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someone: what are your talents?

me, from memory: dear evan hansen we’ve been way too out of touch. things have been crazy and it sucks that we don’t talk that much. but I should tell you that I think of you each night. I rUB MY NIPPLES AND START MOANING WITH DELIGHT- “-whY WOULD YOU WRITE THAT???” “I’m just trying to tell the truth” “these need to be Perfect. These emails need to prove that we were actually friends. Just- I’ll do it!” I gotta tell ya life without ya has been hard. “HHARD??” Has been BaD. “BAd?” Has been R O U G H! “kinky!” And I miss talking about life and other stuff,, “very specific…” “shut uuuuuuuuuhuuup” I like my parents- “who SAYS that??” I LOVE my parents but each day’s another fight. If I stop smoking drugs then everything might be alright. “Smoooking drugs…?” “JUST FIX IT” IF I STOP SMOKING C R A C K “CRACK?!?!?!????” If I stop smoking pot then everything might be alriiiigghhtt. I’ll take your Advice. I’ll try to be more “n i c e”. I’ll turn it around, wait and SEEEEE!!!! *knee dance* CAUSE ALL THAT IT TAKES IS A LITTLE RE-IN-VEN-TION! *knee dance* IT’S EASY TO CHANGE IF YOU GIVE IT YOUR A-TEN-TION!!!! ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS JUST BELIEVE YOU CAN BE WHO YOU WANNA BE! Sincerely, Me. “Are we done yet?” “Well I can’t just give them one email. I wanna show that I was, like, a good friend, ya know?” “Hoh my God” Dear connor Murphy yes I also miss our talks. Stop doing drugs, just try to take deep breaths and go on walks. “No” I’m sending pictures of the most amazing trees!!!! “NO” 🌳🌳you’ll be obsessed with all my forest expertise 🌳🌳🌳!!!!!! “Absolutely not” Dude I’m proud of you! Just keep pushing through! You’re turning around, I can see! Just wait and see!! *knee dance* Cause all that it takes is a little re-in-ven-TION!! It’s easy to change if you give it your a-ten-tion!!! All you gotta do is just believe you can be who you wanna be!!! Sincerely, me! MY SISTER’S HOT! “What the H E L L-“ “my bad” dear Evan Hansen thanks for every note you send. Dear Connor Murphy I’m just glad to be your friend. Our friendship goes beyond your average kind of bond!!! -BUT NOT BECAUSE WE’RE GAY! No not because we’re GAY! We’re close, but not That Way! (lies) The only man that I love is my,,,,, D A D..,,..,,,,,,,,,………………………… WELL ANYWAY! YOU’RE GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY!! I’M GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY!!!!!!!! KEEP GETTING BETTER EVERY DAAAAYYY!!!!!!! HEY HEY HEY HEY!!!!!!!!! *knee dance intensifies* CAUSE ALL THAT IT TAKES IS A LITTLE RE-IN-VEN-TION! IT’S EASY TO CHANGE IF YOU GIVE IT YOUR A-TEN-TION!!! ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS JUST BELIEVE YOU CAN BE WHO YOU WANNA BE!! SINCERELY, miss you dearly 💝💖💘💕, Sincerely, me. Sincerely me! Sincerely MEEEE-EEEEEEE-EEEEEEEE-EEEYYYYY!!! Sincerely, me!

them: *is already long gone*

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so when Erika left to travel and sing, she didn't promise Dominick that she was gonna come back to marry him so why did Anneliese and Julian also wait until she came back to have a double wedding? like it wasn't just Dominick like all 3 of them waited for Erika to come back to get married. idk man polycule vibes

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Barbie princess and the pauper is trans lesbian solidarity actually

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So I stumbled upon someone else‘s “Our Flag Means Death“-Spotify Playlist and they had the Barbie song “To be a Princess“ in it. And at first I was like: Pleasantly surprised, but why? But then my thoughts just KEPT going back to the idea of Stede singing an only slightly altered version of that song to Ed in Episode 5 whilst prepping for the dinner event…. And now I’m like: IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE. IMMA DRAW IT!!!!

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why was erika from princess and the pauper's dress trans flag coloured. and the fact that she had to "pass" as a princess. and how her songs are about loving who you are and not changing for anyone despite being different and loving someone for who they are. also the fact that she has a cat who barks??? in this essay i will

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jehan frollo du moulin has 100% shown up hungover to his brother’s sermon’s, and proceeded to roll the cleanest blunt you’ve ever seen next to him on the pew and light it while staring claude right in the eye. 

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k but like im still hung up on how jehan frollo went from being quasi’s half brother to his biological father. and the interesting thing is, it actually changes the story a LOT. like, in the book, quasimodo just kind of shows up and frollo adopts him out of fear that that could have been jehan, and he sympathizes with that. more so, quasimodo in the book is more of a representation of the soul of notre dame rather than a character of his own. he exists to serve notre dame, in a way. jehan’s just the drunken spoiled younger brother who goes to his brother for money instead of getting a job and living independently. florika doesn’t exist, jehan never gets kicked out of school, and he doesn’t have a child he can’t take care of. it takes away from TONS of the motivation the musical ends up having for the big “what makes a monster and what makes a man” message.

in the musical, as mentioned before, jehan falls in love with a roma woman, they get kicked out and have quasimodo, who jehan, in a last ditch effort, hands over to his brother to take care of. the tone of this action varies from actor to actor. lucas coleman’s jehan seems to give quasimodo away genuinely out of a want for the child to have a successful, good life, and he knows that frollo might be able to give him that. now contrast that with jeremy stolle’s jehan who gives quasimodo to frollo because even on his death bed, he continues to go back to his brother for aid. he perpetuates the notion that jehan was constantly dependent on others up until his dying breath. 

regardless of how the action is played out, it’s important that it happens because it sets us up for like…the entire story of hunchback of notre dame. if jehan doesn’t give his newborn child to claude frollo, there’s no story. i think in frollo’s eyes, quasimodo is seen as a sort of “second chance”. he sees how his brother kind of fell from grace and turned to a life of “sin” in the eyes of the catholic church, and how that almost definitely means he’s damned to hell. and remember, that’s his brother, the man he admits to loving the entire time at the end of the show. frollo’s seeing his brother go against everything they were ever taught and to him it results in his death and damnation. that’s insane.

aha, but the child. look, it’s my brothers child that’s kind of fucked up, and comes from (in frollo’s mind) two fucked up parents, maybe i can save him in the way i couldnt save my brother.

jehan frollo being quasimodo’s biological father allows the hunchback of notre dame to begin its entire plot, and gives most of frollo’s motivation for raising quasimodo the way he does which in turn motivates quasimodo to leave the cathedral and the whole thing falls like a domino effect all because jehan frollo gave away his child. the entire action in itself sets up the “what makes a monster and what makes a man” message, and i think that’s something that’s completely lacking in the book.

like ok, i understand that the book was never about social justice, it was about architecture, but if you’re going to make all of these awful characters, i think you should at least give them a solid reasoning for it, because they’re clearly motivated by something, we just never know what. as much as i don’t, and don’t want to, you can’t even put the blame on esmerelda, which you shouldn’t, because she didn’t do anything, but even if you were to try, you couldn’t, because everything that happens to frollo is the result of his own actions and feelings and thoughts. 

i’m rambling now and getting off track, but like bro i just wanna know how we got from point A to point B and how that affects the story, and why that change was chosen and implemented. 

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If you want to cry and swoon at the same time, listen to the Hunchback of Notre-Dame musical soundtrack, I beg of you.

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it's not my fault!

It's in God's plan!

He made the Devil (the temptation to stay up until 2AM) so much stronger than a man.....

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I think the most lesbian thing about Imodna is how quickly they seem to have gotten ride or die with each other. Like. They met in a town two or three years ago and "hit it off really well" and just straight up ran away together like some fairy-tale couple. Like. In true lesbian fashion they just ACCELERATED from "just met" to "essentially married" in like a week. Icons.

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In hindsight I probably should have known I was queer when as a kid I thought #TeamEdward and #TeamJacob was relating to who was better suited to Bella. I was completely confused as to why anyone chose Jacob as that was just toxic………. I was a whole 21 years of age when I found out it was who people found more attractive.