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remember when i used to use tumblr 

yeah

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Hey I really need a link to stream some episodes of game of thrones.. putlocker and flixanity just arent working

wow you're lucky i still have email notifications on this account (and that i remembered my password hahah). yeah GoT is really hard to get a hold of illegally, HBO are doing a good job covering their tracks. currently i'm not in a position to search for any eps as i'm on holiday and my mobile data doesn't allow me to access those sorts of websites. all i can suggest you do is type into google 'game of thrones season _ episode _' and have a look through the websites there. there's also downloading which you can do through a BitTorrent program and website like Isohunt/Pirate Bay sort of thing. otherwise if you're in the uk and have a friend with Sky, you could ask for their SkyGo password. or if you're in the usa you could do the same with the HBO account. sorry i can't be of more help currently, hope you manage to find it somewhere! (if you're still looking after august 16th then give me another message and i'll try my best) :)

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an open letter to tumblr,

i am leaving this website, and moving on to better things...

it is with a lighter and much happier heart that i post this. 

i’ve not been on this website for the best part of a month, and i feel so much better for it. (i queued a lot of posts which is why there has still been activity on my blog)

for a long time i have noticed that there is a lot of toxicity on tumblr, i won’t go into details of what this toxicity entails, but i’m sure you’ve all seen it too. after being away from tumblr for so long, i now realise how bad it had been making me feel. and now if i look at my dash, most things actually irritate me. so, after what i thought would be a lot of deliberation but was in fact very little, i am deciding to end my time here.

i’ve learnt a lot. before i was on this website, i know i made a lot of mistakes in regards to racism, homophobia, biphobia, transphobia, and basically everything you could probably think of. so much shit is ingrained into society, i thought i was right in what i was saying, but how wrong i was. i used to make jokes that at one point i found funny, but now i realise how disgraceful they are. i know i’ve made mistakes, and it’s thanks to tumblr that i am now so much more understanding about the world and the different people that are in it. so for that, i am thankful for being on this website. it’s changed me in so many ways, mostly for the better. and this was a big reason for why i wanted to stay: i was worried that because i wasn’t on here, i would stop learning all of these important things about people, and seeing the important news that the media doesn’t cover. but i know that now i am a different person, and my understanding is much better than it once was. i know that i can still learn new things, and learn from my mistakes, just not necessarily from this website now. 

tumblr was also a great place for me to get away for a while. i enjoyed reblogging things and making my blog look nice, and i learned how to gif and edit, and seeing some of my posts get a lot of notes was something i always liked (i mean, how can you not). i also made a few good friends here too, and i hope we can still keep in contact by different means. however ‘a while’ could sometimes turn into too long, and into obsession. i would spend hours perfectly organising my queue so at least five posts in a row wouldn’t be from the same fandom. it got so bad, that at one point i wouldn’t queue posts if they weren’t different shaped images (i.e. two 500px wide posts would not go together). i wasted a lot of time trying to make my blog perfect, when not many people even view it (i know this because i don’t really look at other people’s blogs like i look at mine). it put unnecessary stress on me, and during important periods of time e.g. exams, i would spend hours a day scrolling through my dash rather than doing important things like revising or sleeping. so where tumblr was good for me, it was also very bad.

there’s more reasons for leaving that i could write about, but these are the main things.

i have several blogs which i will be finishing as well, which again, is sad for me. my hannibal blog had been doing particularly well, and i was enjoying posting things on it, but i think for my own sake, it’s worth leaving that behind too. (though i am looking for admins on it, so at least it won’t go to waste) 

i will be leaving this account as it is for now, as i still have some private messages to reply to. if anyone has any questions or messages for me, they will go directly to my email so i will reply to them for the next few weeks, but i will not be posting any more. 

i’m glad i finally grew the strength to leave this website. there’s probably a lot more i could write here, but i’m sure you don’t care to read it (a lot of you probably haven’t even made it this far), so for now, it is goodbye. who knows, maybe i will come back in the future, but currently i don’t see that happening. 

you might be wondering why i’m making such a big thing of this, but it is quite a big step for me. if you told me i was going to leave this website a few months ago, i’d have probably laughed in your face. there was actually a time i thought i’d never leave this site. but this is also a big thing for me because it’s leaving part of my childhood behind (well, i started when i was 17 and now i’m 21, but close enough). there were times when i would be on tumblr for hours at a time, laughing, smiling, crying. pretty much every emotional reaction you could think of, tumblr has made me do it. so whilst i’m sad that i will be leaving tumblr behind, i am also happy, because it means i’m finally moving on with my life a bit more, and growing up more too, which is always something i’ve been scared to do. (also, no more spoilers for my tv shows omg)

so here we are, 3 years, 2 months, and 20 days since i began. it’s been a heck of a ride. i’ve learnt so much from being here, and i’m so very grateful for it. but now it’s time for another adventure. “home is behind, the world ahead” as my old pal tolkien puts it.

see you around,

emily xx

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To very best times, John.

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fangirl challenge: [1/10] movies » guardians of the galaxy (2014)

“We’re the fricking Guardians of the Galaxy!”

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spn hiatus creations: week 1

“you’re my weak spot. you are. and i’m yours”

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Matt Murdock “Into the ring”

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lord of the rings meme: nine quotes → [1/9]

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us." 

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favorite parks and rec scenes

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