get there this soon and to be honest there’s a reason it’s post-apocalypse, not pre- or during.

Unless of course, some great writer has done a fantastic job and it involves your favorite pairing. ;)

So. What shall I say? I’m getting married. If you’d told me ten years ago I’d have laughed in your face. If you’d told me who it would be I wouldn’t have believed you.

Fucking topsy-turvy world. And I guess for a fangirl all you can do is lean into it. I got my “they knew each other in high school”. i got drunken declarations. i got so many cliches that I’d hate to read about. and I got someone who every time I think revealing more about how weird I am will ruin things doesn’t let it happen. accepts me. and i don’t know how. but fuck am I glad.

i’m feeling a lot right now. and i need to get it out. so hello daddy, hello mom...ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb!

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Has this been done yet?

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rethinking about Doc Oc’s villainy reveal in Spiderverse again

it wasn’t just the fact that she was gender-swapped that made her reveal so surprising, but her whole vibe made her villainy reveal so much more shocking because the combination of her wrinkles, her crows feet, her soft smile, her wacky hair, her huge nerdy glasses, and her general appearance as a punk Ms Frizzle remix, it was all the more extraordinary that this well established spiderveser villain didn’t immediately look like a villain, and yet when she revealed her identity it was so obvious, completely subverting our standards for what ‘villainy’ is, so when the tentacles came out of this kind-looking lesbotic sex symbol, we all just went

they got us. the art and design team played us like a violin in a Niccolò Paganini’s Violin Concerto No. 2 in B Minor and we ain’t even mad

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What a mystery this world, one day you love them and the next day you want to kill them a thousand times over. The Fall (2006) dir. Tarsem Singh

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One of the kids is into the new Kpop. Agreed to listen to some 20 "bops” of their choosing.

Halfway through the feeling is very... 

Maybe it’s just the style. I’m also not sure if i want to enjoy any? I don’t know if i can go back to that Kpop life.

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Now I know how Yondu felt.

Guardians of the Galaxy vol. 2 (2017) dir. James Gunn

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star trek beyond was both the movie we needed and the movie we deserved

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Marvel au where everything is the same except steve rogers is replaced by shaggy rogers

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For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. 

Happy Star Wars Day!

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Such feels…

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That scene in Mulan where all the ancestors are arguing about whose fault it was that Mulan ran off to join the army except with all the Force ghosts arguing about Ben Solo.

This is the greatest thing I have ever drawn I am so proud

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Getting your bff to post a million songs because you forced them to listen to them the night before. 

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Update

So it’s that time again. As of last last week it’s been two years since I was hired. Last year I talked about how much I’d learned/improved and it was largely work-based since I was trying to escape my old location and get a new position back at my original one. Which I did.

Since last year...I’ve definitely moved past “new-hire”. I feel more connected to my location, mostly because it was the place I’d wanted to get back to, but really I feel like it’s home. I’ve learned things that work with students and things that don’t. The same applies to other coworkers/managers. Mostly it’s just confidence and I honestly feel like I’ve improved a lot.

Outside of work...well, I got myself a boyfriend. I haven’t been blasting it from the skies on here, and at first I really didn’t know what was going on. 

But it’s been going on for about a year. We started out super casual and I think we’ve finally becoming something...more. What “more” is, we’re still figuring out but I think it’s starting to turn into something great. 

He’s been good for me. He’s really supportive and I need that when I have rough days. Hell, it’s nice on good days. So yeah, I’m pretty happy.

I’m looking forward to Fall, even if I’ll be officially ten years older than the freshman. At least there are enough coworkers my age to relate to as the ability-to-relate gap widens.